Michael's POV

I wake up the next morning to Ocean slamming around the room "what time is it?" I groan sitting up. "look for yourself!" She snaps "your still pissed at me aren't you?" I sigh "what the fuck do you think!?"

"I thought you would have calmed down by now and you'd actually let me talk"

"calm down! Michael, I walked through the front door to your sister crying and thanking me for us adopting her baby!" I snap on a hushed tone walking over to him. "what ye fuck were you thinking!?"

"I wasn't. I walked in our room and Janet had a methadone and a needle in her hand about to use it and..."

"what!? Why didn't you tell me last night?" She cuts me off "because You haven't let me talk" I say sarcastically then notice the look on Ocean's face and realise that was a dumb move. "I wasn't thinking straight" I sigh "I thought she was just saying that stuff because she was scared. But when when I walked in and saw her I panicked"

"did she take any?"

"no, luckily I got there before she tried it"

"why would she do that? She saw what drugs did to us?" She asks confused "I think she was trying to lose the baby" I mumble. "she really doesn't want this baby" I shake my head "I'm sorry I said that to her, but like I said I panicked when I saw her and when I finally realised what I said. I told her to let me discuss it with you first before anything officially agreed and when you came home she ran over to you before I had a chance. Do you want me to tell her we can't? You don't have to say it. This is my mess not yours" I sigh rubbing my temple. "we talked about this stuff before. When I had the abortion remember? The reason we did that was because it wasn't ours and..."

"I told you, you could keep your baby of you wanted to" I point out. "I know you did and I'm not blaming you for that. And the reason I did that was because it was Jermaine's baby and I didn't want you to have to raise his child. What makes you think I could do it with Janet's?"

"that was different I didn't fuck Janet, but you and Jermaine did" I say with and attitude. "I'm sorry I didn't mean that" I mumble "maybe it could work work" I shrug "we're always talking about having a big family and it's not like anybody would know. We'll be in Miami by then"

"yes in the future, not in the next few month! and what if we say yes and Janet decides down the line she wants the baby back? Because she could. "watching another woman raise your child is the most heartbreaking thing in the world. I had to see my mother do it with DJ and it didn't just break my heart but yours too"

"we wanted DJ and we didn't hand him over willingly. Janet really doesn't want this and she won't have to watch, because we'll be in Miami remember?"

"you want to adopt it don't you?"

"I away no, but on the other hand, maybe us agreeing to adopt it could be for the best and she might feel differently the further along she gets and change her mind. But the more I think about it, the more I think it'll be for the best. Janet's 13 and she's not ready"

"I want to help her I really do, but..."

"you don't want to take the baby" I cut her off and she sighs. "I don't know. This isn't just a decision we can make in the heat of the moment. This is somebody's life"

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Janet's POV

I'm sitting watching TV and LaToya walks in looking annoyed. "what's wrong with you?"

"oh nothing! Just that I'm stuck on babysitting duty again" she rolls her eyes "how come?"

"Ocean and Michael are going to some laser tag thing with Randy and some others"

"why don't they take them?" I shrug "because you can't take toddlers and a new born.. Obviously" she shrugs. "so their just gonna leave them with you again?" I frown. "well they'll leaving for Miami soon, so I think just wanna spends some time with Randy and their friends before they leave"

"if you don't want to babysit. I don't mine doing it inside" I offer seeing an opportunity to show Joseph and mother I can take care of a baby myself. "Janet I'm not gonna leave you alone to try and handle three small kids" she chuckles slightly under her breath "I'll be fine. Why don't you ask them of you can go with them?" She suggests "it does sound like fun" I smile and head upstairs to ask. Also to talk about how we're gonna do the adoption. I have no idea how exactly it works so I need to speak to them about it and make sure their definitely going to let me still see the baby.

I knock on the door and neither of them answers. I try and open the doo and it's locked from the inside so I knock a little louder. "Michael? Ocean?" Can I come in?" I hear moving around then Michael opens the door slightly. "get what's up?" He smiles through pursed and he's sweating and out of breath. "I wanted to talk to you and Ocean ln about..."

"sure, but can we do this later? Um... How's really not a good time"

"ok, well maybe we could..."

"I'll be downstairs soon we'll talk then, I promise" he says quickly and I nod and as I turn to leave he's already closed and locked the door.

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Michael's POV

I go downstairs to get a drink, while Ocean is taking a shower and Janet is sitting in the kitchen. "you ok?" I smile and she nods and smiles through pursed lips"mhm.. Is Ocean not coming down to talk with us?" she asks looking around. "she's in the shower. Have you been waiting here for me all this time?"

"I really wanted to talk to you both about.. You know" she says in a hush voice incase LaToya hears. "would I still be allowed to see it and stuff?"

"of course you will. Just because we're moving doesn't mean you'll never see us again. We'll be visiting and you and the others are always welcome to come and visit to and your welcome to stay anytime" I smile fiving her a hug then sot beside her. "and about this..."

"you haven't changed your mind have you?" She cuts me off "I told you, I needed to speak to Ocean first remember? That's why I couldn't talk more with you last night. Because this is a huge thing and to wasn't a decision I could make on my own, Ocean and I are married and we have to both be on the same page, especially with something as big as this"

"did she say no?" She looks at me like she's going to cry. "we had a really long tall and we both agreed that, if you really don't want this baby, then it's best if we adopt it, but you need to be one hundred percent sure that this is what you want because once you hand it over you can't decide a few months or years down the line you what it back because that won't be fare on anybody, including the baby, but if you change your mind at any tine during your pregnancy or after you give birth. Then you tell us straight away ok? We can't adopt it unless this is a hundred percent what you want"

"It is and I won't because I know he or she will be with you and Ocean and I know you'll love it and raise it like your own"

"and we will, but we need you to do something for us first. You need to tell mother and dad your pregnant and..."

"but I won't have to, they won't need to know" she cuts me off "I could come down to Miami when the babies due and then once I have it come home and..."

"you can't travel when your that far along in a pregnancy and even if you could, you couldn't travel back straight away. You'd need time to recover and you might feel differently when you tell them"

"I won't" she shakes her head "if you and Ocean don't take it then it'll go another family, but I can't keep it"

" and we will, we're not gonna let it grow up without it's real family around. But if we're gonna do this, we're gonna do it properly. Which means no secrets" she doesn't say anything and I sigh sympathetically seeing how scared she is. "would you prefer me to tell them?" I ask softly and she nods. Ok, Ocean and I will do it when we get back. LaToya and Randy will be out, so if you go to a friends house or something, then we'll speak to them alone if that's what you want"

"thank you" she smiles and I pull her in for a hug and she hugs me back then breaks away. "can I come with you, Ocean and Randy to laser tag?"

"I wish you could, but they have a rule about people not being allowed when.."

"their pregnant" she sighs "I'm sorry. Really wish you could. We'll do something just the three of us if you want? We can go see a movie or something" and she nods, smiling through pursed lips and I can see this disappointment in her eyes. "I know it's sucks, you can't do all the things you want and there was alot of thing's Ocean couldn't do or eat or Drin, bit there's still alot you can" I smile reassuringly"like what? Seems like I can't do anything"

"Probably best Ocean talks you through all that and she'll talk you through all the things to expect. I'll tell her to sit down and talk to you about it tonight" I smile.

I feel really bad about not letting Janet come to laser tag with us. I'd love to invite her and I know she'd have a great time with us. But while she's pregnant she can't so for now we'll just have to try and find things she can do too.

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Ocean's POV

"you lost and now your paying" I giggle to Randy as we walk into KFC "it doesn't count because it wasn't a fair fight, you and Michael were the only two left just stood there and let you win that doesn't count" he shrugs "I'm not gonna shoot my wife" Michael chuckles "it was laser tag. It wouldn't have killed her" Randy rolls his eyes. "you'll understand when your married" I shrug. "understand what?" He frowns confused "I had two choices. Shoot her and win for our team or lose and let my wife's team win and what ever choice I made determines whether or not I get sex tonight" Michael shrugs "choosing your own brother over sex.. I guess we know where you loyalty is" Randy chuckles walking over to the counter with Beth.

"why do I get the feeling you wanna tell me something?" I ask sensing Michael's mood "I kinda told Janet we'd speak to my parents before we do anything... When we get home"

"so that's why you let me win" I smirk folding my arms "girl, you know exactly why I let you win" he smirks and leans in kissing me deep and I feel his hand slowly making it's way up my thigh. "umm... This is a public place perverts" Beth giggles coming back to the table with Randy and our food. "you should try living with them" Randy chuckles as we break away. "you guys coming to Rick's place with us" Beth asked "gonna get back to the kids soon" I smile. Michael and I do enjoy getting to go out from time to time just us, but after awhile we really start missing the kids. It is hard somtimes, but we love our moments when it's just us and our little family and pretty soon we'll be having another addition. My first reaction was no at first to the situation with Janet and mainly because I was so pissed at Michael for not speaking to me about it, before saying anything to her. I get why he panicked and said yes in the heat of the moment, but after a really long discussion and from what Michael's told me, it's probably for the best we do. He spoke to her earlier and made sure she's aware she could change her mind and she has to be a hundred percent this is what she want's. And we both agreed that if she gets even the slightest doubt at any time, we won't be going ahead with it. Not because we don't want to do this for her, but because we don't want her to look back and regret her decision.

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when we get DJ and Vaeh come rushing over too us, we've only been gone a few hours, but we still missed them like crazy.

we sits and play with the kids for awhile and DJ and Vaeh start getting tired so we all snuggle up on the sofa and put on a movie. "are the home yet?" Janet asks in a hushed voice coming into the room. "not yet" I whisper and she cones over and sits on the chair opposite us. "are your sure this is really what you want?" I ask and she nods.

once LaToya leaves and DJ and Vaeh have fallen asleep, Michael and put them upstairs for bed and come downstairs just and Kathrine and Joseph are coming home and go into the living room with to Janet. "try and relax, it'll be ok" Michael tries to reassure Janet who's sitting on the chair nervously "we're back!" Kathrine says cheerily. "Duncan and Nevaeh sleeping?"

"mum, their all taking a nap" Michael smiles through pursed lips. "what have you two time?" Joseph frowns and we look at him confused "we haven't done anything" Michael frowns back, annoyed he automatically assumed that. "but we do need to talk to you about something" I cut in "I'm gonna go see my grandbabies and then we can talk" Kathrine sighs already annoyed by whatever we're gonna say. "go on" Mucho mouths to Janet motioning his head towards the door and she quickly leaves before will tell them.

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Janet's POV

It's three hours now and Michael still hasn't text me. He said once he's spoken to mother and Joseph he'd text me so I can come home. I told Michael I was going to my friends house to wait, but I've actually been sitting here in the park since I left the house. After what happened with Timmy he told the entire school and now everybody thinks I'm a slut and none of my friends want to talk to me anymore, I haven't told Michael this because he's already mad enough about Timmy and all this will do is make him more mad. It's getting really cold out here and I really want to go home now, I've been checking my phone and Michael still hasn't text.

30 more minutes go by and I finally get a text

from: Michael- you can come home now. Don't worry nobody's gonna yell at you I promise xxxx

I hurry home then stop for a moment as I get to the front door and brace myself. Michael promised me nobody wasn't going to yell and I do believe him because he never breaks a promise. But I still take a deep breath and brace myself more nervously going inside.

"Janet can you come in here please?" Joseph says calm yet sternly and I walk into the living room and him, mother, Michael and Ocean are sitting waiting for me.

"Michael's told us" Joseph says in a calm tone and I nod and sit on the chair opposite them. I still don't understand why I have to pretend my parents didn't know, but Joseph hasn't beaten me for this so It was best not to question him incase he does.

"no we've all had a long talk and Michael and Ocean have told us what you asked them and we all agree you having this baby wouldn't be what's best for either of you" mother says calmly "Michael and Ocean have agreed to take the baby and raise it as their own and we agree that's it'll be for the best" Joseph says. "but this has to be what you want" Ocean cuts in "and you can change your mind at anytime" Michael adds "this is what I want" I lie "so here's what will happen. When the baby's due. You'll stay in Miami for awhile then as soon as it's born we say Ocean had a home birth and their names will both go straight on the birth certificate. That way we won't have to mess around with legal adoption papers, Randy and LaToya will be told, but other than that nobody else to know. Only the people in this house" Joseph says sternly and I nod "maybe it's best you have an early night" mother says softly hinting at me to go away now and Michael and Ocean smile at me through pursed lips as I get up to leave.

*

when I get to my room I lock my door and begin crying. I know I told Ocean and Michael that this is what I wanted, but I'd really hoped that them talking to mother and Joseph would somehow changed things and they'd let me keep the baby myself. Shortly after I go upstairs Ocean comes and knocks on my door. "are you ok?" She asks softly and I nod faking a smile. I really want to tell her the truth but of I do Joseph will kill me. She sits beside me on the bed and gives me a cuddle. "we're gonna be here for you all the way, you know that right?" She smiles at me through pursed lips and I nod smiling and her the same way and tighten our cuddle. "Mommy! Daddy! I'm awake now!" I hear DJ yell from the next room. "I best go get him" she smiles and gets up to see to him.

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I've been upstairs all night. Michael and Ocean haven't been up to speak to me, but I've heard them playing with the kids. I understand their busy, but it would be nice if they had come up to see me. They didn't even attempt to stick up for me when mother told me to go to my room, they just smiled through pursed lips and said nothing.

it's getting late and just as I'm falling asleep there's a light tap on the door and Michael comes in "hey, dunk" he smiles softly coming over to my bed "just tierd" I shrug. "you'll get like that alot over the next few months" he smiles through pursed lips "I'm sorry we didn't come up before. I was about to when Ocean did, then DJ woke up and felt the need to wake his sisters" he chuckles slightly "it's ok, you were busy" I mumble "what's wrong?"

"I've been stuck in my room all night and..."

"we didn't say anything because everything went the way you wanted it to. the situation was alot calmer than it could have gone and we didn't want anybody getting angry or arguing"

"I guess" I sigh this was far from how I wanted it to go. I wanted to come home and Michael and Ocean gad convinced mother and Joesph to let me keep the baby,

"how about we go out tomorrow? Just you and me?" Michael says bring me from my thoughts. "really?" I smile slightly "sure! It's been a long time since we had a brother, sister only day"

"few years"

"it's been that long? then it's a much needed brother, sister only day" he chuckles slightly, giving me a big hug then breaks away. "I'll leave you to get some sleep" he smiles and I smile back and he leaves