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violette.

i think i'll write this letter in english, i don't know, it's easier there. do you mind ?

if you knew how sorry i am. i behaved like an idiot. the truth is that i missed you. too much. i think about you every day, violette, and our old relationship. i know that it's all my fault, i know it. and i know that you forgive me even though i don't deserve it either. i don't deserve you. i don't deserve you and yet i can't help but love you more than myself. i miss you, i love you, you are essential to my life. i would like us to have a relationship without problems, just to have a smile on my face and to be with you. because that's what makes me happy. it's being your friend.

i only make you suffer, when i promised you would be happy with me. i'm so sorry. so sorry.. all the fights we had are my fault. i hurt you. i spat words in your face that i didn't mean. i'm sorry. you deserve so much better.

you are the love of my life, violette (lol).i don't want to see you cry, scream, or suffer. i want to see you happy, with your friends. i want to see you open up because you are capable of it. i want to see a real smile light up your face. i want to continue to roleplay with you, write the story of scott and sabrina, laugh and flirt with you. i want to continue to invent lives with you, like with ash and giselle and so many others. i want you to feel beautiful, intelligent, strong like the woman you are. i bet you didn't even finish "viens on s'aime" lol.it doesn't matter. i love you. i don't even know what to say anymore except that i love you.i never want to make you suffer with words again. i never want us to argue again. i never want your brow to furrow because of the pain i'm making you feel again. i want to hold you in my arms, and that's all that matters. that's all.

you are olive's sabrina. you are an extraordinary girl, who deserves all the love in the world. you deserve to be healthy, to share good times with your family and to be happy. that's all that matters. i love you.

and when i say i love you, it's not a quick ily blurt. it's deep, real and everything i feel for you. i love our friendship more than anything in the world.

except you.

adèle

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