The past few weeks have been going a lot between me and Ocean, but the past day or so she's been really quiet. It's her birthday today so hopefully that will cheer her up.

We're on are way to school and she's just staring out of the window not saying anything "you know there's a reason people say HAPPY birthday" I nudge her trying to lighten the mood and she turns and smiles through pursed lips "I've just had a lot on my mind" we pull up at the school and I put my hand on hers "is this about your brother?" She sighs intwining her fingers in mine "this is the first year he's not gonna be here, I just wish I could see him again...even just for a minute" I don't say anything for a moment and just hold her in my arms. I feel awful about what happened that night. It was probably her last chance to see her brother and I took it away from her. "I have something for you" I say reaching into my pocket handing her a present "happy birthday" I smile handing it to her "it's beautiful!" She smiles. "It's a promise necklace" I explain putting it on for her "and my promise to you is that I will always love and I'll never leave you no matter what" she turns around and kisses me and a tear falls down her face "what's wrong?" She shakes her head and smiles " nothing, I love you" smile back slightly confused "I love you too"

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Ocean's POV

It's lunch and once again I can stomach anything. "Baby, I'm really getting worried about you, you've not been eating right for days, what's going on?" Michael asks looking at me worried "I'm Fine! I'm just not hungry" I sighs taking my hand "baby, I know your upset about Robert but you have to eat. He wouldn't you starving yours..."

"I missed my period" I blurt out cutting him off and he goes silent for a moment still holding my hand "again?" He whispers and I nod nervously. "C'mon" he says taking my hand "where are we going?"

"We have to find out for sure, this is the 3rd time you've miss..." I cut him off shaking my head "we can't go the doctors! My dads a doctor! If he finds out..." He cuts me off putting his hands on my shoulders "we don't have to will go to a pharmacy and get one of those home pregnancy test, it'll fine"

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Michael POV

We decided to wait until after school to do the test at my house because nobody will be home. We didn't wanna do this at school, Deep down I think we both know what the test is gonna say. The drive home has been silent neither of us know what to say right now. "Maybe we should wait a few days, lots of people are late on their periods" Ocean says pacing the bathroom. "Not for 3 months, we need to know, all you have to right now is pee...then we'll go from there" I say shakily, she looks at me nervously an nods. "You have to leave while I do it" I frown confused "why?"
"Because I don't want you to see my Vajayjay!" I giggle slightly under my breath "baby, you do realise I've seen it already?" I wiggle my eyebrows playfully, trying to ease her nerves a little. "Out!" She says sternly pointing at the door trying not to smirk "fine!" I roll my eyes in defeat.

I sit outside the bathroom door waiting (for feels like a lifetime) for her to do the test. I have no idea what we're gonna do. Our parents still don't even know about us. Ocean's parents won't let her date until she finishes college. The only reason they let us hang out is because they think we're only friends and we're not even supposed to have sex until marriage. My mothers always said its a sin and people should save themselves until their wedding night and it's gonna break my her heart if she found out we sin'd and Joseph's gonna kill me, that's if Ocean's dad doesn't do it first. My thoughts are broken when I hear Ocean open the door crying. "I'm sorry" she sobs as I wrap my arms around her "it's not your fault, its gonna be ok" she shakes her head pulling away "no it's not, they'll never forgive me, my parents are gonna hate me" she says getting more worked up "they won't, this is all my fault and I'm so sorry" I whisper to her pulling her close to me again.

Once Ocean has calmed down a little. We go to my room and lay on the bed. lay behind her with my arm over her. Neither of us knowing what to say. We hear the front door open and my mother calling me "Michael? Is Ocean up there with you?" We both get up and make our way downstairs. And see Both our mother standing at the door "sweetie I thought I told you to come straight home today" Jessica says to Ocean "sorry I forgot" Ocean say heading for the door. "Well come on I want you to get your homework down before tonight" Ocean smiles faintly and says her good byes to us before leaving "we'll see you guys later" Jessica smiles before leaving. We're all going out for dinner together tonight because it's Ocean's birthday and with everything that's spinning through my head right now sitting and having mindless chit chit over dinner is the last thing I wanna do.

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Ocean's POV

Michael and I have barley spoken much at dinner. Our parents have been going on about work and stuff and how great everything is going for them. Every now and then Michael would weakly smile at me and I do the same. I wish I could tell what he was thinking. It's bad enough knowing I've shamed my family and that their gonna hate me when they find out but not knowing what Michael's gonna do is worse. He barley spoke when I told him and when he did he just said it was ok and it's not my fault. What does that even mean? "Some people have no shame!" My Aunt Sherri says snapping me from my thoughts and I see a couple sitting a few tables from us "an unwed couple parading their sinful ways like that and that poor child" Sherri continues "I agree, people these days have no shame and that poor child be brought into this world out of a sin" Katherine joins. I glance over at Michael and he has his head down playing with his food. "You know there was a young girl at the hospital today 16 she was and having a baby! And her parents were actually proud can you believe that?"

Michael looks over at me and he look scared. I've never seen him scared about anything before. "Well thank goodness we'll never have that problem" my dad nudges me snapping me from my days. "No husband until after college, isn't that right sweetie?" I smile through pursed lips nodding "girls like that should disowned not be made to think it's something to be proud of, I'm guessing the father wasn't present" my mother says and Sherri shakes her head "probably ran first chance he got, that's if they even know who he is" she chuckles "boys like that always do" my dad shrugs "I'd be so ashamed if any of my boys were to get a girl in trouble" Katherine shakes her head.  "Are you OK sweetie? Your very quite" my mother asks  "I'm fine" I say and fake a smile "you sure you've have seemed a it off lately" my dad asks "maybe she misses her brother" Michael mumbles looking down "Michael!" LaToya snaps shocked but he doesn't say anything "I'm sorry about him" Joseph says frown at Michael "it's quite alright, losing a loved one is never easy especially an sibling" my dad smiles faintly. I look over at Michael and he looks away. What if my dads right? You see it all the time boys getting a girl pregnant then leaving them. Michael has barely said anything to me since he found out and maybe that's why because he's thinking of how to get away from me.

When we get home I start heading straight for my room "I'm gonna go to bed now" I fake a smile to my family. As soon as I lock my door I drop to the floor and immediately burst into tears.

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Michael's POV

Everybody really pissed me off a dinner tonight when they were all talking about that pregnant girl. And how people should be ashamed to bring a child into sin. I could see the look on Ocean's face she felt ashamed and she hasn't done anything wrong. I looked out of my window an I couldn't see Ocean, her door was closed so I climbed out and went over.

As I was climbing through her window I could hear sobbing and went around the bed and Ocean was curled up on the floor, I put my hand on her shoulder and she jumped up about to scream so I quickly put my hand over her mouth "Ssh, it's only me" I smile softly wiping her tears with my thumb. "What are you doing here?" She whispers. I'm about to speak and I notice she's not wearing her promise necklace anymore. "Where's the necklace I gave you?" She looks down "did you just come to get it back" I frown confused "why would I want it back?" She starts crying again "because your leaving me" I shake my head pulling her close to me "I understand, you wanted to, you don't have to live with this shame, you can leave and forget all about it and..." I place my finger on her lips cutting her off "baby, I'm not leaving why would you even think that?" She sits on the bed and I sit next to her putting my arm around her "I saw you at dinner you didn't wanna speak to me and I could see how badly you didn't wanna be there with me"

"I didn't talk much because 30mins before I'd found out I was gonna be a father and I didn't wanna be there because I was pissed off at how everybody was talking and I could see how badly you were feeling and when your dad was saying that the guy never sticks around and talking about your brother like he was dead all I wanted to do was hold you and tell you that I was here for you and the baby but I couldn't. "So your not leaving me?" I shake my head "where's your necklace?", She opens her dresser draw handing it to me and I put it back on for her "I gave you this and promised I'd always love you and would never leave you know matter what" I turn her back round so she's facing me and kiss her tenderly "and I meant every word I'm gonna be here for you and our baby"

"Please tell me you haven't told your parents" She says shakily. "I swear I haven't said a word to anybody" I say pulling her close "they can't found out, not yet" I nod agreeing with her "I know"