Lonely.
That's what I am today
And that's how I have been for the past 12 months.

I miss that boxy smile
I miss those cute eyes
I miss the teasings
I miss the Taehyung
I miss Mr. Prince
I miss my roommate
I miss my annoying chatterbox

But now I can't even contact him

Didn't I wish for this? On the first day When I got to know he was my roommate

When I went to the reception and thought they'd change my roommate

But nothing is the same now

I have Taehyung's insta account but he doesn't reply to my dms.

I was stupid to think he would, he has a million girls texting him.

He doesn't even post much nowadays

Last week though, he posted a picture of him and some of his new friends I guess..they were drinking beer

Taehyung doesn't drink beer but he was drinking and cheering with them

He wasn't like this when he first left..he promised me he would return in about 4 months

I contacted him the first month when he left to Daegu and he always replied, he always answered my calls

The second month, he told me he was busy everytime I called

The third month, he stopped replying

And now he is like a person I just used to know

I hoped my thoughts about him would go away but I want to know whether he is okay, why did he move to Daegu, where exactly is his home in Daegu now?

I want to hear it all

I message him on insta dms whenever I think of him although, I know he won't even read my messages

Taehyung

"Hey Taehyung..back to
Dm'ing you. Um today it
Rained in Seoul very hard!
And the wind is blowing so
Fast right now it's giving me
chill vibes. It would be
So fun if you were here too..
It's y/n..from your previous
School..your previous
roommate"

I didn't mention that I was crying too in the moment of beautiful nature..the wind was making the tree leaves move so elegantly, the birds were chirping and everything looked wonderful and I was here with my nose red, a brown sweater, shorts and a box of tissue. I need to get over this guy, afterall we only had known each other for like 2 months.

The wind was making strands of my hair escaping from my messy bun move and I was sitting cross-legged on my bed.

He probably forgot about me anyways.

Again and again..his face, his voice were things I couldn't forget even if I tried to

"Y/n, what are you thinking about?" I looked up when I noticed Ari had asked me something

"Sorry what did you say?" I asked her and she face palmed

"Oh my God, y/n stop thinking about Taehyung! He is very happy and he is living his best life. Remember? He was drinking beer and having fun with his friends!" Ari shouted

"He doesn't drink beer, remember when we went to the party last time? When you had offered him beer but he said he didn't drink beer" I told her

"You remember everything huh? But let me tell you, if you keep craving for him it will make you turn into an obsessed fan girl, nothing more or less than that. He only spent a few months with you, being your roommate and I should be the one crying afterall I had a crush on h-" I cut Ari off

"Okay that's enough, stop lecturing me" I said

"Y/n what I mean to say is enjoy the weather and stop thinking about him 24/7" Ari said as she took my hand and dragged me towards my closet

"Ari what are you-" before I could complete my sentence she put her hand on my mouth

I tried saying stop but it just turned
Into a muffled shout

"Shut upp, come on we're going to a cafe, you look like a dead rat so I am choosing your clothes and you are going to quietly change and come to my room once you're done." Ari said
And removed her hand covering my mouth

I gave her a deathly stare "But-"

"No excuses" she said and walked off to her room

I changed in the outfit she picked out, gave myself a motivation speech in front of my mirror and headed off to Ari's room

"Knock knock" I said jokingly before stepping in her room

She had also changed into an oversized shirt and jeans
"Well, come on what are you waiting for?" She asked as she grabbed my hand and once again, dragged me until we reached downstairs and she called an uber

"The uber's gonna come in 10 minutes" she said and I nodded

.          .           .           .

Awkward silence filled the area

"Um, wanna sit on the bench there?" I asked and she nodded

We sat together and I rested my shoulders exhaling a sigh

"Ari, do..do you think Taehyung remembers me?" I asked, looking at her

"I'm going to say the truth, he probably doesn't. That is why you need to let him go I mean, for God's sake, It has been an year since you last saw him."

"What should I do? My heart doesn't let him go" I say as she gives me a frown

"Stop with the cheesy lines" she said as we chuckled

She gave out her pinky to me as I looked at her and then her pinky

"Promise me, no more Taehyung" she said, her voice a lot warmer now

I gave out my pinky as we intertwined it with each other

Tears filled my eyes and Ari looked at me worriedly

"Oh shit nevermind, I think I know why you can't let him go" she said as she moved closer to me and put her arm around my shoulders as I buried my face in the side of her neck

"Y/n..I thought it was a simple crush or maybe you liked him but no.."

"Then what is it? Why do I want him to message me this exact moment and tell me 'look behind you' and when I look behind me he would be opening his arms for me to hug him?" I mumbled still in tears

"Y/n..you're in love"

I pulled away and looked at her with my eyes widened

"No I am not!" I said to her

She had an amused smile on her face as she told me "oh yes, the denial stage"

"Shut up shut up shut up!" I said covering my ears with my hands and closing my eyes

"It's not a good thing though, he doesn't remember you and he will not meet you again" she spilled hurtful words that made my stomach drop

She was right..he doesn't even remember me. That is why he is probably not responding to my messages and my calls.

Tae POV

I hate this shit. I don't want to be in Daegu. They took my phone, they force me to take pictures and smile in those pictures, they force me to become friends with people and I can't do anything I like. Fuck, I can't even eat and drink my favourite food before asking them and these diets? To keep me 'fit' as a model and an actor. Ugh. I miss Jimin..I miss Jungkook..I miss Y/n..God I miss y/n a lot

"Mr. Taehyung, your father is calling you for dinner" a maid entered my room

"Tell him that I don't want to come and I won't come down to dinner ever again if he doesn't let me return to Seoul and continue my life in school with my phone and my friends that he took from me"

Tbc