Ocean's POV

It's been a week since my mother took DJ to visit my family in Ireland. Even though we don't have visitation at the moment, it feels worse knowing he's not even going to be in the same country for the next three months. We've spoken to Jason and he's helped us apply for visitation again and said it's most likely we'll get it, but we have to make sure we don't cancel or turn up late for any visits and not to give them any reason to stop them and warned us if they get stopped again it could ruin our chances of getting him back.

We're going over to Michael's parents house today so the rest of the family can meet Neaveh. Michael and I are still worried about letting people meet or even know about her, especially after everything that happened with DJ, but Katherine and Jermaine have promised us that it's going to be OK and that nobody is mad at us for hiding her from them.

I'm finishing washing the dishes and Michael comes in. "my mother just called to make sure we're still coming" he mumbles nervously. "no turning back now" I sigh just as nervous. "It's not just them meeting Neaveh, that's worrying me it's Joseph too" he mumbles. "I haven't seen or spoke to him since I told my mother all that stuff... He disowned me last time we spoke and.."

"and he's still invited you over" I cut him off. "to meet Neaveh. not to see me and I know he's gonna say something about it. I know him. He's not gonna sit there and pretend he doesn't know. Plus he still hates me for us losing DJ" I wrap my arms around his neck pulling him close to me. "we've been through worse and we can get through this. I promise" I smile and peck his lips. "thank you" smiles pulling me closer "for what?" I frown confused. "for standing by me. For being my wife and just.. Being you.. I know that's pretty corny, but I love you and.."

"I love you too" I smile cutting him off, then kiss him softly. I'm about to break away and he leans forward deepening our kiss. "does he ever stay down?" I giggle slightly into his lips, feeling his erection poking me in the stomach. "not for you" he smirks, leading me closer to the breakfast bar. "we need to get ready" I sigh breaking from our kiss "not yet" he groans onto my neck lifting onto the counter. "I wanna eat first" he whispers kissing his way down, whilst undoing his belt.

"I moan loudly tangling my fingers in his curls as he swirls his tongue around inside of me. "damn, you taste so good" he groans, slowly gliding his tongue around the inside of my folds and rubbing my clit with his thumb whilst pleasuring himself with his free hand.

We  both begin trembling feeling ourselves getting closer. "hey, what time are you guys going.. what the fuck is wrong  with you two!?" we hear Jermaine walk in the kitchen and we quickly try to adjust ourselves. "we was just umm.." I stutter and his eyes are fixed on Michael as he's adjusting him self. "are you serious!?" he frowns still focused on Michael crotch and we look at him confused "fucking bitch!" he yells storming out and we hear the front door slam. Leaving us standing confused. "what the he'll was that about?" I turn to Michael and he shrugs confused then starts smirking like he's realised something. "what?" I frown confused. "my dicks bigger than his" he smiles proudly. "how would you know? You haven't seen his" I giggle slightly. "don't need to...  he saw mine and if his was bigger he wouldn't have got mad" he says cockily "who cares who's is bigger?" I shrug "it's a guy thing. Size and performance is a huge deal to us.... And mine's  the biggest!.. Now where we're we" he smiles proudly, pulling close. "we don't have time. We gotta get ready" I sigh moving away. "fine" he huffs "stupid Jermaine an his smaller dick, ruining the moment" he mumbles leaving the room"

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Aisha's POV

I'm just getting out of the shower and I hear someone pounding on the door. "you lying little bitch!" Jermaine snaps storming into my apartment "what the he'll are you talking about?" I ask confused "you and Michael! Your a lying bitch!"

"are you serious!?" I snap "you know we slept together! You walked in right after we did it. We both even admitted it. Why are you still going on about it anyway? I thought we were passed that now"

"I'm not doubting he fucked you that day! I'm doubting you saying you didn't enjoy it!"

"we've been through this and I already told you I didn't enjoy it.. It was mistake" I lie "like your measurements?" he raises an eyebrow "he doesn't have a tiny dick, I just saw it!"

"how did you..?"

"that's not important" he cuts me off. "why did you lie?" he asks visibly upset. "because I didn't want you feeling insecure. The rest of what I said was true, why does it bother you so much?" I shrug "because I wanna know why you lied"

"OK, the size I lied about but the rest was true. There was no foreplay, he was scared to give or receive oral. He didn't even know how to put a condom on, I  had  to help him put it on " I tell him that part honestly "what is it with you men? Not everything is a competition" I roll my eyes. "because.. He's my younger brother. It's bad enough you slept with him, but then to lie and insult his performance. And by the way. Him and Ocean have never used condoms which would probably be why he didn't know how to use one and he's not scared of oral!"

"Jermaine, your acting crazy!. One minute your pissed at Michael an the next your defending him. What's the matter with you" I ask confused and he sighs sitting on the sofa "I'm sorry baby, I just walked in the kitchen an saw him with Ocean and I just freaked. I don't know why?"

"what do you mean saw him?  I ask trying not to sound jealous . "you don't wanna know" he scrunches his face. "try me" I fake a smile "well I walked in the kitchen and... To put it nicely he was umm... pleasing himself whilst... eating" he says awkwardly. "eating?"

"his wife" he shrugs widening his eyes and I understand what means "In the kitchen? That's must have been pretty awkard. can't they just go in their room?" I frown disgusted, feeling pretty hurt that Michael would do that to her  and not to me. "they could,  but  Micheal seems to prefer to do it on the kitchen counter for some strange reason. I guess I nobody explained to him your only supposed to eat food  in the kitchen" he chuckles and I fake a giggle. Trying not to show how pissed and hurt I am right now. "do you really regret sleeping with Michael?" he asks nervously. "of course I do! I already told you. I made a stupid mistake and I've regretted it ever since. if I could go back in time and change what happened I would" I lie then lean over kissing him deep "let's go to your room" he groans onto my lips.

I fake a smile and start leading the way the to my bedroom then suddenly remember my laptop is open on the bed "actually" I stop in my tracks "right here is perfect" I smile seductively leading him back on to the sofa. As much as I hate having sex with Jermaine, right now he's my only way of getting close to Michael again and the information I need to get rid of Ocean.

*****

Michael's POV

We arrive at my parents house and we sit an wait in the car for a moment. "are you ready?" I turn to Ocean. "it feels weird being back here" she says looking nervously at the house. "we can't change our minds now" I sigh an nod motioning Ocean to look over at everyone standing by the window waiting.

"here she is!" LaToya coos was rushing over "aww, she's adorable" Ocean holds Neaveh closer as everyone starts crowding around her, even though Randy and mother have so ready met her many times they still rushed over. "can I hold her?" Joseph asks and Ocean and I look at each other hesitantly. "it's OK" my mother smiles encouraging us and Joseph takes Neaveh from Ocean and we follow him closely to the sofa sitting on either side of him.

"are you OK?" I ask Janet who's been silent the whole time. "how come you don't love DJ any more?"

"Janet!" mother scolds her and Ocean and I look at her confused "we love DJ very much" I tell her "then how come you gave him away to Ocean parents and had a new one?" she mumbles. "Janet! Quiet!" La Toya frowns at her. "we didn't give him away, he was taken from us" I mumble. "then why don't you get him back?" I sigh and take a deep breath. "Ocean and I made a few mistakes and I did a lot of bad things which I regret. And because of all those things we didn't look after him the way we should have. We can't just take him back"

"but why?" I'm about to speak when Ocean steps in. "it's complicated, but he will be back with us soon and Michael and I love both DJ and  Neaveh"

**

I know she's a kid and doesn't understand, but It really hurt me when Janet asked me why I didn't love DJ anymore. Just because he's not with us everyday like Neaveh doesn't mean we don't love him. We love the both the same and it really hurts when people just assume we had Neaveh to replace him, just like people always assume Ocean and I were forced to get married because I got her pregnant. I know we we're still young, but is it really that hard for people to except that we love each other and want both our kids?

As I'm walking out of the bathroom I notice the door to mine and Ocean's old room open slightly and I look inside an see it's now pink with all Janet's stuff. I go to the room next door to see what they did with DJ's old room, but it looks exactly the same as it did the day we left. Even the Pj's that were laid out for him that day are still in the same spot. I'm staring down at the empty crib and Joseph walks in. "why is all this still up" I mumble still looking in the empty crib trying to imagine DJ in there. "because it was DJ's room and we can't bring ourselves to take it down" he sighs looking around. "I should go check on Ocean and Neaveh" I mumble about to leave. "your mother told me" he says in a neutral tone and I turn back to face him. "I'm gonna ask you some questions and I want you to answer me honestly. I'm not gonna yell or hit you or anything like that, I just want you to tell me the truth" he says in the same neutral tone and I nod nervously "what you were doing to Ocean... is it still going on?"

"no" I shake my head. "is Neaveh just a replacement for DJ?"

"of course not! Neaveh wasn't planned, just like DJ. And even if she was We'd never try or even want to replace him. He's our son!" I frown. "just like DJ?" He asks and I don't answer. "I know what you did to Ocean and I know why he's here... Is that why that little girls here too?"

"what difference does it make how they both got here?" I mumble not wanting to answer. "is she?" He asks again and I nod. "yes... I've added the dates over and over and the they all add up to the day DJ was taken away and that was when I..." I pause not wanting to finish that sentence. "but that was the last time, I swear"

"Micheal, it doesn't matter if it was the last time or the first time or how much help or medication you take. The damage is already done and two inncent lives have been brought into this world as a result of that. One of which you don't even have anymore" he says coldly "no child should be brought into this world like that. Children should be brought here through love. I've done some shitty stuff in my time to both your mother and you kids. But I would never do what you did to that girl and you were all here through love"

"DJ and Neveah ARE loved. And it doesn't matter to us how they got here because we love them no matter what. And what I did to Ocean I did because I love her"

"you raped her because you love her? do you understand what's wrong with that sentence?" He looks at me raising and eyebrow. "I'm not doubting you love your kids or your wife, but you need to understand what you did was wrong"

"I know what I did was wrong! And I messed up and..."

"you did more than just mess up. You lost your son!" he sighs and takes a deep breath "you and Ocean aren't scared little kids anymore she's 17 and your 19 your both adults now and I can understand you making bad decisions and making mistakes back then and I can in someway even forgive you for that... But you have no excuses left now and if you mess up again and I have another grandchild taken away from me because of you!.. Then you can consider yourself dead to me" I nod, not saying anything "this conversations over and we don't need to speak on it anymore.. I've said all I have to say on the matter.. now go back downstairs to your wife and your daughter"

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when we get home I tell Ocean about the talk Joseph and I had. "I knew it was gonna happen, but I didn't think he would be that harsh" I mumble cuddling up to Ocean on the sofa. "we knew it was gonna be hard, but the worst parts over now" she smiles pulling me closer. "I think I'm gonna go take a walk" I mumble getting up. "in the middle of the night? It freezing"

"I just need to clear my head" I sigh putting my coat on. "ok, well I cook you something for when you get back" she smiles and I walk over and kiss her. "I love you, baby" I smile "I love you too"

**

I've been sitting in the park alone for about ten minutes just thinking about everything Joseph said to me today. Even though It hurt me that he said i'd be dead to him if I mess things up with Nevaeh. It was him saying we'd lost DJ that killed me. I know we don't have custody right now, but we will get him back someday. All people ever do these days is talk to me and Ocean about how we have a second chance and a fresh start and they always talk about Nevaeh, but only ever talk about DJ when me and Ocean bring up his name. It's like their slowly forgetting about him and sometimes it feels like their trying to make me and Ocean do the same.

my thoughts are disturbed when I see someone coming over. "what are you doing here?" I frown, when I see that it's Aisha. "just out taking a walk" she smiles through pursed lips and sits beside me. "you not gonna get very far sitting on your ass" I scoff looking away from her. "why are you out here all alone?" She asks ignoring my comment. "waiting for bus. What does it look like I'm doing!?"

"looks to me, like you could do with a friend right now" she smiles softy. "yeah... I do" I mumble looking at the ground "well my apartments just up the road. We can go there and I'll make us some hot chocolate and..."

"I said I needed a friend... Not a fuck buddy" I frown "you still think about that day?" She asks and I nod "how can I forget? I almost lost Ocean and even though she forgave me, I still feel guilty about what I did to her. Do you get that with Jermaine?"

"why should I?" She shrugs "so we got a little revenge on them and we had a lot of fun in the process"

"why would I wanna get revenge on Ocean?" I frown confused. "well.. for letting you think the baby was yours for a start and then dumping it in the park"

"she was ill at the time. I was mad at her for leaving her in the park" I shake my head "and the other part? About lying about you being the father?" She asks raising and eyebrow "but that wasn't true. I just told you she was ill at the time" I remind her. She looks at me like she wants to say something "what is it?" I frown confused "I shouldn't say" she mumbles "tell me" I ask softly and she sighs and takes a deep breath. "when I first moved in with you guys Ocean told me about Neveah and...who the father is"

"yeah, me! You just have to look at her to see that. She looks just like me" I frown and she shakes her head. "she doesn't look like you... She looks like Jermaine. I'm sorry I thought you knew" she looks at me sympathetically. "Jermaine? She said that?" I frown and she nods "that's why I was so angry at him and I thought you knew, that's why you were so upset that day"

"she wouldn't do that to me and neither would Jermaine. Ocean's my wife!"

"are you sure about that? I mean of you could do that to him then why wouldn't he do that to you? You just have to see how they are around each other to see that there's something going on. Why else would he happily let them live in his house rent free and act so loving towards the baby.. His daughter! I'm sorry to be the one to break to you but it's the truth and you deserve to know"

I shake my head and laugh slightly under my breath. "your unbelievable, you know that?. For a second I actually thought you came over here to be my friend"

"I did. And I am" I sigh rolling my eyes "Aisha, I know for a fact Jermaine isn't Neveah's father because she didn't even know Jermaine when she got pregnant and as for the whole her living there rent free and him being nice to MY daughter? I pay rent to Jermaine for both of us and he's nice to Nevaeh because she's his NIECE" She's about to speak but I cut her off "and yeah, I may have fuck YOU, but that was a mistake! And It wasn't FUN! . It was a stupid, disgusting mistake that meant nothing and I regretted it the second it happened and Jermaine knows this and he forgave me. Just like Ocean did. I don't know why your trying to break me and Ocean up or what your game is, but it's not gonna work! I love Ocean and she loves me and I'm gonna stay with her and your with Jermaine and you should be grateful all he knows about was that one thing. Because if I was to tell him you came on to me the day Ocean went missing or about you coming over and acting all slutty and trashy getting naked and bending over the sofa to try and get me to fuck you again. He wouldn't have taken you back, so why don't you just be grateful for that and concentrate on your own relationship and quit getting involved in my marriage!" I get to walk away and she grabs my hand stopping me. "if you don't wanna take my word for it, then why don't you see for yourself? Next time you see them together take a good hard look and you'll see I'm telling the truth"

"whatever... I going home to my wife and daughter... You can sit here and freeze to death for all I care" I sigh and walk away not giving her a chance to say anything else.