Arthit watched Kongpob from where he was seated at the restaurant. A smile playing on his lips as he watched Kongpob work with a smile always adoring his face. Arthit still couldn't understand how Kongpob always smiled at everyone and everything with all those emotions inside him that was not even close to happiness.

Arthit chuckled to himself, his cheeks turning pink as he remembered when Kongpob signed him that he was his happiness and Kongpob's dark days and nights were turned into something that was more beautiful and eager to look forward to after Arthit has walked into his life.

Arthit shook his thoughts away when he saw Kongpob turn towards him with raised eyebrows.

Arthit smiled at the young man as he shook his head. He signed Kongpob, asking when was his shift getting over.

Kongpob smiled back softly as he signed him to wait a few minutes which Arthit will gladly do.

This was their routine.

Arthit had asked Kongpob to stay with him at his house that wasn't too far from the campus so that Kongpob wouldn't have to take the burden of paying rents. But Kongpob refused telling he wouldn't do that. Kongpob was too stubborn.

So Arthit let him be what he wants to do. But Arthit would always wait for Kongpob at the campus gate and they go inside together and have their classes. And sometimes Arthit would stay back with his friends which are also Kongpob's now, or other times Arthit would follow the latter to the restaurant he works part-time and sit at a corner of the restaurant and do his class works while he waits for Kongpob to finish his shift and return back to the dorm.

Sometimes Arthit stays at Kongpob's dorm if the guy allows him. But during weekends they both have their couple time and enjoy together. Arthit had recently visited the orphanage Kongpob had brought up in and he couldn't help but say that Kongpob was loved by everyone there. Especially the children.

Arthit was startled when Kongpob snapped his fingers in front of his boyfriend.

Kongpob laughed seeing Arthit's wide eyes. Arthit smiled back sheepishly.

"Come let's go," Kongpob signed to which Arthit nodded and started following Kongpob outside.

"Hey, Kong!"

Arthit and Kongpob who had walked a few steps outside the restaurant looked back at the source of the voice.

Kongpob sighed to his friend who ran to him asking what happened.

"Kong, you forgot to receive your salary today. Boss is calling you," Tew said.

Kongpob's eyes widened, he turned towards Arthit who chuckled at him.

"Go, I'll wait for you," Arthit said. Kongpob nodded and ran inside the restaurant as he adjusted the bag over his shoulder.

"Your shift is finished?" Arthit asked Tew.

"Yeah, my and Kongpob's shift finishes at the same time," Tew replied with a soft smile.

"Oh, then why didn't I see you with Kong while going back?" Arthit asked confused, he never saw Tew with Kong while going back.

"Oh, that? Well, I'm being a good friend by not interrupting my friend's moments with his lover," Tew said with a proud smile on his face.

Arthit's cheeks turned red but still, he laughed shyly.

"It's been long since I've seen Kongpob smile a lot like now. And thank you Arthit for that. You brought the Kong we always wished to see," Tew smiled.

Arthit smiled shyly in return.

Tew sighed, "If not for that accident, he didn't have to go through these all."

Arthit raised his eyebrows in confusion," What accident?"

Tew looked up at Arthit with wide eyes, "He...he didn't tell you?"

Arthit shook his head, now being more curious.

"Well then, it's not my place to say," Tew turned towards the restaurant when he saw Kongpob coming out of it.

"Ask him Arthit, he'll for sure tell you. Just make him feel that he's no less than you. I'll take my leave now."

Arthit nodded his head as he watched Tew walk away while Kongpob ran towards him from the other direction.

"Tew went?", Kongpob signed.

Arthit nodded his head.

They walked silently towards Kongpob's dorm, none of them speaking as they enjoyed the silence of the night. Where one mind was peaceful and quiet while the other was having so many questions to ask.

Kongpob looked at his right where he watched Arthit walk along with him in a daze.

He raised his eyebrows, Arthit wasn't too quite like this. This time he didn't even hold Kongpob's hand like he usually does.

Kongpob stopped on his tracks and caught Arthit's hand.

Arthit looked up at Kongpob's concerned face.

"Are you okay?" Kongpob signed.

Arthit shook his head and started to walk but Kongpob stopped him now glaring at him.

"I know if something is bothering you or not, now tell me what's the matter? You're not being yourself," Kongpob asked.

"It's nothing Kong, just that...I was thinking about you," Arthit said hesitantly, he knows if he doesn't give any answer Kongpob wouldn't stop asking.

"What about me?" Kongpob asked confused.

Arthit let out a frustrated sigh, insecurities creeping inside him. He couldn't meet Kongpob's eyes.

Kongpob observing Arthit realised something was really off with his boyfriend and that's when something came into his mind, his eyes widening.

Kongpob raised Arthit's face to meet his so he can ask what happened.

"Did Tew tell something to you?" Kongpob asked he gasped when he saw Arthit sigh. He knew it.

"I'm insecure Kong. I know I should give you time to open up to me, sometimes I think I'm not worth for your love. You're too pure for this cruel world Kong. Your love is pure yet I yearn for it more and more. When I know that P'Chai, Tew and your orphanage mates know about you more than me it makes me insecure. I'm sorry for troubling you, it's just my stupid brain getting overworked. I'm sorry Kong, I know I shouldn't rush you..." Arthit's ramblings were stopped when Kongpob placed a hand on his mouth.

Arthit stared at Kongpob who smiled slyly at him, the hand on his mouth slowly parted away as it held his cheeks and brushed the surface of his skin with the soft fingers.

Kongpob leaned in to place a kiss on Arthit's lips, a kiss full of pure love.

When Kongpob parted away he pulled Arthit with him towards his dorm.

After reaching the dorm he made Arthit sit on the sofa. Arthit watched as Kongpob rummaged through his art kit drawer before he came up with a paper in his hand.

Arthit looked at Kongpob in confusion as he saw him give him the paper. Kongpob asked him to take it with his hands.

Arthit took it and he was left alone again when Kongpob signed he would take a bath and come.

Arthit stared at the paper in his hand which was actually two sheets of paper stapled together.

Arthit opened the folded paper and Kongpob's beautiful handwriting greeted him.

Arthit started to read it curiously.

My dear Arthit,

I wanted to give this letter to you for so many days since we became lovers. I don't know when you're getting this letter but I wrote this on after one month of us being official.

First of all Arthit, I love you a lot. I wish I had the ability to say that to you in my own voice which I have forgotten how it sounded like. If God asks me to tell a wish the first one will be to at least grand me the ability to speak for some time which is enough to say 'I love you to you.'

I know I've not been open to you, and I know you're hurt because of it. I'm sorry Arthit. Maybe I don't want you to pity me like others after they know my past. And already I'm seeing it because of my inability to speak. But I know my Arthit will never see me like that but something inside me tells me to don't open up.

But I want you to know everything about me, like I know all about you (I guess I know everything about you). So here I'm writing this letter to you telling about my past journey to the Kongpob who you have beside now.

I'm writing this in a letter because I don't have the strength to tell it on your face and also it'll take a long time with me using sign language to communicate.

To start with, I'm not a person who was born mute. I was very well capable of speaking and I WAS a really talkative person. My parents and everyone who met me used to tell how sweet my voice was even though I was a child. Maybe because of that, God took my voice away.

When I was 10 years old I and my family was driving home from a party at night. It was all fun. My family was a cheerful family, especially my mother from whom I had inherited the over-talkative behaviour. The three of us were singing songs as Dad drove the car and suddenly from nowhere a truck was in front of us blaring its hons and the next thing I knew was darkness.

When I woke up I was in a hospital. Various wires and needles stitched to my skin. I tried to talk but nothing came out from my throat. All I felt was a pain in my throat and the next thing was that I started crying but I was surprised that I only heard a crook sound coming from my mouth.

Soon there came a nurse who called the doctor. The nurse tried to smooth me and soon I became relaxed. The nurse kept on saying that I'll get okay and don't stress because that'll cause more pain.

Then the doctor came in and checked on me. He was a nice man. A very gentle and kind man. He told me that it's been one month since I've been admitted to the hospital and also he asked me to not speak until I'm shifted to a new room. I didn't understand it back then and I couldn't even ask him. He understood me and not that it was because I would get more strained and cause more injuries. But somewhat I knew it wasn't the whole reason.

After one week I moved to a better room and even though I tried to ask about my parents I couldn't. The nurse had given me a book to write down so I won't stress out. I asked about my parents many times but they only gave me replies that they are getting treated in another room.

After the doctor made sure I was well they broke the news to me.

First, my parents passed away after two days of treatment in the hospital.

Second, I had lost my voice because of the accident.

It was terrifying for me. I lost the most precious people in my life and I had no other relatives. My father and mother's marriage was a love marriage and their parents didn't like it. So practically none of them liked to take responsibility for me. I became an orphan.

I had cried days thinking about the tragedy I have gone through. I lost my voice and I had no idea how I was going to survive and that's when P'Chai came to my life. He was ten years older than me and he was the son of the doctor who treated me. He gave me the support to live forward.

After I got discharged I was sent to the orphanage because none of my family members wanted the son of their son and daughter who disobeyed them.

P'Chai wanted to adopt me to their family but I refused because I didn't want to be a burden to their peaceful family. P'Chai always used to come to the orphanage every weekend. He assigned a teacher to teach me sign language and along with that he and the other children also learned it so they could communicate to me.

Apart from some children at the orphanage others always bullied me making fun of my past. Telling me God didn't like my voice so they took it away and that it was my fault my parents died. I always blamed myself for everything. Tew was one of my orphanage mates who has seen me go through everything.

I didn't tell P'Chai that I was getting bullied and beaten up. But one day Tew told him about it and all the bullies were severely punished.

Thinking about the past always brought the darkness of fear and tears to me. I never liked recollecting my past. That's the reason I never opened up to anyone.

Arthit just knows that you're special to me. I'm sorry if I made you feel that you're not good enough. You're way more than good Arthit. You're awesome and everything I cannot be. You've such a sweet voice and this is one secret I want to tell you.

Never speak about this in front of me.

Well, I love it when you sing for me. That day on the rooftop on our first month anniversary you sang for me, I was mesmerized.

I love you Arthit.

I love you way too much that I'm afraid I'll lose you one day.

With lots of love
Your Kong

Arthit chuckled when he read the secret of Kongpob loving him sing for him.

Arthit folded the letter back and stood up as he kept it back inside the drawer Kongpob had taken it from.

He took a deep breath, he was happy that Kongpob had finally opened up to him but sad at the same time thinking whether it was too fast for Kong.

Arthit took small steps to the bedroom to see if Kongpob had done his shower. He found that the bathroom door was unlocked and the light inside was off. He turned towards the balcony and saw a figure standing against the rail.

Arthit slowly walked towards Kongpob and wrapped his arms around the latter's waist. He sensed Kongpob stiff at the touch but soon relaxing.

Arthit rested his chin on Kongpob's shoulder, "I'm sorry Kong."

Kongpob turned towards Arthit confused.

"I'm sorry for being insecure. I'm sorry for making this too sudden for you. I should have talked to you about it before going into conclusion. I was just jealous of Tew and Prof.Chai, they know your past yet I don't know it being your boyfriend. I know they have been with you for a long time. Still, I was just jealous. I'm sorry for not talking to you about my feelings Kong. I love you so much Kong. I just want you to be free with me. I didn't want any secrets between us. And Kong even if you cannot talk I'm here with you, I'll be your voice. I'll be everything you ever want Kongpob."

Kongpob smiled softly at Arthit.

"So you're jealous of Tew and P'Chai?" Kongpob signed.

Arthit rolled his eyes, "Come on Kong! From what all I said you only pick this up?"

Kongpob laughed seeing Arthit pouting at him.

Arthit chuckled seeing Kongpob laugh. He pulled Kongpob towards him and hugged him.

Kongpob smiled to the hug as he wrapped his hand around Arthit and buried his face in the crook of Arthit's neck.

"I love you, Kong," Arthit whispered.

In the silence of the night, Kongpob wrote with his fingers on Arthit's back making Arthit smile wide.

'I love you too.'

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Hey guys! Sorry for the late update!
Was a little busy with personal issues and I'm well now.
Had a little fever and now everything's fine.

And I got all of them telling me to make this story as an m-preg and guys I'm not joking, I spend two full days thinking how can I change it accordingly. This wasn't a m-preg story to begin with and this is actually a small one, maybe 10 chapters so it was hard to change it in.

So guys, I'm really sorry but I couldn't find any way to change it. The plot I have in my mind is not doing justice. I want this story to be short and simple.

But don't worry, I'll be publishing my next story tomorrow, which is an m-preg omega story.

And I'm really sorry for taking your hopes up!
I'm so sorry! I'm really sorry guys😫😫

Hope you all are safe and healthy!
Love you all!♥️♥️♥️
Until next time!