Michael's POV

It's been over a week and haven't spoken to Ocean since what happened . I've trying calling her but she just hangs up and won't reply to my texts and leaving early for school. I've been going over everything in my head. I want to explain to Ocean but don't really understand it myself. We went to Kingdom Hall this morning but she stayed close to her parents so I couldn't even speak to her there. "Is everything ok sweetie?" My mother asks walking into my room disturbing me from my thoughts. "I'm not feeling good, maybe I should stay home tonight" she walks over sitting on the bed next to me "it's Jermaine's birthday, can't you two get along for one night?" She sighs "it's not that, I really don't feel good" I lie "I can stay home and watch Janet" she rolls her eyes annoyed "you could have said this earlier, you stood there and saw me ask Ocean if she's babysit tonight, now I'm gonna have to go over there and tell her not to come" I shake my head "you don't have to I'll call her and tell her" she pursed her lips then nods "ok, but don't forget to call her"

I text Ocean telling her my mother asked if she could come over at 8 instead of 7. That way Janet will be asleep and it will give me plenty of time to talk to Ocean alone.

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After my parents leave I make sure Janet is in bed nice and early. I really need to speak to Ocean without Janet distracting us wanting to play. The door knocks and I brace myself before answering "hey" Ocean mumbles I invite her in locking the door behind us "where is everybody?" she looks around confused "they left and hour ago, it's just me and you" she turns to me annoyed "so your parents don't need me to babysit?" She turns to leave but I grab her arms pulling her back "wait! Just let me speak to you please? I wanna try and explain everything"

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Ocean's POV

As much as I want to storm out I can see the desperation in Michael's eyes. I sit on the couch and he comes over sitting next to me and takes a deep breath. "I swear I didn't know what I'd done to you, I know it sounds crazy but when I told you all I remember was taking you into the bathroom then Marlon knocking on the door, it's the truth!. One minute We were arguing and the next..." He pauses for a moments tears begin rolling down his face "and then...I was inside of you and you were scared and crying" I look at him confused "how can you just forget?" He shakes his head "I don't know, I can't explain it, it was like,  I was angry about how Jonathan was with you and I started getting these images in my head of you with him and it's like you left me because I wasn't good enough and and love you so much and I give you all of me and the thought of you wanting him....it broke my heart and the more hurt I felt the more blurry everything went. I don't even know what I said to you I just remember being angry and hurt and...like our first time that should have been special but instead I-i....."

He breaks down crying "you said that" I mumble "I said what?" he looks at me confused "that you loved me and you give me all of you and you asks me why You wasn't good enough for me"

"What did you say?" He asks wiping his eyes "nothing, you had you hand over my mouth and I was in to much pain to speak" he looks down ashamed and I lift his chin so he facing me again "Michael, if I didn't think you were good enough for me or I didn't love you then I wouldn't have giving you all of me the way you gave me all of you" he looks away "I didn't give you any choice" he mumbles "maybe that time and the first time but the other times I chose to be with you because I love you not because you made me" I feel a knot in my stomach I don't want to ask this but I need to know "did you did this to any of you old girlfriends?" He shakes his head "your the only girlfriend I've ever had and I swear your the only person I've been with, I don't wanna ever be with anybody else" I see the sincereness in his eyes. "Have you ever hurt anybody else?" He goes quiet for a moment "Tony, I wanted him to stay away from you and I thought he was trying to break us up. Marlon had to drag me off him" I looked at him shocked "he never got mugged" He mumbles looking at the ground "it was you!?" He's about to speak when Janet calls for Michael "I'll be right with you" he calls back then turns to me "I'll be back down in a minute but I'll understand if your not here waiting for me" he says wiping his eyes then goes upstairs.

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Michael's POV

I go back downstairs and sigh in relief Ocean is still here! She's  sat looking down with her head in her hands but she didn't leave me. "Is Janet ok?" She mumbles "she's gone back to sleep" I whisper putting my arm around her "are you ok?" She looks up at me. "You can't keep doing this every time someone talks to me" I nod quickly  "I know and I am truly sorry for what I've done to you" I cup her face in my hands "I love you, please don't leave me" I whisper "Your the only good thing in my life...I need you" she doesn't say anything and I kiss her softly and she kisses me back the same way.

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Ocean's POV

After what Michael told me and what he's done to me, my conscience is telling me to leave, just push him off me and run, but I can't, as our kiss deepens I feel myself wanting him more. I can't run away, because I need him just as much as he needs me.

He breaks away and looks into my eyes "I wanna kiss you" he whispers. "Your already kissing me" I giggle confused and he shakes his head pressing his finger softy against my lips "not here" he slowly moves his hand up my thigh. "I wanna kiss you here" he says resting his hand on the outside of my panties. "Huh?" I say still confused "it's a special kind of kiss, the kind you give to someone you truly love" he starts to explain "have you done it before?" I ask biting my lower lip nervously. "No....I told you, I've only ever loved you and wanna show how much I truly love you" he smiles stroking the side of my face with his thumb "I'll go first if you want?" I nod still kind of unsure about this and he kisses my lips softly before lowering himself down removing my panties and start planting soft feather like kisses all over my sex. At first it feels kinds of strange but in a good way. I moan and twitch slightly when I feel his tongue glide slowly across the insides of my folds. I feel myself tensing and shaking as the pleasure becomes more intense. he starts nuzzling and sucking on my clit. Michael groans as he continues to work his tongue inside of me and I begin squirming feeling the pleasure building up inside of me. "MmmMichael! I-I'm gonna" I moan before I can finish I feel this amazing burst of pleasure rush through my entire body making me moan loudly. I twitch an moan slightly from the vibrations of Michael's groans as he swirls his tongue inside of making making sure he gets all of my juices. I drop back on the sofa trying to steady my breath after experiencing my first ever orgasm. Michael gets back to his feet and sits back next to me on the couch and kisses me whilst undoing his pants releasing his large and fully erect manhood and he looks at me with the same nervous expression I had just moments ago. I kiss him back and slowly go to my knees positioning myself between his legs.

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Michael's POV

Ocean slowly starts kissing a licking around my tip and I gasp slightly when she starts slowly taking me into her mouth little by little. I lick my lips and I can still taste her. I groan loudly from the vibrations from her moans and the sweet taste of her juices still on my lips are driving crazy. I squirming trying to hold on but the pleasure she's giving me is building up fast so  "oh fuck! Mmmm...I'm cumm..." I groan but before can say anymore I explode and all the pleasure that's been building up rushes through me and I moan as Ocean takes all of me before getting back to her feet. "I love you" I whisper and kiss her shakily still trying to catch my breath from my orgasm "I love you too" she whispers onto my lips. I wrap my arm around her and pull her close to me "Michael!!" I hear Janet shriek opening her bedroom door. We both break away and I quickly start adjusting myself as I hear her walking down the stairs "did you get the monster?" We both look at her confused "I heard a monster growling! Did you chase him away?" She continues and we both look at each other embarrassed finally getting it "um, it was just the TV hunny, there's no monsters here" Ocean smiles and Janet looks at us confused "but the TVs off?" She says pointing towards it "I turned it off because Ocean was getting scared" she turns to me and frowns "your mean! You shouldn't scare you friends" I nod taking her hand "C'mon, back to bed" she shakes her head "I want Ocean to take me" Ocean smiles and takes her back to bed

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When Ocean comes back downstairs I take her hand pulling her onto my lap and we stay cuddling for a moment then break away quickly when we hear the front door opening "we're home" mother smiles then looks confused at Ocean and I sitting on the couch "oh, hello Ocean" Ocean smiles and says hello back. "I'm going to make a coffee would you like one?" My mother offers. Even though she's smiling I can tell she's annoyed "I'm ok thanks Mrs Jackson, I should be getting home" she smiles sensing my mothers annoyance also.

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After she leaves my mother turns to me "I thought you were going to call her and tell her we didn't need a sitter?" She frowns "I was but I forgot" I lie and she rolls her eyes "typical men I knew I should have done it myself"

"So how was the meal?" I ask trying to change the subject "I'm just going to check on Janet and I'll tell you all about it" she smiles

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While mothers upstairs I go into the kitchen to make the coffee and Joseph walks in "so, that's the reason you wanted to stay home babysit" he smirks "so you can get the house to yourself" I shake my head innocently "no! I just forgot to call her and I felt rude just sending her away" he looks at me skeptically raising an eyebrow "so you two weren't doing anything?" I shake my head and he walks closer to me "so.. these pink lace panties belong to you?" He smirks handing them to me "um...." I say trying to think of something and he shakes his head chuckling under his breath as he leaves the room.