Michael's POV

After what happened yesterday I wasn't able to sleep last night thinking about what I did. Jermaine keeps telling me that it wasn't my fault and that I was in a vulnerable state and  Aisha took advantage of that, even though that's true, I can't blame her for all of it. I should have been stronger and not let her get inside my head like that. I'm just as much to blame as she is, and now I have look the woman I love more than anything in this world in the eyes knowing that I've betrayed her when she needed me the most.

My thoughts are broken when Jermaine comes into my room. "Randy's here aren't you meant to be picking DJ up today?"

"Yeah, I'm gonna go get him now then come back for Nevaeh" I mumble. "Why don't you just take her with you? You can't keep hiding her forever"

"I know!" I snap at him. "But right now I have a lot of other stuff on my mind" he comes over and sits beside me on the bed. "Mike, I've told you Ocean's not gonna find out about what happened with Aisha" he reassures me. "But I know... And now I have to look her in the eyes knowing what I've done... I've failed her and I've failed our kids"

"You haven't failed anybody! You made a mistake and you have to forget about it and move on.. For Ocean and your babies"

"I can't just forget" I shrug. "Then try! Because you can't let what happened with Aisha ruin what you have with Ocean" he says sternly. "Now you finish getting ready and go spend the day with your wife and kids and be the great husband and father those three know and love" he smiles at me through pursed lips then leaves to let me finish getting ready.

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Jessica's POV

When Michael finally shows up I notice that yet again Ocean isn't with him. "Your late" I point out to him handing Duncan over to him. "Only 10 minutes" he shrugs "no Ocean again I see" I say looking over at the car "what's wrong with her this time?"

"She's not feeling good so she waiting at home.. Is that ok with you!?" He frowns then turns to strap Duncan into his car seat"

"She's sick and your taking a child to her? Very responsible" I say sarcastically. "She has period pains, I doubt DJ gonna catch it" he shrugs then gets in the car before giving me a chance to say anything else.

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"So what was his excuse this time?" Sherri asks as I come back inside. "Period pains apparently" I roll my eyes "Maybe she's thrown him out" she shrugs and I shake my head. "It's his brothers house, she couldn't even if she wanted to.. He's probably been Beating her again" I shrug. "Never stopped her coming over before. Don't you remember when she was always wearing those baggy clothes? clearly she was covering up the bruises then" Sherri points out. "Maybe it's to noticeable for her to cover up... I'm not going to feel sorry for her. She made her choice, all I care about is Duncan and his safety not Ocean's"

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Ocean's POV

Michael, Randy and the kids have been here for the past hour and even though Michaels smiling, he seems quieter than normal and I can tell somethings not right. "Is everything ok?" I ask him and he nods smiling through pursed lips. "I'm just tired. Nevaeh didn't sleep much last night" he shrugs. "Have you been keeping daddy awake all night again" I chuckle playing with Nevaeh and Michael sighs and turns to Randy. "Could you just take Nevaeh and DJ out for second" he mumbles and Randy and I look at him confused "please?" Randy nods and takes Nevaeh from and and holds DJs hand. "C'mon guys, let's go get some juice" he smiles at them and takes them outside. And Michael closes the door behind them. And comes back over to me, looking like he's about to cry. "What's going on?" I asks him nervously and he looks at the ground and takes a deep breath. "I can lie to you" he croaks and I look at him confused "what have you lied about?"

"Nevaeh didn't keep me up all night. I couldn't sleep because I've done something horrible and I'm so sorry"

"Please, just tell me" I asks getting even more worried. "I've been complete mess with out you and yesterday, I was in really bad way and. I um.. I" he sniffles and takes a deep breath. "I slept with Aisha. And I'm so sorry" he sobs and I don't say anything for a moment trying to take in what he just said. "Is that why you came here today? To tell me you found somebody else?" I croak and he turns to me shaking his head. "No- no I haven't it was mistake. It only happened that one time.. I was a mess and I upset. I've been so lonely and empty without you and..."

"And you found Aisha" I croak "no! It wasn't like that. It was moment of weakness, I wasn't thinking straight... I swear I never meant for it happened.. I love you and I am so sorry" he cries. "You have to go" I sob and he shakes his head. "Please don't leave me" he croaks. "I can't live without. I need you and..."

"No! I needed you. You don't need me.. You Aisha now remember?... You don't need me" I sob and he shakes his head cupping face in his hands "I don't want I Aisha, I want you! I need...you! What I did with her was a mistake it was a stupid... selfish mistake and will never happen again I swear please don't leave me"

"I need you to leave... Now" I tell him in a neutral tone moving his hands from my face. And turn away from him. "I um... I'll come back tomorrow and...."

"Don't" I cut him off "Michael, if you have any love for me then you'd do what I've asked and leave" I croak and he nods getting up wiping his eyes. "If I walk out of here... Do I still have you as my wife?" He croaks. "I don't know" I tell him honestly in a low neutral tone.

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Michael's POV

"So are you gonna tell me what's going on?" Randy asks me for the hundredth time and again I shake my head "I don't know... I already told you" I mumble walking into the living room with the kids and Jermaine walks in. "So how's she doing today?" He asks smiling then looks over at me "Randy would you take DJ and Nevaeh to the park or something?"

"But..."

"Please?" He asks cutting him off. "We'll explain later" he tells him and he nods taking them out.

"So what's happened is she ok?" He asks sitting beside me on the sofa and I shake my head. "I told her" I mumble and he frowns shaking his head. "What the fuck dos you do that for!!?" He snaps. "She deserved to know"

"Michael, I told you not to tell her!"

"I'm not gonna look her in the eyes everyday and lie to her. She deserves better than that"

"And what did she say?"

"She told me she can't see me" I croak. "Ever?" He asks and I shrug. "She doesn't know... I don't know if I have a wife anymore" I sob and he puts his arms around me. "Michael, you shouldn't have told her!. I know you feel guilty about what happened, but your head was a mess and you weren't thinking straight... Aisha took advantage of that and..."

"And I let her!" I cut him up "just because I was in a bad place doesn't excuse what I did, just like it doesn't excuse all the other fucked up things I've done. I'm not gonna blame somebody else for my mistakes... Even if Aisha is a manipulative bitch, I let her get inside my head. She didn't force me or drug me"

"And what if Ocean leaves you?" He points out. "Then it's her choice and I have to respect that"

"But did you tell her everything? About the state of mind you were in at the time and..."

"I've told her everything" I cut him off. "And now she knows it her choice if she forgives me or not.. I'm not gonna bully her or manipulate her into forgiving me or staying with me. I've done that so my times to her in the past... All I can do right now is pray that she can forgive me someday"

"And what if she doesn't?"

"Then I'm gonna be alone forever.. Because the only person I ever wanna be with is Ocean and only Ocean" I sob and once again break down as Jermaine holds me close