Angel

"Angel, what the fuck?!" Michael was panting heavily as we escaped from Lucian's grasp, but I seemed to only think of Lucian, not caring a bit about Michael. I wasn't done... I wanted to finish our little fuck.

"Lucian... bring me back to him... I want him..."

"You are still thinking of fucking him?! Angel, wake up! You're brainwashed!" I couldn't. Michael can't wake me up from this. Lucian is bliss.

"Lucian... Lucian..." I drag myself away from him, as I try running back to Lucian's chambers. We were in the palace garden, so all I needed was just to get back upstairs...

"I'm not letting you go." Michael kissed me, as my head snaps back. His kiss...

His kiss...

"Lucian kisses... much better than you."

"He cannot match my love for you," Michael replies with haste.

"You are... only a fragment... of it."

"Angel... you're fucked senseless. He doesn't love you... he wants you as a sex slave... a Queen that only knows how to service her King!" Michael slaps me across the cheek, but I feel nothing. I stare at him, as my eyes tear up, remembering him and everything he did for me...

But I can only feel desire and lust... not for Michael...

"I want to service a King... it sounds very honourable..."

"Lucian is just using you to get what he wants... you're not fit for him! You... you're too pure to be with the likes of Lucian, I can't let you be with him any longer..."

"But who am I now? I'm no longer... human. I am deemed to be dead now..."

"You're Angel Celeste... forever and always. You will be no one else but her, understand?" Michael holds me tight, as I feel an unnatural warmth between us.

"I... let another man use me, Michael... who am I? I've betrayed you. I've betrayed your love, for even greater sin."

"You didn't. You're just led astray, by the overwhelming power of lust. I forgive you - it's part of growth. Now, fight it with me. We will fight lust, with love. It has to end... for I think you know what Lucian truly is, under the noble faćade he puts on to entice others and glorify himself."

I shook my head, as my senses gradually returned to me, the heat of any moment I spent with Lucian now gone, leaving nothing but emptiness. I remembered again, that I was no longer human, but I stare at my ring, and I rotated it in such a way that none of its effects would work on me, except giving me a ticket to walk freely in the sun. I walk away in the direction of humanity. Where my previous life was.

"You want to go back?" Michael was gently caressing my hand, as he read my mind.

"I don't want to risk myself anymore. I'll study hard, get out and find a way to reverse this... curse. Yours too."

"You can't reverse this, Angel... not even the most complicated of things will help," Michael moves away and turns his head away as well, "For I've tried everything in the earliest days of me being a newborn."

"You haven't told me about your past." I was analysing his every breath, his every word, the tone he took.

He was scared. He was genuinely scared, but for something he cannot control.

"It's impossible to reverse this curse, Angel. All you can do is learn to enjoy it. It will be painful in the beginning... but you must. You just learnt the dark side of it... in a way that I was not expecting you to." Michael's eyes flash a red but immediately return to normal. He's controlling himself.

"I woke up in an entirely new world I had no knowledge about, yet I was living in the same Earth as the humans... I fought my way through the sun every day, every second in its presence weakening me with every step. I tried to live like my fellow humans, my friends, working in the day, sleeping when it's night - but I soon found out, one day while looking in the mirror, isolated from humanity...

"I was no longer normal. My face had turned into the palest of things, the slightest touch causing me so much pain due to my weakened state. My eyes had the most sinister gaze, and it felt as if the reflection in the mirror was the devil. The monster I never knew existed. At the time, I had not known of Lucian and Aldevia. The vampire that turned me never came back for me, and so I lived life knowing this monster was inside me, but not knowing how I can appease it, how I can stop this. Even so, the knowledge about vampires back in the day was so little, they were really none other than a myth. Even today..." Michael shook his head, placing a hand on his head to support it. I sit and listen, for interrupting him would disrupt the flow of the story told before me.

"Since going out in the day was weakening me, I tried working at night, sleeping in the day. It worked. This debunked one of the mysteries. However, how true the others were, I would find out myself. One night, I was simply walking along the streets. No one was around except this girl walking towards me from the other direction. It was then this uncontrollable hunger seem to manifest itself, a desire unlike any other. No amount of thoughts of human food or actual food can shake away the immense hunger. But what kind of hunger, I did not know what. Soon enough, I was sucking this girl's neck, silencing her, killing her.

"And I enjoyed it in the confusion, in the madness of it all. I had no clue what made me felt this way, for the taste of blood only made itself known to me long after the girl had collapsed, passed on. I looked at her hard, she was the first life I took. Regret and guilt pained my existence for days, months, years. Yet, even in the time the regret and guilt haunted me, the hunger kept coming back. The incidents kept on happening, but I tried to control it. Reduce the suspicion, reduce the need for people to take me away because of something I had to do, for my life.

"The blood restored my energy. It made me able to think, to work. I had no choice but to take lives to live. It became the only reason why I had to kill - but soon enough I met another like me. I had dragged one of my victims into a corner, sucking her dry to heal myself, but this man I saw dragging a seemingly-drunk woman into the same alley, was kissing her, playing with her. He was having so much fun, and then he bit her. Emptied her, and the lady enjoyed it all till her last breath."

Michael was breathing by now, and I was starting to breathe heavily too, realising that I'm getting an adrenaline surge, from visualising Michael's history...

"You can't help but think of wanting the same experience now, don't you?" Michael moves closer to me, placing an arm around me and pulled me into his embrace.

"You would lose yourself in it, but this time, I'll be here with you, bringing you through... I'll face this with you. It's okay... hold on to me." He says, pulling my hands and holding them behind his back.

"...And what happened after that vampire killed the woman?"

"We saw each other, and he came over to me... he asked me who I was - never seen me around. I reply, and he seemed astonished. He seemed really flustered - very anxious to get me to do something. As if I was missing out."

"That there was fun to being a vampire," I remember how I supposedly became his slave, but yet it was unintentional.

"Yes. Playing around with women before taking their blood, to be exact. I never did it with you though, I swear." Michael gave a guilty face, but one that was guilty because he couldn't help but be so.

"Go on."

"He taught me, seeing that I was completely new to this world, and also the fact I was missing a ring. He brings me to Aldevia and I meet Lucian for the first time. Through this, Lucian accepted me as a soldier and taught me how to fight. How to be a vampire. Giving me a ring with its own unique ability, as I climbed the ranks I slowly became his right-hand man, with a platinum ring. I asked for permission to leave to explore the world after that, and here I am. Meeting you in Toronto, back in Neverland, and every event till now.

"There's other details, but that's how it went. If you want me to say something about Lucian, it's the fact he can make anyone do his bidding, forget who they are, if he wants to make it happen. It's just second nature to him."

"I... I'm done. I... I'm going back. No matter what. To school. Finish it, get a degree... and get the hell out of here." I leave Michael's arms and walk back, determined to hopefully cut all contact with this world I'd dived into so much, too early.

"You can't escape him," Michael's tone felt hopeless, with no chance of victory against Lucian.

"I know. I'm still going to live life." While he may feel despair right now, I'm determined to believe Lucian does not exist anymore. I continue walking away when my hand is suddenly pulled and I see Michael taking my hand.

"Then I'll live it together with you and teach you how to survive. Let's go," Michael brings me in the direction of Neverland.

"Also, your home is no longer safe. Stay with me at Neverland, at least Kelly and the rest can help protect you. I've hired them for a reason."

"Stubborn," I say.

"Precious."

"Oh, shut up. I'll move in with you, it's settled." I give up, throwing up my hands in surrender.

"YES!" Michael gives a victory fist and he happily drags me back to Neverland. At this point, I'm just wondering how all this happened so fast. Were my decisions right? Was I too weak mentally to fight against the force of lust, causing me to be like this? Would it happen again?

Was I wrong in many things...?

Maybe going back to normal life will help me sort it out. I'm sure I learn things the hard way, so I will make it happen.

I'm just hoping that they will make the lesson of death or loss as an exception.

To a better future.

Author's Note

hello :) a new chapter, and a possible new era, but i'm gonna end this book at 25 chapters. i wanna make it nice, but not too draggy or short. the number 25 has become my favourite number of chapters.

also, i just want to say thank you for reading past chapter 12 and 13. y'all legit shocked me with the different reactions. some of you did have the reactions i intended to have you make, which means that i've done my writing job quite well in that aspect XD

still, it's going to be more than just acts of lust in this book. now that i've got the storyline, i'm so stoked to let you guys delve into the story as soon as i can get these chapters up!

stay tuned :)