hey taekoos💜

"touch me, tease me, feel me up."

It hadn't been long after the night of Jeungguk being sick. The two had gone back to how they previously were. But constant messages and calls were passed between one another. nothing ever went beyond asking for things or knowing the other's location.

Jeungguk wanted to get the elder's attention back on him somehow. It wasn't like Taehyung did talk to him before but right now he was never home until very late. Expanding his business abroad had affected everyone's life within the mansion.

He missed having Taehyung, sitting at the same table with him for dinner. Or having the other in bed with him. They always ended up tangled against one another but Jeungguk always removed himself before the other could wake up. He missed that warmth.

The warmth of having someone for you. To care for you and to love you. It wasn't simple for Jeungguk to fall in love. Knowing very well it was a sign of weakness. But he couldn't help himself when Taehyung came into his life.

It was as if Taehyung had come with a map. Not just to his heart, but his soul as well. Showing the goodness of love and leaving him craving for it at the end. But he wanted that raw form of emotion only from the elder.

He sighed as he looked at the last text he had received from the other. After almost one month, the blonde-haired husband was home early. Which means dinner together at the same table. After a long time and Jeungguk just wanted more than that.

"What's going on in your mind kook?" he heard a voice. He looked up to see Yoongi watching him, intently.

"Nothing Hyung. I was just thinking about Taehyung."

Yoongi only chuckled at the reply. "Of course you are. You always are thinking about him so please call me when you think about something else."

Jeungguk only shook his head. "Not that way Hyung. I want to get Taehyung's attention on me somehow. For the entire time. I don't want him to go away from me. I want to fulfil my craving for attention from him. The attention that I didn't get for one entire month."

Yoongi took in the other's situation and sat down by the chair. He seemed to be thinking hard on the issue as well. "You should just ask Namjoon. He is the one with ideas for anything and everything."

Jeungguk also agreed. They were going to call when Namjoon himself entered. "Just the person we were looking for!" Jeungguk heard Yoongi squeal in delight. And this was a very sight for all the men present in the room.

Yoongi cleared his throat while Jeungguk and Namjoon got out of their trance. "I mean. Namjoon, Jeungguk was looking for you." Namjoon could only nod his head as he occupied another chair beside Yoongi.

"What did you need me for?" Namjoon asked as he left a lingering gaze on Yoongi who was still getting over the embarrassment he had caused upon himself.

Jeungguk cleared his throat as he spoke. "I need an idea to get someone's attention." He spoke.

"Kill them." Came the reply from Namjoon, leaving both Yoongi and Jeungguk gaping. Wide eyes, they just continued to stare at Namjoon. Waiting for him to further explain it. "I mean it is only cause they are alive that you want their attention right."

Namjoon said as he twisted and twirled the paperweight kept in front of him. Yoongi, on the other hand, shook his head as Jeungguk cleared the answer he had just heard from his hyung.

"This isn't going to work out. I thought he would have an idea, looks like he only sees red right now." Yoongi voiced out as Jeungguk nodded along. That was when an idea popped into Yoongi's mind. He snapped his fingers as his eyes suddenly held stars. Admiring himself for the idea he had chosen.

"Why don't you just get drunk Jeungguk?" he asked Jeungguk. Eyeing the other to absorb his reaction. Jeungguk shook his head and put his head down. "Both of you are useless. I will have to think of something on my own only at this rate." Jeungguk muttered.

Loud enough for the two to catch onto though. And once they did, Yoongi spoke up to defend his point. "don't people usually do all crazy things when they get drunk? You can keep that as an excuse and get closer to him!" Yoongi exclaimed.

The idea, now having been explained, didn't seem all too that bad to Jeungguk. He signalled the other to explain further, which Yoongi gladly did. "People are usually really unaware of what they do when they get drunk. So you can use that as an excuse. Get drunk to the highest and use that to your advantage. He won't be able to move anywhere else with a clinging Jeungguk on his shoulder right?"

Jeungguk nodded along as he formulated a plan to execute this. A foolproof plan where he could drink and get his husband's attention as well as remember what happened during the time.

He needed the memory to be able to reminisce in them later on. And to have the guarantee of success if being applied again. The plan having been executed beyond the required point, now Namjoon had a dragging Jeungguk with him while he rang the doorbell to the mansion.

Out came Hyera, who looked confusedly at Namjoon and then shocked at Jeungguk. This was the first time Jeungguk was getting drunk to the point that he couldn't even stand without support.

"Could you please call Taehyung?" Namjoon requested. That's what Jeungguk had wished for anyway, to be in his husband's arms. And so, Namjoon being the good right-handed man that he is was fulfilling his wishes.

"Taetae!!!" Jeungguk squealed when he saw a dishevelled Taehyung running towards him. Taehyung stopped in front of them as he bowed to Namjoon and then ran his eyes over the sulking figure of Jeungguk.

"What happened to him?" the elder asked Namjoon. "He is just-"

But the man never got to complete his sentence as Jeungguk put it upon himself to fall into his husband's arms. He laughed as the other held onto him and struggled a little to keep him in place.

"Bad Joonie! Don't talk to my husband, now shoo!" he said while waving his hands in front of him. Taehyung seemed to have now understood that the other was drunk. "bunny, don't say that! Apologise to Namjoon hyung now!" Taehyung said. His voice, the usual stern cold one.

Jeungguk only shook his head and giggled. Yep, the mafioso giggled. The crazy drunk type, isn't it? "No! he stealing my Taetae from me. He is a bad man! And the bad man should go away!" Jeungguk stood his ground with his arms wrapped around Taehyung's neck as he climbed onto the elder and hoisted himself there.

Taehyung could only sigh on looking at the other's condition. He gave an apologetic smile to Namjoon as he took the bunny-like clinging husband into their room. "Go take a shower now," Taehyung said, once they entered.

But Jeungguk didn't let go. He stayed on the other's waist. "Would you help me?" he asked the elder with doe eyes. Taehyung was thrown off-guard. He hadn't expected that at all. "please help me." Jeungguk whined again at the lack of response.

The blonde could do nothing but listen to the other. He helped the other to slowly peel off his clothes. The clothes were stinking of the strong alcohol. Getting the other to remove his boxers on his own was a task. Taehyung was embarrassed as it is, and being told to remove that as well. He would've combusted.

He washed the other down as he scrubbed the soap foam on him. "How much more irresponsible can you get? You are a mafia and you still got drunk? What if someone attacked you?" Taehyung scolded.

But Jeungguk was too absorbed into the relaxing bath to pay attention to anything else. If making the younger take bath was a problem, then getting him to bed seemed to be a bigger one. Jeungguk just wouldn't let go. He had always refused to wear on a shirt, making Taehyung flustered at their current state.

"No! I won't get onto bed unless you do!" Jeungguk stubbornly stomped on the ground. He behaved, not a day older than a ten-year-old kid, demanding their favourite candy. "Just get on bed Jeungguk, it's not like I am going to disappear!"

Taehyung said frustratedly. He could see the mafioso's eyes fill up to their brim. "Okay fine I will. Only if you tell me why." Taehyung stated while crossing his arms over. He was done with the other's tantrums and was ready to give in.

"you left me alone for almost an entire month already!" Jeungguk said with his hands flying around. "Now, I won't leave you. Only if I leave, will you be able to leave me right?" Jeungguk said. The previous excitement of having Taehyung accept gone.

Now the eyes filling up with tears once again, he holds onto Taehyung's hand a little tighter. Taehyung finally understood where Jeungguk was coming from. "I am sorry Jeungguk. I had work to do, that's why. Otherwise, I would never leave you alone." He said.

He brought the younger one with him to the bed, gently laying down with the mafioso's head on his chest. The other snuggled deeper in response while Taehyung chuckled. The mafia, who was otherwise dominating and fierce was sucker for Taehyung's love and attention.

Something that the other used to enjoy giving the other, without any questions being asked. But right now, it isn't like before. Taehyung heaves thinking about how they used to be.

His mind wanted answers, but he didn't know how he was going to get them from the younger. They had never even had a proper conversation so far, forget about being able to talk about this issue.

He looked down at his husband, who seemed to be snoring in the comfortable warmth provided by the elder. Taehyung ran his hands through the latter's hair as the other melted into that touch and relaxed a little further. "Why did you leave me that day bunny?"

He asked, knowing he wouldn't get any reply from the other. "I am sorry Taehyungie. Someone was threatening me with you and I couldn't protect you." He heard Jeungguk mutter. So, was that the reason for Jeungguk leaving him? Was Taehyung misunderstanding the other all along?

Would it hurt to give the other another chance? Maybe. It wouldn't. not as much as he thought at least. After all, everyone deserved a chance at love. And Jeungguk didn't seem to have anyone to love him. Why not be that person?

He smiled to himself in content. He will talk to the other about it at the right time. right now, he just wanted to reminisce in the other's sweet rained wood smell. He let himself be engulfed into the familiarity of his husband's touch.

-

The next day, though Jeungguk woke up with a pounding headache, he did wake up in Taehyung's arms. This was what he wanted for the longest time. the movement from his husband, woke Taehyung woke up and looked at him, who looked back at him with a sheepish smile.

"Sorry if I woke you up," Jeungguk said as he moved further away. But a hand around him stopped himself from moving any further. "Don't go!" Taehyung whined as he tried to pull Jeungguk closer.

He was only just trying to fulfil his quench of a good hours sleep. He had taken a day off just to get the much-needed rest. And he wasn't going to let anyone, not even Jeungguk spoil it.

Jeungguk chuckled but gave in. he laid back down and let Taehyung do whatever he wanted to. Turns out, it was a good idea indeed because Taehyung tangled himself with Jeungguk and slept back like a panda. Even after two hours, Taehyung showed no signs of waking up.

And Jeungguk just laid there, enjoying Taehyung clinging onto him in his sleep. How much he wished, he would do the same when they were awake as well. But he knew, he shouldn't hope for too much right now.

He could see that the other was slowly beginning to accept the other. He laid there, thinking about all the good times he had with Taehyung in their college time. and how they slowly came shattering down. The proposal he had given the other. Something he would always remember.

He would always remember everything about Taehyung. Even if it is the smallest of things. He would still remember them. Because that's the value that Taehyung had in his life, since the day he stepped into it. yet, he had disappeared from him.

The only one who mattered. Just because he was weak. He wouldn't ever let that happen again. Thinking about it, he held Taehyung closer to him unknowingly. Suddenly afraid to let go.

Taehyung shifted and moved in unease as he was being held too close. He shifted about in Jeungguk's arms while the younger only stared at him. He was too deep in thought to realise what the other was trying to do.

When he came out, it was because of the other's voice. "babe, you might want to move a bit." The raspy voice spoke out. And Jeungguk immediately let go. He was shooketh when Taehyung called him babe. It had been so long that he didn't know how to react.

Taehyung chuckled at the other's reaction. He removed himself from the other and walked towards the bathroom for the morning routine. Jeungguk just stayed in bed, still shook from the earlier incident. He still didn't know how to process that.

Taehyung looked back at the gaping Jeungguk. He smiled warmly at the other and winked at the other. "Let's give us another shot Jeungguk," Taehyung muttered. And he shut the door to the bathroom.

Though Taehyung didn't want to be heard. It was as always, Jeungguk heard it. Jeungguk realized that the other still wanted him. Still wanted to be in his arms at the end of the day and Jeungguk was going to do everything within his power to fulfil that.

It may not be love for the elder yet, but when there is a chance, there is a possibility of it blooming into something more.

note: anyone still here?

~ice💙