Simon

I wake up and walk downstairs to find Y/N, Vikk, JJ and Josh having a hardcore game of skipbo.

I always remember playing with her and she's really good.

I think they are playing it in the way that every skipbo you get, the person next to you who has less points has to take a drink.

Its almost 3 in the afternoon so I woke up pretty late.

So far JJ is drunk because he doesn't get the game whatsoever and Vikk and Y/N are winning.

They finally notice I'm here.

"Do you want to take JJ's spot? He doesn't know how to play" Y/N asks politely.

Of course she would ask. She's too nice.

"No thanks I think I'll skip on this one" I chuckle.

"Or you could say that you'll skipbo on this one" Josh laughs slightly tipsy.

"Oh god that was awful" I laugh and grab some cereal.

Y/N laughs one of her perfect laughs as I pour my milk.

I smile lightly at the sound of her laugh.

I haven't heard it for over three years. I missed it so bad.

"I'm done with this bullshit game!" JJ laughs as he swipes all of the cards off the table after Josh got a skipbo.

"Well I'm guessing Y/N won so JJ has to order her pizza" Vikk smiles at JJ.

I laugh at how drunk JJ is.

I catch a glimpse of Y/N staring at me sadly before looking towards the ground.

"I'm going to clean those up" She smiles but had a sad tone in her voice.

I sigh quietly and help her pick up all of the cards that JJ threw.

"Thus was honestly just a game of who will JJ buy a pizza for" She laughs.

"Sounds like it" I smile back.

Her smile falters but comes back strong.

"Look, I'm really sorry about lea-" I try but she cuts me off.

"I don't care anymore ok? You left and we both moved on, there's nothing else to say" She says as she grabs the last of the cards.

She thinks I moved on.

How the fuck could I ever move on after loving someone that much?

I sigh and put the cards that I had back in the box.

"What makes you think I moved on?" I ask.

"You left for a really long time Simon! You didn't call me to let me know you were okay and the last conversation I had with you was a fight!" She says harshly. "I'm not falling for you again especially after everything we had been through!"

"I'm sorry. I know that you will never take me back and I just want you to be happy. Can we just be friends?" I ask while feeling as if I was going to cry.

"Yeah" She sighs and we both get up off the ground.

"I don't even remember the last time we were just friends" I laugh.

"I know right! We either hated eachother or were absolutely in love" She giggles.

"Well, this is a new start" I say.

"Yup. We are just friends. We aren't aloud to hate each other either" She smiles.

"I don't think I have ever hated you but I have learned to accept the fact that you hate me sometimes" I shrug.

"I couldn't hate you if I tried Simon, and trust me, I've tried" She laughs quietly.

"If only that were true best friend" I sigh jokingly.

"Shut up! I don't hate you Simon!" She laughs punches me playfully in the arm.

If only that were true.

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11:50pm

A/N

I'm so fucking stressed right now bc I'm getting kicked off my bus and idk what to tell my parents. I'm in a group chat with frens from wattpad that know about this and probably think its hilarious, which it is.

Also, in this passed month something just felt different. I am always changing something to do with the way that I looked and my appearance hadn't changed at all in a while.

I know that in the last YouTube video my hair was short but it grew out very long in a short period of time so I cut it.

I'm just really tired and over worked but I really want to get out updates because its really annoying when I don't update for a long time

I'm sorry for making the after note so long. I just wanted to write about my problems.

Also I lost like 100 reads bc I put Kstar in the book but I don't really care bc I wrote more for myself.

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