Michael's POV

After I told Ocean about what happened when I was a kid, I thought for sure she'd be disgusted with me and leave me, but she understood everything and even after I told her and all the other bullshit she's had to deal with from me, she's still somehow found it in her heart to still love me and every night I pray and thank god for bringing her into my life. In a way I'm happy somebody understands and that I'm not the only one this has happened to, but in another way I really wish that it hadn't been Ocean. Like I said she's already had to put up with my bullshit and now I find out just like me she's had to hold on to this shameful secret

We sat a talked about it for a long time and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted and my head seems a lot clearer.

***

I really wanna make things right between me and my mother and have that closeness we once had back. I know it's not going to easy but I'm going to try and talked to her today. I still have the trackers on Sherri and Jessica's cars so once they leave the area I head over to see my mother.

I stand and brace myself before knocking on the door. I still have no clue what I'm going to say but hopefully I'll manage to think of something once I see her.

I knock a few times but nobody answers. I'm about to leave then I see the curtains twitching and knock again. Knowing I've seen her my mother finally comes to the door. "What are you doing here?" I hear her through the closed door "I just wanna talk to you, can you please let me in?"

"You shouldn't be here"

"Please? Just open the door. I'm not here to fight I just wanna talk" she doesn't answer for a moment then finally opens the door and let's me in.

We sit on the sofa in silence for a moment neither of us not really knowing what to say "about that day" I mumble breaking the awkward silence "I didn't mean to yell at you the way I did"

"How could you do those things?" She shakes her head "I didn't do it on purpose, it's not like I planned to hurt anybody...I was sick and I still am" I start to explain "but I'm better now and I'm not the person I was then"

"My son would never do those things" she shakes her head. "I didn't, that wasn't me. That's what I'm trying to explain.. half the time I didn't even know I'd done anything until it was to late I'd black out and...."

"You don't just forget something like that" she frowns. "Michael, what you did to that girl is unforgivable"

"Ocean forgave me long time ago. She understands that..."

"She didn't forgive you! She was terrified of you! And probably still is!" She snaps cutting me off "but she did! She told me herself she forgives me. She understands that I was sick and she loves me and she's supported me through all of this"

"Michael, that poor girl never loved you...you forced her! That's not love that's fear" I shake my head "no, she does love me and I love her" she frowns looking at me skeptically "are you still with her?"

"Yes, but please don't say anything if her parents find out, then we won't be able to get DJ back" I explain "and they'd be right not to! A child is a blessing from God and after what you've done. What makes you think you deserve that blessing?"

"He's my son!" I frown. "And Ocean's my wife"

"I didn't raise my son this way...I raised my son to be good and to love and respect people not...."

"But I do! I love Ocean and I do respect her" she frowns shaking her head. "You snuck into the girls room, pinned her down and STOLE her I innocence"

"It wasn't like...." I start to explain but she cuts me off "and the not only did you do that... You brought a child into this world through fear and sin and now she has to look that poor child in the eyes every day and be reminded of what you did"

"He was brought into this word through LOVE and we both love DJ she doesn't think that way when she looks at him neither of us do!" I snap and she frowns shaking her head "you have done the most sinful and unforgivable acts anybody could ever do to another human being...my son would never do anything like that...my son is a good, kind, sweet boy and he'd never..." She pursed her lips shaking her head. "Why do you keep saying your son like your talking about somebody else?" She doesn't answer me at first then sighs "I'm sorry....but you never should have come back here"

"What are saying?" She gets up and walks towards the kitchen "I'm going to turn away now... And when I turn back around I expect you to be gone" she croaks and I start sobbing "mother please don't do this"

"If you have any love in that cold heart of yours then you'd respect my wishes" she sobs. I open my mouth to say something but nothing comes out. I stay motionless for a moment then eventually I get up and do as she asks and leave.

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Ocean's POV

I'm in the house alone watching TV and I suddenly hear a loud bang coming from upstairs which sounds like it came from my room.

I open the door and my window is wide open. I walk over to close it and hear my bedroom door locking behind me. I'm about to turn and scream but I feel someone grab me from behind putting their hand over my mouth. "Sssh, it's only me" I hear a soft, familiar voice and he lets go "what the fuck are you doing here!?" I snap still a little shaky. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you. I went to see my mother and I needed to see you" he croaks and his eyes are blood shot. "What happened?" He doesn't say anything and begins sobbing, wrapping his arms around me. "She hates me" he croaks holding on to me tightly.

**

Michael still hasn't told me what exactly his mother said to him and just continued sobbing. We lay cuddling on the bed and after awhile we both begin slowly drifting off. suddenly someone tries to open my door but luckily it's locked. "Just a second" I yell pushing Michael into the closet then open the door.

"Why's your door locked!?" My mother snaps "sorry I was just taking a nap" I lie. She walks in and briefly scans my room suspiciously. "Do you know who's car that is outside the Jackson's?"

"No, why?" I shake my head trying to act innocent "just wondering" she shrugs "So You haven't seen anyone going into the Jackson's?" She asks skeptically and I shake my head "I was taking a nap"

"Well it better not be Michael, he's knows what will happen if he turns up here"

"I doubt Michael would come around here. It's probably one his brothers or sister" I shrug "well we'll be keeping and eye out...whoever it is will have to come out sooner or later" she smirks "anyway, it's time for dinner so come down"

*
During dinner I notice my mother and Sherri glancing out of the window every now and again. "Why do you keep looking out of the window?" I say loudly enough so Michael can hear me upstairs, hoping he'll be listening . "I'm gonna find out who it is" Sherri says in her usual nosey self "but you can't just sit at the window all night" I chuckle trying to make light of all this "oh I can. I'll sleep downstairs if I have to" she smirks. "Are you ok sweetie? You've barley touched your food" my mother looks at me concerned "yeah, I um...I'm just not feeling to good today" I lie "you do look a little pale" my father points out "maybe I should lie back down"

"Good idea!" My mother nods "I don't want you passing any germs onto Duncan" I smile through pursed lips and head back upstairs locking the door behind me.

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Michael's POV

I was about to climb back out of the window to leave quickly, but luckily Ocean was talking loud enough for me to hear her so I've just had to sit and wait on the bed for Ocean to come back.

"Oh shit! What fuck are we gonna do!?" She whispers locking the door behind her. "Relax! they have to go to bed sooner or later. I'll just sneak out then" I shrug "Sherri's determined to find out who's car that is. She's gonna camp downstairs and everything!"

"Looks like I'm sleeping over then" I chuckle slightly "this isn't funny!" She snaps "and I thought you put some tracker thing on their cars so we'd know if they were close"

"I did, but I don't check it every 5 seconds you know" I take her hand pulling her onto my lap wrapping my arms around her waist and she wraps her arms around my neck resting her head on my shoulder."we'll just have to be really quiet and then in the morning when they all leave for work I can sneak out" I try to reassure her and kiss her temple.

***

We stayed in the room all night mainly watching movies and when we heard everyone go to bed, we waited awhile then once everybody was asleep Ocean snuck downstairs to get me something to eat since I hadn't had anything since this morning.

While I'm waiting for Ocean to come back I can't stop thinking about DJ who's sleeping just next door. I know the best thing to do right now would be to sit and wait in her room but knowing my son is sleeping in the next room is killing me. I've been in this house with him all day and now all night and not once have I been able to see him.

I open the bedroom door slightly to check the coast is clear then tiptoe into the room next to Ocean's. I stand over the crib smiling down watching DJ sleeping.  "What the fuck are you doing?" I hear Ocean whisper coming into the room. "I just wanted to see him" I whisper back . "If my parents or Sherri catch you here, they'll murder us both!... C'mon" she motions me back into her room and we lock the door behind us. "Is Sherri still downstairs?"

"Mhm... She's determined to find out who's at your parents house"

"Why doesn't she just go over and ask?" I frown confused. Not that I'd want her to go over but it would make more sense. "Because if she goes next door and asked them 'who's in you house?' then that's being nosy" she rolls her eyes "and camping downstairs spying on the neighbours isn't?" I chuckle.

We're lay watching a movie and we hear DJ crying and Jessica going into his room. Ocean doesn't say anything but starts sniffling. "Does she ever let go to him at the night?" I whisper
"Sometimes I hear him stirring and I manage to see to him before anybody wakes up" she whispers shrugging her shoulders like it's no big deal, but her eyes tell me a different story. "We have a problem I whisper and Ocean looks at me confused "I really have to pee" I scrunch my face trying to hold it and we can still hear Jessica in the next room "can't you hold it a little longer?" I try to hold it as long as I can and eventually we hear Jessica go back into her room. Ocean opens the door to check the coast is clear then looks downstairs seeing Sherri on the sofa reading a newspaper. "Are you serious!?" She whispers coming over to me "would you rather I peed on myself?" I shrug moving back from the window. "No...but I think Sherri's gonna flip when she finds out someone's just pee'd all over her flower beds down there"

"she should be grateful all I did was pee" I shrug and she starts giggling.

***

It's was pretty late by the time we both fell asleep. And about 7:30 we heard everybody talking and moving around downstairs. Luckily Ocean had her door locked all night so nobody could walk in. Ocean went downstairs and tried to act casual and I stayed on the bed waiting for everyone to leave for work. Every now and then I heard someone walking upstairs and I had to hide in the closet.

Eventually Ocean come back to let me know everyone had left for work. "Where's DJ?" I ask walking into the kitchen "daycare" Ocean sighs "she still doesn't trust you to look after him during the day?" She shakes her head and sigh.

Ocean made me some breakfast and shortly after I snuck out through the back door. I had to go all the way around to get to my car. But last night was risky enough so I don't wanna push my luck and risk getting caught leaving through the front door