Ocean's POV

I'm finishing off getting ready and I'm so excited about to today. A whole day me and DJ without my mother telling me where I can go or having to rush back . "Are you excited!?" I smile at DJ "Mm Mm" he babbles "That's right!  Ma-Ma and DJ are gonna have a special day today" I giggle picking him up off the bed "and guess what?" I whisper smiling "Mommy and Daddy have a little secret for you...but you can't tell anyone" he smiles giggling at me.

I go downstairs to let my mother know we're leaving but she's not here "where my mom?" I ask Sherri confused "oh, she had to go to work early, someone call in sick" she smiles "so what are you plans for to day?"

"Well we're gonna go see the ducks, do a little shopping and get some lunch" I smile "come on we best get going before the ducks get hungry" I coo at DJ heading for the door.

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Jessica's POV

I'm sat around the corner from Michael's house and I get a call from Sherri.  "Just letting you know, Ocean's just left...have you seen any sign of Michael yet?

"He went out earlier to check the mail but that's it so far" I sigh "what's Ocean doing?"

"She just came out of the store with some bread. So I'm guessing she's heading to the park to feed the ducks" I see Michael leaving the house and get into his car "Ok, Michael's just drove off looks like he's meeting them at the park. You keep a close eye on Ocean"

After following Michael for awhile he goes into a jewellery store then to the store next to it and buys some flowers and heads off into his car again and I follow behind him but keep enough distance that he doesn't see me but I can still see him.

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Michael's POV

"So, who's the un-lucky lady?" I chuckle handing Jermaine the flowers and bracelet. "She's the one!" He smiles finishing off getting ready. "How do you know? You guys have been on like five dates" I chuckle and he smirks at me raising an eyebrow "and how many dates did you go on before getting married and having a child?"

"Touché" I smirk raising an eyebrow. "So will Ocean be staying tonight?" I sigh shaking my head "nah, not this week"

"Well, I guess one day of giving your dick a break isn't so bad...sex wasn't just invented for you two" he chuckles "can I tell you something?" I mumble "Michael, if you tell me she pregnant again I'm gonna beat you where you stand" he widens his eyes looking at me sternly.

"......anyway" I say raising and eyebrow "What I was gonna say is. Ocean and I haven't actually. You know?" I mumble and He looks at me confused. "Wait...so your DJs real father?"

"Of course I'm his real father!" I frown "but you just said you and her haven't had sex" he frowns even more confused. I sigh rolling my eyes "I mean we haven't had sex since....everything" I widen my eyes and he finally gets it "well it's gonna time especially after...everything. But it'll be ok" he smiles through pursed lips trying to reassure me. "We've done..stuff since then and she told me she does want to"

"So what's the problem?"

"We almost did it awhile ago and but froze up so I stopped and I don't know if she really wants to or if she's just saying it to make me happy" I sigh "well if you stopped,then she knows your not gonna make her do anything she doesn't want to" he scrunches his face and shake his head "sorry I didn't mean..."

"It's fine" I cut him off "I really hurt her last time...I mean really hurt her" he tilts his head confused "she had internal bleeding. That's how bad I hurt her" I sigh looking at the ground "what if she's always gonna be scared of me?"

"She's with you now isn't she? and she told you herself she forgave you" he smiles through pursed lips "it's just gonna take time but, it'll all be ok I promise. The two of you were meant to be and after everything you've both been through. If you guys can get through all that then you guys can get through anything" he smiles through pursed lips and I smile back the same way.

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Jessica's POV

Sherri calls me and tells me Ocean has now left the park and driving off somewhere. "I don't think he's meeting her" she says, then I realise "Of course! He has a restraining order stopping him going to her" sigh rolling my eyes "She must be going to him. I saw him go into the bank and he's now in the grocery store"

"Wait!" Sherri cuts me off "she's just gone into a store and bought some wool"

"Wool? What the hell does she want wool for?"

"I'll go ask her shall I?" She says sarcastically "just keep following her and..." I pause seeing Michael getting back into his car "I have to go. Call me back if she goes anywhere else" I tell her quickly hanging up and following Michael back to his house.

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Michael's POV

I get home from the store and head into the kitchen to put the groceries away and jump slightly seeing my mother sat at the kitchen table "how the hell did you get in?" I frown confused knowing I locked the door. "Jermaine gave me a key when he first moved in, incase of emergencies" I roll my eyes and start putting the groceries away "well there isn't any emergency sooo"

"That's it? Your not even going to talk to me?"

"There's nothing nothing to say. You and Joseph made it clear you don't want anything to do with me" I snap "your my son of course I do. I miss you" she protest "to bad you didn't care that much at the time"

"I've always cared" she frowns "so why did you kick my wife out into the street huh!?" I snap "why are you still defending her!? can't you see what she's done to you?" I frown shaking my head confused "she hasn't done anything to me"

"Really? Ever since that girl came along your life has been completely turned upside down. I know you Michael your my son and you wouldn't have gone anywhere near drugs and the stress she put you through. You were 17 years old and having to work day and night to support her and a child. And your telling me she's done nothing wrong?" She snaps raising and eyebrow at me. "Yes! I am. She didn't make me take drugs, I took them myself and I gave them to her and I was never stressed being a dad or a husband. You say I'm your son and you know me but you don't! you really don't. You know nothing about me!" I snap "not since she turned up" I sigh turning round to face her "how many times do you need telling!? Ocean never did anything wrong I did! It was all me!"

"Your not to blame for all of this! She's just got into your head and made you think that" she shakes her head "you really wanna know the truth huh? You really wanna know what kind of person your sweet innocent little boy is!? I snap and she looks at me confused.

"Fine! I'll tell you. Ocean never trapped me into marrying her or having a baby. She got pregnant because I raped her! I snuck into her room and pinned her down and raped I her!" She shakes her head about to say something but I cut her off "and not just once...I did it time and time again. And and I also beat her...many times. And stopped her parents from going anywhere near her. And the day DJ fell off the couch an broke his arm...that was all my fault too! because I got fucked up on coke then came home, dragged Ocean into the kitchen and raped her again! He was all alone in the room because I was I the kitchen hitting and raping his mother. And as for the drugs. I got them from some guy at work and I took them myself and I gave it to Ocean so she could black out all the shit I did to her!"

She doesn't say anything for a moment then runs to the sink and starts throwing up. "Your my son! You wouldn't do that" she shakes her head "well I did" I croak seeing how heart broken my mother is, but I couldn't stand here and let her blame Ocean for everything I did. She turns to say something then looks at the ground. "You can't look at me can you?" I croak and she attempts to look at me but can't bring herself to do it and I turn leaving the kitchen and head upstairs and burst into tears knowing I've just broken My mothers heart

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Sherri POV

After a completely wasted day of following Ocean around she gets home and I wait about 20 minutes before going inside so She doesn't get suspicious.

When I get in house is silent and I tiptoe upstairs. Duncan is fast asleep in his room and I head into Ocean's room and she sat on the bed knitting. "What are you making?" I smile walking over to her "I'm just making a new blanket for DJ his old ones getting a little small" she smiles "I didn't know you could knit"

"I learned how to do it when I was pregnant with DJ" she smiles and carries on with what she's doing.

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Michael's POV

Later that night I head to a nearby café and meet up with Randy. "Thanks for putting those trackers on Jessica and Sherri's cars" I smile "I knew they'd try to follow us"

"It's ok" he mumbles and shrugs "what's wrong?" I ask concerned. "I um..I heard mother and Joseph talking" he mumbles again. "Is it true? W-what you did?" He stutters and I sigh and nod looking down at the table "but why? I thought you loved Ocean"

"I was sick. I mean really sick" I start to explain "but you never looked sick to me" he looks at me confused. "It's more of a mental thing. And I do love Ocean with all my heart just as much as I love DJ" he looks away hesitant and I can see he wants to ask me something "if you wanna ask me something I'm not gonna get mad at you?" I say softly. "Is DJ...you know?...was he..because you?" He stutters "do you mean did Ocean get pregnant because I raped her?" He nods not saying anything "I'm not proud of it.... but yes, but that doesn't mean Ocean and I love him any less or treat him any different than if he was here... differently. He didn't ask to be born just like Ocean didn't ask for the things I did to her"

"Do you still?..." I shake my head "I haven't hurt her or done anything to her since we got back together. She forgave me and has given me another chance and I'm not gonna mess it up this time. I'm not the same person I was. I've had a lot of help and I'm still getting that help" he nods and again not saying anything "I'm not a monster" I croak "I never wanted to hurt anybody. Especially the person I love more that anything" he looks me in the eye and shakes his head "I don't think your a monster"