Ocean's POV

We get back from the doctors, who confirmed i'm just over a month pregnant and Michael has been smiling from ear to ear the entire time. "Can you believe it!?" He says excitedly. "we've been talking about having another baby for two weeks and the whole time you were already pregnant!" he smiles. "yeah, it's great" I fake a smile, which he see's straight through. "what's wrong I thought this was what we both wanted?" He asks confused. "it is. I'm just surprised is all" I lie

"I know I still can't believe it either!" I'm about to speak when Jermaine walks in. "what's put you two in such a great mood?"

"well..." Michael begins, but I quickly cut him off. "nothing... We're just happy" I shrug. And Michael frowns confused. "why did you do that?" He asks when Jermaine leaves the room. "I just don't want people to know yet"

"this isn't like the other times. We don't have to worry about our families or the baby being taken away. Abby even said remember? They can't take the baby away unless we do something wrong" he reassures me. "yeah, I know. But I just wanna let it all sink in first" I smile and he nods. "yeah, I'm still pretty surprised myself"

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I go to the bathroom and the second I close the door, I break down in tears. This was supposed to be perfect and I've gone and ruined everything. Michael's so happy and excited about becoming a father again and it's going to break his heart when he finds out the truth. I never told him about what happened with Jermaine that night and I thought I could just put it all behind me and forget to ever happened, but now there's no way I can do that. I hate myself for what happened that night. It's bad enough I cheated on Michael and I know there's a chance he'll leave me if he found out, but to sit back and let him think this baby is his is just cruel. As much I don't wanna do this and I know I have to tell him the truth.

"baby, what's happened?" Michael ask worriedly coming into the bathroom. "nothing. I um..."

"awww. is it your hormones?" He smiles wrapping his arms around me. "Michael, I have to tell you something" I croak. "sure, what's wrong?" He asks softly rubbing my back. "I- I... I'm so sorry" I stutter trying to get my words out. "baby, if this is about you not telling me straight away, it's fine. I already told you I wasn't mad" he smiles "it- it's not that" I stutter then take a deep breath. "that night when..." I begin and we're interrupted when Nevaeh starts crying. "I'll go her. You just try and relax ok? It's lot to take in for you" he smiles and leaves the room to go and get Neveah.

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Michael's POV

Ocean seemed really down since we got back from the doctors. I Thought she'd be excited as me and wanna tell everybody, but instead she seems upset and wants to keep it a secret. It's probably just her hormones or something, which is why I haven't made such a big deal about it just like when she was pregnant with DJ and Nevaeh she had her ups and downs.

My thoughts are broken when there's a knock at the door. "someone's cheery today!" My mother smiles coming into the house. "has Ocean left for school already?"

"um... Actually Ocean's not going in today. Sorry I forgot to call and let you know we didn't need you to watch Nevaeh"

"it's fine.. I can still see my granddaughter" she smiles "so what's wrong with Ocean? Is She sick?"

"um... Not exactly" I purse my lips trying to hide my excitement. "so are you gonna tell me?" She shrugs confused. "ok, but you can't say anything... Not yet... Ocean's pregnant!"

"why am I not surprised" she rolls her eyes. "your gonna have another grandchild. You should be happy"

"I am happy. It's just..."

"hey!" Ocean smiles coming into the room. Then stops and turns to me, slightly annoyed "you told her didn't you?"

"I only told mother, I promise" I reassure her. "are you sure its a good idea to have another one right now?" Mother asks and I turn to her confused. "why wouldn't it be?" I Shrug. "well for a start your still trying to get the first one back, your living with your brother and..."

"why are so against us having another baby? I thought you'd be happy for us" I frown annoyed slightly. "of course I'm happy for you both. I'm just saying you need to think these things through" she smiles. "well we have and we've been talking about wanting more for awhile.. We wanna have a big family!" I smile.

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Kathrine's POV

"So what's going on?" I turn to Ocean once Michael leaves for work. "nothing, why?" She shrugs innocently. "I can tell by the look on your face something's wrong. So what is it? Are you really pregnant or..."

"of course I am. We went to the doctor this morning" she frowns. "then what is it? For someone who's just found out her and her husband are having another baby you don't seem to happy about it. Was it really a mutual choice or was it just Michael's? Because if he's bullied you into it..."

"he hasn't! Like he said we've been talking about having another child for weeks" she cuts me off. "then why..." I begin then pause seeing the look on her face. "it's not Michael's baby is it?" I sigh "of course it is!" She protest. "Ocean, I see that look in you eyes. It's the same look I had when I found out I was pregnant with Janet" I say softly. As much as I want to scream and slap her right now, i've been where she is and I'm in no place to judge. "who's is it?"

"does it matter?" She croaks trying not to cry. "is it someone close to you both?" I ask and she nods. "Ocean, who ever it is..."

"it's Jermaine's ok!?" She blurts out and begins sobbing. "it only happened once and..."

"once is bad enough! This isn't some random boy from school. Ocean, this is Michael's brother! His own flesh and blood!.. Why him?"

"I didn't plan it! I hate myself for what I did and now Michael gonna hate me" she sobs. "you can't tell him! Do you have any idea what this will do to him!?" I frown. Then take a deep breath trying to calm myself and think. "Ok... here's what we're gonna do. You get to a doctor as soon as you can and we can say you lost it"

"I'm not gonna abort it!" She frowns shocked at my suggestion "well you can't keep it! For years Micheal and Jermaine have hated each other and now their finally reconnecting this happens! And what do you think Michael's gonna do to you when he finds out, huh?"

"what do you mean?" She looks at me confused. "how many times has Michael beaten you in the past over something stupid? If Michael found out you screwed his brother, do you really think he's just gonna calmly let in go!?"

"maybe he doesn't need to know" she mumbles and I shake my head. "you can't allow him to love a child he thinks is his, it's not fair. I've done it with Janet remember? And it still kills me to this day"

I sigh putting my arms around her. "sweetie, after everything you and Michael have been through, your not strong enough to do that. It's driving you crazy already and the child isn't even here yet. The best thing for everybody is if you abort the baby and tell Michael you miscarried. He won't question it and he never has to know"

"he'll be heartbroken if he thinks we've lost another child" she sobs. "he's gonna be heartbroken either way. Either from his wife and brother betraying him or from losing a his child because of a miscarriage. Trust me, a miscarrage will be a lot better then the other one"

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Ocean's POV

Kathrine and I talked for a really long time. It's hurts me to do this to him, but Kathrine's right. Telling Michael we lost the baby would be so much easier on him and everyone than the truth. Kathrine took Nevaeh out to the park while I make some calls.

after making some calls to different places I finally manage to get somewhere that can see me today. "I'll see you and 4pm. Thank you" I say to the woman on the phone and hang up sighing to myself about how stupid I've been to let this happen. "who you seeing at four?" I hear a familiar voice and turn to see Michael at the bedroom door. "nobody" I lie "I just heard you say it?" He frowns and takes my phone from me. "what the hell!?" I snap and he ignores me dialing the number back. He listens for a moment then hangs up throwing my phone on the bed. "why were you phoning an abortion clinic?"

"I-I um.." I stutter trying to think. "were you seriously gonna abort my kid!? Why!?" He snaps angry yet upset. "I'm sorry I..."

"have you done this before? Is that why you didn't tell me because you were just gonna get rid of it?"

"no. It wasn't like that. I..."

"is that what happened to last one you miscarried? Ocean, I swear of that's what you did last time I will fucking murder you!" He snaps. "I didn't swear. I did lose it"

"then why would you try and abort this one!?" I open my mouth to tell him and all that comes out is and unaudiable sentance. "speak... Up! Why?"

"because it's not your baby... I'm soo sorry" I sob "your ill again aren't you?" He sighs and I shake my head. "but, you've only ever had sex with me. It can't be anyone else" he shakes his head in disbelief. "I'm sorry" I sob. He goes silent and tears start rolling down his face. "then who's is it?" He croaks. "Jermaine"

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Michael POV

I sit on the edge of the bed in silence trying to take in what she just said. "I'm so sorry" Ocean sobs and I swallow a lump in my throat and look up at her. "how long has it been going on?" I ask shakily not even sure if I want the answer. "it was one time and..."

"when?" I cut her off "the night Aisha told you she was pregnant" she mumbles. "so this is my fault? You wanted to get revenge on me for cheating on you and for... What I tried to do?" I mumble that last part. "No- no it wasn't like that" she shakes her head. "then what was it like? Do you have feeling for him or..."

"I don't have any feelings for him I swear"

"then why?" I ask still confused. "it just happened... After you walked out I was I was a mess and Jermaine was there and one minute we were just talking and..."

"let me guess he told you everything was gonna be ok and that he was there for you and all that crap" I cut her off. "why didn't you tell me? It's not like I could be pissed at you for doing the same thing I did" I sob feeling my heart being ripped apart. "of course you have the right! and I didn't tell you, because we were so happy and I was scared you leave me and..."

"when I got back that night and we thought Aisha was pregnant you flipped out and started throwing shit at at me! And the whole time you'd just finished screwing my brother! Do you know how fucking two faced that is!?" I snap. "I know and I'm so.."

"sorry! Yeah you already said!" I cut her off again. "who else knows?" I frown and she doesn't answer "who.. Else?" I ask again this time more sternly. "your mother... But she only found out today I swear and..."

"this was were her idea wasn't it!? Abort the baby and forget it ever happened" I frown getting more and more pissed. "she thought it would be better if.."

"she told you to lie to me and let me believe another child have mine had died!" I snap and Ocean doesn't say anything and continues sobbing. "do you really wanna get rid of this baby?" I ask in a calmer tone. "Is that what you want me to do?" She mumbles. "I can't make that choice. It has to be your decision nobody else's" as much as I want to tell her I don't want her to keep it, but like I said.it has to be her decision.

she doesn't answer and I can see the guilt and shame in her eyes the same way I felt when what happened with Aisha. I am angry and hurt with her, but I'm more angry and hurt with with Jermaine and my mother right now. He's my brother and he knew Ocean was a mess that night. Who wouldn't have been? I tried to rape her then pushed her across the room. I knew she was upset when I stormed out, but I knew Jermaine was with her and I thought I could trust him and what's worse is my mother wanted to cover for him and let me think my baby had died. She knew how heartbroken I was when she miscarried and she was willing to sit back and let me go through all that pain again.

"come here" I say softly to Ocean holding my hand out for her to come over and she looks and me nervously. "I'm not hurt you. I promise" I take her hand and pull her gently onto my lap. "now you need to decide what you want to do"

"I don't wanna lose you" she sobs  "your not gonna lose me. I promise" I tell her softly wiping her tears. "if you wanna keep this baby, I won't treat it any different and I'll raise it as if it was my own" I tell her honestly "But of you don't wanna keep it, then we'll go to a doctor together and I won't judge you or hold it against you... But whatever you decide you have to be 100% because once you've made your decision there's no turning back"