Michael's POV

"you don't mean that" I finally say after taking in what she just said. "yes I do! This is what I've been trying to tell you all week, but every time I'd tried to talk to you..."

"Janet, do you realise what you asking me?" I cut her off "I understand your scared and I'll help you and support you, but I can't take your baby. I'm sorry but I can't "

"Please? I can't do this and I don't want to be a mother at 13, but if you and Ocean adopt it then I'll know I'll go to a good home and have parents that love it and I'll get to see to grow up and..."

"and be raised by someone else" I cut her off "you think being a parent is gonna be hard, but watching them grow up and being raised by someone else is so much worst. Me and Ocean had to go through that with Jessica remember and to killed us"

"but that was different. He was taken from you and you wanted to keep him. I don't and if you take mine it'll be taken care of"

"what makes you so sure we'd be good parents to your baby?"

"because your great parents and I see how well taken your own three children are and..."

"you think we're great parents? Every kid we've had has been taken away at some point" I point out "only DJ and that wasn't your fault" she shakes her head. "actually it was! and they have all been taken away. Duncan was taken away because I was beating the shit out of his mother, Jermaine took Nevaeh because we chose drugs over her care and safety and Princess was taken by Jessica because I wasn't there for her when she needed protecting. We haven't managed to keep hold of one child for even a year so what makes you think your baby would be any different"

"I just know" she mumbles. "no you don't" I shake my head "and incase you didn't realise Ocean's 19 i'm almost 21 and we already have three young kids one of which is a new born and..."

"but your both always talking about having more children and wanting a big family and this is perfect. You both want more kids, I have one I don't want and..."

"yeah, more kids in the future!" I cut her off "we have two young kids and a new born, we're moving, trying to run a business, Now isn't a good time for us to have any more. And even if it was, I'm not gonna take you baby from you" I shake my head in disbelief we're even having f this conversation. "but.."

"but nothing" I cut her off "Janet I know this is gonna be hard for you and Ocean and I will help you out, but we're not gonna adopt your baby. I'm sorry"

"can't you at least think about it and talk to Ocean? She might feel different and..."

"Daddy?" I hear Veah cry for me and I get up off the the bed to see to her "there's no point thinking about it or talking to Ocean. Because it's not gonna happen. I can't I'm sorry" I sigh and leave the room to go get Vaeh.

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(the next morning)

Janet's POV

I didn't sleep at all last night, crying and thinking about the conversation I had with Michael. If him and Ocean doesn't adopt this baby, Joseph and mother are going to make me adopt it to another family and I'll never see him or her again. I understand why Michael would say no, but of I told him the truth it'll destroy the relationship Michael finally has with Joseph and my parents will hate me and probably kick me out into the street. I do want to keep my baby and I pray every night Joesph and mother will change their mind and let me keep it like they did with Michael, but I know that no matter how much I pray, it's never gonna happen.

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Ocean's POV

I come downstairs and Janet is at the kitchen table, looking like she's on the verge of crying. "hey, what's wrong?" I ask softly and she shakes her head. "nothing. I'm fine" she mumbles. "is it your hormones? I'd have my down days too"

"you did?"

"mhm.. All women do when their.. You know?" I say in a hushed voice incase somebody hears "do you think you ready to tell your parents yet?" I ask softly knowing how nervous she'll be feeling "um... Did you speak to Michael last night?" She asks ignoring my question. "about what?"

"about nothing. Janet was just a little upset last night is all" Michael says coming into the room with DJ and Vaeh. "is everything ok?" I ask him confused. "everything's fine" he smiles at me and pecks my lips and Janet gets up and walks out without saying a word. I get up to go and speak to her and Michael grabs my arm slightly, stopping me. "don't, she's fine"

"she doesn't look fine. Did something happen with you two last night?" I frown confused "like I said she's just upset"

"about what?"

"about telling my parents and stuff" he shrugs and turns to give the kids the cereal I just made for them "so what did she want you to talk to me about?" I ask and he sighs taking my hand leading me out of the room out of ear shot of DJ and Vaeh. "I was talking to Janet last night and she kept saying that she wasn't ready to be a mother and said she wants us to adopt her baby and I said no and she got upset about it" he says in a hushed tone. "are you serious!?" I gasp slightly, talking in the same hushed tone. "she's just scared like we're and I tried to tell her that and now she's upset"

"but, she's knows we're here for her if she needs us right?"

"of course. I tell her that all the time. I told her we'd help her out, but we weren't gonna take the baby"

"why would she wanna adopt her baby to us? She saw how messed up we got with DJ and my mom" I shrug confused. "that's what I told her"

"it was probably just a spur of the moment thing. I'm sure she'll feel different once your mom and dad know"

"I hope so. I don't wanna see her go the same way we did" he sighs. "and she won't, you remember how great and excepting your parents were with us and DJ. I don't see why they wouldn't be the same for her" I smile at him through pursed lips and pull him into me. "we'll sit down and talk to her tonight and prepare her for telling the rest of the family" I suggests and he nods.

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Michael's POV

I feel bad about being so harsh towards Janet last night and even this morning. I get she's alot younger that Ocean and I was and we had each other for support, but this is her child! Her own flesh and blood and she was talking about giving it away like it was a stray cat or something she found on her way home and I was shocked that she'd even ask me that.

"do you really think this is gonna help?" Ocean asks as we drive towards Tony parent's home. "I'm just gonna talk to him"

"but Janet asked you not to"

"Janet's asked my a lot of things this week and I'm not gonna let this go. Timmy's the one that got her pregnant, now he needs to be a man and stand by her and support their baby" I frown staring at the house. "but she already told you he didn't wanna know her anymore and..."

"and called her a slut!" I snap cutting her off "I'm sorry I didn't mean to take it out on you" I sigh "I'm just gonna talk to him" I say in a softer tone. "why did you bring me here to wait in the car?" She asks nervously and I sigh "honestly, I'm just gonna talk to him, and tell him what's going on with Janet and I asked you to come with me incase thing's get a little heated, but it's fine because..."

"your just gonna talk to him?" She cuts me off "that's right" I smile pecking her lips and get out the car.

"I'm just gonna talk to him" I repeat to myself as I knock on the door and wait. The door finally open's and Timmy open is "I'M GONNA FUCKING KILL YOU!!" I yell, dragging him out of his house, quickly forgetting everything I just told myself.

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Ocean's POV

I was really shocked when Michael first told me about Janet, she's always been such a sweet and sensible kid ever since I've known her, but then again so we're me and Michael once so in away I understand how scared she feeling and in another way I don't. When I was pregnant with DJ, Michael automatically stood by me and even though we were young and scared, we were actually excited about becoming a family and the thought of adoption was never there. The only people that did, was my parents.

my thought are broken when I hear Michael yell something and I turn to see him punching and kicking Timmy and quickly get out of the car and rush over.

"Michael Stop!" I yell rushing over and try to pull him away. He quickly spins around and I feel the back of his hand hit me hard across the face, knocking me down "Ocean! Oh my god! I'm so sorry" he says shakily helping me up.

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Janet's POV

"Have you spoken to Michael and Ocean yet?" Joseph says coming into my room and I nod "Michael said no and they think I'm just saying these things because I'm scared to tell you and mother" I mutter. "then it'll be going to another family" he says coldly "why can't I keep it? you never did this to Michael and Ocean. I'll take care of the baby myself and..."

"It doesn't matter what I did with Michael! I've had to deal with enough of his bullshit and I'm not about to go through all that again. You had your chance to keep your mistake in the family and you blew it, so now you keep your mouth shut to everybody and when is born it goes" he says sternly. "but..."

"but nothing!" He snaps cutting me off. "your 13 years old and you've been putting your self around like a little slut. Your lucky I'm not beating that thing out of you!" He snaps and storms out.

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Michael's POV

"baby, I'm do sorry. I swear didn't know it was you behind me" I honestly tell her, helping her clean the cut on the corner of her eye and there's a knock on the restroom door. "the restroom is for paying customers only" a female voice says "yeah, we're gonna buy something. We'll be right out" I shout back to her still not looking away from Ocean "please talk to me. I swear I didn't mean it. I-I..."

"I know that, but that's not the point" she cuts me off "this is why I told you not to go over there, because I knew you'd flip out at him"

"I didn't go over there to do that. I was only gonna talk to him and tell help about Janet and that he needs to be there for her and there baby and..."

"you snapped and lost your temper?" She raises and eyebrow at me. "Janet's my little sister and she's hurting and it's all his fault"

"no it's not" she shakes her head. "Janet slept with him willingly, she wasn't held down and forced she made the choice and she got pregnant"

"I thought you said your forgave me for that?" I mumble. "I have. But you have to realise, what happened with Janet isn't the same as what happened to us"

"I never said it was"

"but you were thinking it?" I don't say anything and nod "can we just go home?" She sighs opening the door to leave. "it really was an accident. I swear I never meant to hit you" I say taking her arm softly and the waitress that knocked on the door comes over. "is everything ok miss?" She asks softly and Ocean nods "everything's fine"

"are you sure?"

"she just told you yes!" I snap at her "Michael, chill out! She was only asking" Ocean frown walking past us both and walks out. "you see what you did!?" I turn to the waitress "You just upset my wife! Next time stay out of people's business!" I snap at the woman then leave and Ocean is sat waiting in the car for me. "Mother won't be back with the kids for awhile. do you wanna go get some lunch or something before we get back?" I ask and she shades her head. "I need to pick some stuff up from the grocery store, will you drop me off?"

"you don't want me with you?" I mumble still feeling awful about what happened. "maybe it's best you go home and relax a little" she smiles through pursed lips. "I really am..."

"Michael, you've already said sorry and I know it was an accident you don't have to keep apologising" she cuts me off. "but your still upset"

"I'm fine, like I said I need to get some stuff from the grocery store and I don't want you to come with me because I think it's best you go home and calm yourself down before you start flipping out and do something stupid.. Again"

"Soo... We're good?"

"we're good" she smiles kissing me softly. I move my hand up her thigh and she breaks away "we're not that good" she smirks and pecks my cheek.

after dropping Ocean at the store I go home still feeling like shit after what happened. I've never felt this bad in my life. When all those thing's happened in the past I'd blanked out through most of it. But this time I was fully aware of what happened. Even though it really was and accident and I honestly didn't realise Ocean was there or even got out of the car, but I still feel like the biggest piece of shit because of it.

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Janet's POV

After Joseph leaves I'm left all alone in the house, yet again. I go into Michael's room to get his iPod, hoping maybe listing some music will help take my mind of things and it's not in his dresser where he normally keeps it so I start looking around.

as I'm looking around I notice all the pictures they have. They all look so happy and I smile to myself looking at all the happy moments Michael and Ocean have captured over the years especially with their babies. After a moment I start looking around for Michael's Ipod again because seeing all those happy family photo's is now making me think of all the moments I'll never get to capture.

after looking everywhere else, I get to the closet and try and reach up on the shelf to see if it's there and a small box falls down and I panic slightly hoping whatever it isn't broken. When I kneel and lift the box up a whole bunch of needles and some bottles of liquid falls out, which I'm guessing is the methadone the doctors gave them. I still can't fully understand why they used that stuff or even tried it in the first place. I understand about them wanted to block things out but what I don't get is what actually made them try it and what was going through their minds as they were doing it. I felt really guilty at first about telling Joseph what are saw Michael doing that day, but now I'm glad I did. Even through I only saw through the post box and didn't get a full view, I saw the look in Michael's eyes as he was putting that stuff into his body and it was like he was slowly slipping away. That stuff almost destroyed their lives and I hate to think what would have happened to him and Ocean of I hadn't turned up that day.

I shake my head trying to rid those thoughts and start putting the stiff back in the box. "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!!!!?" Michael screams charging over grabbing the needle from me. "I was just..."

"did you take any of that!? H-how much did you take!?" He asks shakily, "I didn't take any I swear. I was..."

"WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU THINKING!?" He snaps cutting me off "DO YOU THINK WE ENJOY TAKING THIS SHIT!!? TRUST ME WE DON'T. WHY JANET!? WHY? WHY WOULD YOU EVEN THINK OF..."

"I didn't take any I promise" I croak trying not to get upset, but fail miserably and begin crying. "aww.. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you" he says softly, pulling me in tightly. "I was just trying find..."

"Sssh.. It's ok" he soothes cutting me off. "y-you didn't do it though. You swear!?"

"I swear" he doesn't say anything for a moment and holds me tightly and I can feel him shaking. "Ok, we'll do it. You don't have to do this" he says shakily"

"do what?" I look at him confused "we'll adopt your baby. Please please don't ever do that again"

"you mean it?"

"I'm so sorry I didn't listen to you last night. If this is really what you want then we'll do it, but promise me you'll never think about try and do this again.. I don't want you to turn out like me" he sniffles