True feelings

Ocean's POV

I knew from the beginning my family would be disappointed in me when they found out but I never thought for one second they would turn their back on me. My son, their grandson could have died today and he almost did and they didn't even care. I carried him, I felt every kick and movement as he grew inside on me. Even though we were scared and didn't know what to do in the beginning. When Michael and I saw him for the first time there was this instant love for him and they just wanted us to abandon him like he was nothing.

Michael and I are laying on my bed cuddling and he sits up and starts crying "this is all my fault" he mumbles through his tears "your parents left you because of me" I sit up putting my arms around him "what they did wasn't your fault" I reassure him "but it was, if I hadn't of done what I did"

"What we did, it took both of us remember?" He looks down guilty "but we didn't though,...I worked it out the dates and stuff, the day he was conceived it was our first time. that's when I...you didn't have a choice, I..." He pauses and begins to weep. "I'm so sorry" I lift his head up so he's facing me "Michael, I forgave you for that along time ago"

"How can you? I can't even forgive myself. It was our first time and I held you down and I...I forced" he sobs looking away from me again "you didn't want to be with me that night but I held you down. And you didn't want to conceive my child but that same night I forced him inside of you" I look at him confused. "What are you saying? You'd rather he wasn't here?" He shakes his head "no, Of course not. I love him just like I love you. I'm saying I shouldn't have given him to you that way. I should have given him to you out of love"

"Why did you force me that night?" He doesn't answer for a moment "because I love you and I wanted to show you that. I didn't come in to your room that night to force you. I came into your room because I was hurt and I needed you, I just wanted you to hold me because your the only person who truly makes me feel loved, then I blacked out. At the time I didn't remember I just remembered that one moment we were talking and the next we were together and you were asking me to go slower and I did, At the time I didn't remember what happened when I blacked out but over time I start getting like these flash backs of what happened?" I turn his face once again to face me "And you told me this same thing that night" he looks at me confused "you told me that you did because you loved me. And when you were holding me down you told me you couldn't let go because you were scared that if you did I'd leave you, but eventually you did" I pull him in close to me. "And I'm still here aren't I?" I smile slightly "because your scared of me?" He asks nervously. I shake my head "because I love you" I press my lips softly against his then stand up taking his hand guiding him to our son. "Look at him" he looks down at him nervously "do you love him?" I ask and He nods "you didn't give him to me out of spite or hate, you gave him to me out of love" he smiles slightly "he's came into our lives out of love and he's gonna get stronger and he's gonna be raised by two parents who love him and who love each other" he wraps his arms around me and pulls me tightly into him "I swear I'm gonna take care of the two of you. And I'm always gonna love you both"

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Michael's POV

I didn't know it was possible to love her anymore than I already do but after our conversation I feel even more love for Ocean and our son. I know it's going to be tough for both of us but I know we can do this. If Ocean can forgive me for what I did to her then I know we can get through anything.

I didn't want to leave the hospital but Ocean insisted that I go home and get some rest. We got back about 11 and as soon as we got home LaToya and Randy ran straight over before I could even close the door behind me "our they ok? Is the baby ok?" LaToya says pulling me close to her. I sit down and LaToya and Randy sit next to me "He's stable but he can't breath to well by himself and he can't feed by himself just yet either. But they said its looking positive"

"So when can we see him?" Randy asks "he's in and incubator right now and him an Ocean are gonna have to stay in the hospital for awhile but you can still see him" LaToya smiles shaking her head "I still can't believe this is happening" I'm about to say something but I'm interrupted by a sniffling sound. I look over and see Janet on the bottom of the stairs crying "hey Dunk, why are you crying?" I ask sitting beside her "I don't want Ocean's baby to die" she sobs. I wrap my arms tightly around her "he's not going to die" I promise her "he's just a little sick right now but he's going to be ok. And him and Ocean will be home with us before we know it" I smile and she looks at me confused "home with us?"

"mhm, because their gonna be living here with us"

"How come?" She frowns still confused "because Ocean's baby is my baby too" I smile proudly. "He is?"

"Mhm" I take out my phone and show her a picture of him and she smiles for the first time since I got home. "He's your nephew and he's gonna need his aunt to be strong for him, can you do that?" She nods staring at him "I will I promise"

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Since we got home my mother hasn't really spoke much. I go into the kitchen and she on the phone but quickly hangs up when she see's me "I was just calling Reby and your brothers to let them know the news" she smiles through pursed lips "are you ok?"

"Mhm" she nods "I'm just still trying to take it all in" she smiles. "Ok" I say unsure what else to say I can tell she's still in shock about all of this so I decided it was best to let her be so she can take in all in.

I go into my room and Joseph comes in and for a moment I thought he was yell at me or do something but instead he smiles and sits at the end of my bed "can we talk?" I nod confused sitting next to him. "How are you feeling?" He smiles through pursed lips "I'm feeling ok" I shrug "your not scared or worried?"

"I guess a little" I mumble "and that's all perfectly normal, I was the same when I first became a father. Your excited and happy because you have two people you love and who love you but at the same time your scared because these same to people need you more than anything and their gonna rely on you to always be strong for them. It's terrifying I know but...seeing your child grow up and having the woman you love by your side is the most amazing feeling in the world and not every man gets to have that" he wipes a tear from his face "you had a choice today. You could have let Ocean's family adopt the baby and you could have walked away but didn't...You stepped up and took responsibility. Not just for you actions but you took responsibility of your son and your fiancée.the three of you became a family today and today also you became a man" he pauses for a moment and for the first time in my life he put his arms around me "and I couldn't be more proud of the man you've become" he croaks pulling away. He smiles wiping a tear from his face then get up leaving without saying anything else. As soon as he left I starting crying. Not out of sadness but because all I've ever wanted was for Joseph to tell me he was proud of me and to embrace me the way he just did.

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LaToya's POV

It's crazy to think When Michael left the house this morning he was my little baby brother and he's come home the same night a father.

Even though we were all in shock when all this first happened, now we've let it sink in everybody including Joseph (which was an even more shocker) have been really excepting and supportive about it. Well Everybody but Mother who has spent most of the night busying herself every time the topic of Michael's baby came up (which has been pretty much all night)

when everybody goes upstairs to bed I notice mother sitting in the kitchen "are you ok? I ask sitting next to her "why did he have to do this to me?" She mutters "he didn't do any of this to hurt you, their just kids and they made a mistake"

"And so did I" she whispers under her breath "what do you mean?" I ask confused "when Ocean's parents wanted her to give the baby away. I stood up for them and I shouldn't have" she pauses for a moment and sighs "The Morrison's are a good family, they own their own businesses they have high morals and if I hadn't have stood up for Michael in the hospital then he could have just walked away. He could have still married Emma like I suggested he could have had a great life, he had the chance to walk away and I took that away from him" I look at her confused "but he doesn't want Emma, he loves Ocean he made that very clear"

"He would have grew to love her in time, what he has with Ocean isn't love. He made a mistake and now he's trapped with a 16 year old and a baby. But if that child wasn't here then he could walk away and be happy with Emma" I frown looking at her confused. "Michael loves Ocean he told you himself that's why their engaged. Not because he has to marry her but because he wants to and Michael Wants to keep his baby also. Can't you see that? And Why are you so determined he marry Emma anyway?" She doesn't say anything for a moment. "And what kind of life will he have? She's a school girl an he's going to have to work day night to take care of them. And what life is that for the child? They have no home no security and parents that brought him here though sin." she pauses looking down "mother, you can't blame and innocent child for what Michael and Ocean did. And how many times have you said that all children are a blessing from God? So if what they did was so sinful then why would God bless them with a child?"

"A very sick child who still might..." I cut her off shaking my head "don't! Their baby is going to be ok. The doctors even said its looking positive"

"maybe it would be for the best if..." She sighs still not looking up "if what?" I frown confused. She doesn't say anything for a moment "if he doesn't make it" she mumbles under her breath. I sit Speechless, shocked that my mother would say such a thing "How could you even think that!!" I hiss my shock turning to anger "Their baby is seriously ill and your wishing him dead!!" She shakes her head "not wishing just..." I stand up cutting her off "how could you be so cold? That's your grandchild and Michael is your son. How could you even think this way!?" I start walking toward the door and she stops me "your not going to tell Michael are you?" I look at her with disgust and disbelief "just because you wanna break his heart doesn't mean I do" I snap away.

When I go upstairs I see Michael's door open slightly "hey!" He smiles as I turning away from is computer. "What are you doing up so late?" I ask looking over at what he's doing "I'm just doing some research and premature babies, it's says they could have some breathing problems future and some other stuff. The doctor already told us this but, I just understand in more" he smiles turning back to the screen. "What's that?" I ask pointing a piece of paper on his desk "oh that's just the list of some stuff I need to pick up. I bought it all awhile ago. I just need to pick it up from the store" he picks up another sheet a paper and shows me "and this is the stuff I need to do before they come home. like paint the guest room and make it into a nursery and I need to get more clothes and diapers. We have some already but we're gonna need smaller ones for premature babies" I look at him smiling as he explains "looks like you guys are all prepared for this" he nods smiling then looks down and sighs "mothers barely spoken to me since we got home" I sigh seeing the hurt in his eyes "She's just trying to take it all in that's all" I lie not wanting to tell him the truth. I pull him in close to me "it's been a real shock for all of us, you gonna remember you and Ocean have had 7 months and we've only had a few hours" he breaks away from me "we didn't want to hide it and we did try and tell you all but" I shake my head cutting him off "None of that matters anymore. We all know now and the two of you have a beautiful baby boy" I smile "we were actually gonna tell you all today, we were gonna get everybody together at Ocean's and tell you"

"and what a way to tell us" I giggle and he chuckles slightly "you need to get some rest, you have a long day tomorrow"

"I'm a father now you can't tell me what to do" he smirks "you may be a father but I'm still you big sister. So bed...now!" I giggle and he rolls his eyes playfully getting into bed

When I go to my room I burst into tears and begin pray to God to watch over Michael son and to let him pull through.

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