hey taekoos💜

quote: "love me and love me not is just a choice between your heart and your mind."

Once Jeungguk ran around for getting ready while Taehyung was still deciding on what Jeungguk should wear, it was finally decided that they would go with casuals. And so here the couple were wearing their normal puma outwears for comfort.

Apparently they would need to walk around a lot and would be out the entire day. And so Jeungguk was forced into good casuals instead of formals like he wanted. It was the first time they were going out together with just two of them. But the effort was futile.

Wantedly or not, he had gotten himself into comfortable clothes as now Taehyung sat behind the steering. He said he wanted to drive around himself and that today was a relaxation day for Jeungguk. He wanted the day to just sit back and enjoy the day. And who was Jeungguk to go against the that? Exactly, no one.

They went around for another hour, with music and jamming sessions. The music that they used to listen to while they were still in college. They talked about their college days. Their happy moments. Jeungguk was surprised to know that Taehyung remembers everything with such details but this wasn't the surprise that was waiting for him.

The real one began when Taehyung parked their car and got out. And so Jeungguk followed to be met with their college campus. The entire hour of the ride he hadn't once asked where they were going. His eyes shining as he looked around the place where he had some of the most peaceful moments of his life.

He then locked his eyes with Taehyung who was only looking at him. Smiling at the happiness that was seen on his husband's face. Taehyung was glad to know that he could bring back the happy memories. He was glad to know that the latter hadnt regretted any of their moments.

"Why are we here? Are we even allowed to be here?" Jeungguk asked as Taehyung had taken the liberty of holding the other's hand. He intertwined their fingers as he looked around the campus as well. It is still the same. It hasn't changed one bit. Taehyung thought as he had his final glance.

"To live through our memories again." He simply said as he dragged Jeungguk along. And so the first place they went to is the dorm room. The place they had talked for the first time. ignoring the time in the café where they bumped into one another.

They jumped through stairs and reached their floor. The floor their rooms were. Fate or destiny, their rooms were opposite to one another. Jeungguk was roomed with a guy named Yeugyum whereas Taehyung was with Jimin, like always.

They had both walked out of their room together and had accused one another of following the other. it was only the previous day that they had met in the café. The café was outside their campus walls and so they hadnt known they were from the same college.

"Do you remember this place?" Taehyung asked as he stood in front of his room, panting and gasping as he had just ran up the stairs. Jeungguk who was holding his knees, while gasping in his breath just smiled.

"Of course I do. The place where I had labelled you a creepy stalker and you were ready to throw hands on me." Jeungguk said as he laughed at the memory now.

"Yep that's right. If it weren't for Jimin holding me back that day, you wouldn't be standing here at all." Taehyung said cheekily. But it was true. He was already a part of the underground mafia group of his uncle by then and was precautious enough to always roam around with weapons.

"Oh please. Like you could ever harm my handsome face." Jeungguk said as he smirked at the other's, now blushing, face. Taehyung turned away to hide his flustered face. It was true that he had quoted the same.

"Don't make me hurt your handsome face." Jeungguk mocked his then words and Taehyung could do nothing but glare at him now. "You are lucky I am your husband now and don't want to be a widower in my young age." Taehyung uttered as he pulled Jeungguk along.

Jeungguk only laughed at that. "at least I know you won't look for someone else if I die." Jeungguk said as Taehyung only ignored the said comment and continued walking.

Their next stop was their campus canteen. The one they sat during lunch. A particular table. One particular table that held one of their ever special memory. They walked around the canteen in search of that special one and once they found it, they sat.

"The place where you were doodling and I just sat beside you for nothing." Jeungguk recalled the memory very clearly. This was one of their best memories. The time they had a proper conversation after their usual 'couple banter' as Yeugyum and Jimin liked to call it.

"Yes. When you had carelessly sat next to me and forgot about the need for personal space or privacy." Taehyung said, beginning to bicker back like their initial college days.

"That is what you remember about that day?" Jeungguk gasped in betrayal as he looked at Taehyung. Taehyung showed out his tongue to the other as he sat in their respective space. That day Jeungguk was exhausted and all he wanted was a bed to sleep on.

When he found Taehyung sitting with Yeugyum and Jimin at their usual spot, he thought why not and went ahead. Taehyung was sitting so appropriately that Jeungguk couldn't help himself and snuggled his way onto the other's lap. Taehyung protested at the beginning but then gave up once he realized how futile it was.

Even now, once Taehyung had sat down at their table, Jeungguk couldn't help himself and snuggled onto the elder's lap. But this time instead of protests and rebels, he could hear Taehyung laughing instead. He also looked up to his husband as he smiled.

"you haven't changed one bit mafioso." Taehyung said as he looked at Jeungguk who had made himself comfortable on his husband's lap. Jeungguk shook his head as he looked back at his lover.

"I still have you so I don't think I need to." Jeungguk said cheekily as he took the other's hand kissed his fingers. Taehyung got flustered at this small act as well. He wasn't used to it. even if Jeungguk used to do it everyday during the days when they were a couple, Taehyung could never get used to it.

"But think about it. If I hadn't come that day, then when would I have known your attraction to me?" Jeungguk then said. The reason why Taehyung had yelled that day about privacy was because the elder was doodling the other. on having seen that was when Jeungguk got the courage to ask the other out for a date.

The two reminisced the day as the canteen worker had brought their lunch. It was the perfect time for that as they sat down quietly and continued to munch on the food. The food itself bringing back thousand memories of their millions of bickering sessions.

Jeungguk now began to think back to their first date. Since the younger had always seen the other with books, he thought the perfect place for their first date would be a library. He still regrets it till date. Having been jealous of books isn't nice apparently. All of Taehyung's attention that day was only on books. He hadn't so much as spared a glance at the boy with him.

Jeungguk smiled at the memory as Taehyung now ushered him to his feet. they were just done with the lunch that was brought in. Taehyung was leading Jeungguk in a particular direction.

And for a fact Jeungguk knew where they were going towards. He remembered the day as clear as yesterday. "I remember running all around the campus in search of you just to see you come out of the place where I wanted to take you." Jeungguk said as he pouted at the memory.

He had actually gone to every possible place in the campus in search of the other. he refused to give up until three hours later when he saw Taehyung come right out of the library.

He had huffed before he fell to his knees and had seen Taehyung come rushing to him. The elder, who had brunette hair at the time had pulled the other onto a bench and gave him water until the younger calmed down. Taehyung had oh-so worriedly asked what had happened only for the other to huff out.

"I wanted to ask you out on a date to the library and I was searching for you. But you were IN the library." Jeungguk had whined out to which Taehyung had started laughing. "oh bunny boy."

"Now come to the library for a date with me." Jeungguk had so boldly uttered out as he had taken up to pulling the other with him. Once right in front of the library they had stopped because Taehyung had pulled back his hand from the other.

"But what if I don't want to go on a date with you?" Taehyung had asked and the colour on Jeungguk's face had totally left. He looked pale as he had never considered the situation where Taehyung would reject the offer. He was stunned and was clueless on what to do next.

"You wouldn't do that to me though, would you?" Jeungguk had asked, unsure about everything and anything around him at that point. He just eagerly continued to look at Taehyung like his life depended on the other.

"Of course I wouldn't do that. Lets go inside bunny." Taehyung had said. The elder had always been a tease. Such a tease that it would always get onto the younger one's nerves. Sometimes he wanted to strangle the brunette to death while other times he wanted to smother the other in kissed and cuddles.

At the very moment they were standing in front of the library as Jeungguk put his hands forth for the other to take it. "would you go on a date with me to the library. But maybe, this time instead of paying attention to only your books, try to pay attention to your husband as well." Jeungguk said as Taehyung had taken the other's hands.

"I can't believe you are still bitter about it." Taehyung huffed out as they made their way inside the library. Jeungguk didn't allow the blonde to lay his hands on any books or let him sit in the library. He knew the other would be lost in his own world if he did let go.

And so after a quiet while of going around from racks to racks while they made small conversations about the books Taehyung came across, they decided to move on to the next place. As they stepped out of the place, Jeungguk seemed to have been breathing a different air.

"I haven't stepped into a library since that day. That time also it was for you and this time also." Jeungguk had told him as they began their walk towards the next place. "Some things never change I guess." Taehyung said as they steadily walked to their secret place.

The place of their confession. Taehyung was beginning to get nervous now. this was what he had come here for. The place of their confession. "Remember this place?" Taehyung asked as he pulled Jeungguk with him. The younger had seemingly frozen at the spot when he had seen the place they were at.

"T-the place when I had left you." Jeungguk said. It is true that how many ever happy memories one may have related to the place, we as humans would always remember the worst ones or the bittersweet ones. The negative emotions over-powering our sweet ones along with their good and worth-while memories.

"No silly bunny. The place where you confessed." Taehyung said as he put forth his fingers as well. "Choose one." Taehyung had said, imitating the other from the same day. The day, almost four years ago now. unknown to the other, it was also the same day as their day of confession.

"Hmm. And why would I" Jeungguk said as he imitated Taehyung from the day. Taehyung laughed at the other's poor attempt at mocking him but still kept the two fingers in front of him. "Choose. Love me or love me not?" Taehyung asked as he now jabbed the two fingers onto the other's chest in impatience.

The bunny smile grew on the mafioso as he chose on finger while looked at Taehyung, who was now pouting. "So you love me not? I knew you were cheating on me with your books!" Taehyung said, still imitating Jeungguk from the same day.

This was the exact thing Jeungguk had said when Taehyung had chosen a finger that day. Jeungguk laughed at his own cringey lines as he remembered what had happened next.

A panicked Taehyung had flung himself onto Jeungguk while yelling, "I love you!" and Jeungguk was quick to catch and reply with, "I love you too baby bear." It had taken a while for Taehyung to process that day about what had actually happened.

But once he did, he avoided the other like plague until Jeungguk had him trapped in this very place again as they devoured each other's lips for the first time.

Even now, Jeungguk mocked panic as he fell on Taehyung who also caught him effortlessly. " I LOVE YOU!" Jeungguk yelled as Taehyung laughed at that. But instead of being ignored like always, Jeungguk was pulled into a close embrace while Taehyung muttered, "I love you too husband."

That's when the raven-haired world had stopped revolving. Did Taehyung just say that? He asked himself as he looked at Taehyung in disbelief. It had been eight months since their marriage and four months since the blonde had told his husband to wait for him.

"Yes Mr.Jeon. your wait is over now." Taehyung said again to his confused husband as he took it upon himself to kiss the other. the kiss definitely did bring the other out of his trance as he also fervently began to kiss back. He kissed like there was no tomorrow as tears streamed down his face continuously.

Once they pulled back, Taehyung wiped out the tears and kissed the other's temple. "Why are you crying bunny?" Taehyung asked as he looked at the other's captivating orbs. Jeungguk shook his head like a child as he said, "I love you."

"I love you too." The reply was immediate and this time instead of tears, Jeungguk's face adorned a smile. "Again!" Jeungguk squealed.

"I love you my bunny!" Taehyung had also complied. "Once more." Jeungguk had squealed again and Taehyung had complied once more. And this went on until Taehyung was tired from it all and had shushed the other with banana milk.

note: was it sweet enough? does the title of the book make sense now?

~ice💙