False hope

Ocean's POV

Michael and I have been talking alot lately about Nevaeh and have decided that since DJ has been baptised, it's only right that we do the same for her. It was really rushed with DJ, but this time we're going to do things properly. It won't be until next month, we're at Michael's parents house today making plans and getting things ready.

"I still don't understand why your baptising your children as Christians when the two of you are Jehovah's Witnesses" Kathrine shakes her head. "we were until they kicked us out. they all made it pretty clear to Michael and I at kingdom hall, we're not welcome anymore" I point out. "but I've already told you both a thousand times, their willing to forgive you both. All you both have to do is admit the two of you committed a dirty and shameful sin. Your both married now and they WILL forgive you and welcome you back"

"and a thousand times, we're not saying it" Michael says sternly. We fell in love and we made love to each other and had a son through that love. we didn't commit any dirty or shamfull sin"

"maybe not HER" Joseph scoffs under his breath and the room goes awkwardly silent for a moment until Janet breaks it. "how do people make love?"

"so is there a dress code or anything at these thing's?" La Toya smiles ignoring her question. "not really but Nevaeh has to wear white and wev've picked out a really beautiful dress for her. everyone else can wear anything they want" I shrug. "something smart though" Michael adds still visible upset by Josephs comment and she nods. "what will DJ be wearing?" Janet asks innocently and Kathrine nudges her to shut up. "um.. DJ won't be there. We got visitation again but it's gone back to one hour supervised" I mumble. "what!? That's not fair! Why can't they let you take him for the day anymore?" Randy jumps in. "because that's what the courts said. Since we lost visitation before we have to start again and prove we're serious" Michael shrugs. "clearly you are! You have Neveah and she's ok. Why can't Jessica just give him back?" He frowns "shut... Up" La Toya hisses at him through clenched teeth. "because she's making it as difficult as possible for us, plus she doesn't know about Nevaeh" I explain to him.

"and she won't be finding out either" Michael adds sternly. He's about to speak again but Jermaine cuts him off. "so what happens after the church. "well we were thinking about getting all the family together here or at our place after" Michael says. "we can have it here. One of us will have to call Marlon and the others to let them know the details"

"I completely forgot, they don't know about Nevaeh yet" I gasp slightly. "Marlon will be shocked when we tell him, you should have seen his face when I told him about DJ" Michael chuckles slightly. "trust me. When it comes to you two, nothing surprises us anymore" Joseph laughs slightly under his breath. "oh! And we'll finally get to meet Marlon's girlfriend. She sounds like such a sweet girl from what he's told me" Kathrine smiles. "I can't wait to meet her. And this baptism thing will be a perfect way to introduce her to the family"

"it'll be a great for Aisha too. She still hasn't met you all yet" Jermaine says and the room goes awkwardly silent once again. "do you really think that's appropriate? This day is about Michael, Ocean and Neveah?" La Toya frowns. "you know about that?" I mumble "will all do. And she's not coming anywhere this house or this family" Joseph frowns. "it's not like she's a serious girlfriend"

"yes she is" Jermaine frowns. "oh please! You have about three other girls your seeing as well. Don't think we don't know what you get up to" Kathrine cuts in. "anyway... Back to the plans" Michael says Changing the topic and I rest my hand on top of his seeing how uncomfortable he's feeling and he smiles slightly at me through pursed lips.

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Jermaine's POV

I go in the kitchen to get a glass of water and my mother follows me in. "what the heck was you thinking bringing up that woman... And I use the word WOMAN loosely!" She snaps at me in a hushed tone. "why is everyone making out like she's the only one who was in the wrong? Incase everybody's forgot, Michael was involved just as much.. But I guess golden boy gets a pass.... as always!" I frown getting annoyed with Aisha being made to be the only one to blame. "nobody's saying Michael is completely innocent, but at least he's admitted he was wrong. And incase YOU forgot! Michael has a wife and a child that needs him and Michael needs them. You saw what he was like when he was away from Ocean. He was a complete mess! And that little whore took advantage!"

"Michael has two children remember?" I point out and she turns to check nobody is listening then turns back to me and frowns. "why do you keep giving them false hope like that!? We all know full well they have no chance of getting him back!" She snaps at me in a hushed tone. "you don't know that. Their doing really well and in a much better place than they were back then" I shrug. "I know that, that doesn't erase everything that's happened in the past plus Michael being schizophrenic with paranoia and Ocean ending up in a crazy house because of her bi polar. Not to mention the drug problems they had. Luckily nobody else knows about the whole rape and beating thing"

"Michael's not like that anymore. And i've seen what he's like with Ocean. He..."

"yeah, yeah.. he's very loving and affectionate and wouldn't so much as raise his voice at her" she rolls her eyes at me "it's what goes on when nobody's around that's the problem"

"that's in the past... He doesn't do anything like that to her" I insist. "maybe not right now, but he HAS! And what's stopping him from doing it again? If a whole house full of people didn't know he was taking drugs or.... Abusing his wife. What's stopping him from doing it again? You know as well as I do what Michael's like and what he's capable of. It only takes that one little thing for him to snap and who knows what he'd do" I don't say anything and she sighs shaking her head "no judge in their right mind is going to give them custody of a child. The only way their gonna get that child back is if Jessica signs him over, which is NEVER gonna happen! Their lucky they still have custody of Nevaeh" I'm about to speak but she cuts me off. "Jermaine, you have to quit going on about Duncan, because all your doing is giving them false hope and it's just cruel!"

"hey! What's going on in here?" Michael smiles coming into the kitchen. "oh, I was just speaking to Jermaine about what he said before" mother smiles at him through pursed lips then turns to me widening her eyes, signalling me to go along with it. "yeah, I'm sorry about that. I shouldn't have brought her up" I sigh. "it's fine. Forget about it" he shrugs but I can still see the annoyance on his face.

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Michael's POV

When we get home Ocean I are sat in the living room, playing with Nevaeh and helping her as she tries to crawl around and Jermaine walks in. "I'm gonna order take out does anyone want anything?" He asks smiling "no, I'm good, thanks" Ocean smiles and he turns to me and I pick Nevaeh up from the floor cuddling her tightly. "Michael?" He asks again waiting for and answer and even though I'm not looking at him I can feels his eyes on me. "No" I mumble, still not able to look up at him and he shrugs leaving the room. "what was that about?" Ocean asks confused. "nothing, I'm not hungry" I shrug placing Nevaeh back on the floor with her toys. "is this about what happened at your parent's?" She asks referring to all of Joseph's comments (and there were ALOT) And I nod.

It did upset me him bringing up that stuff, but I'm used him doing that now so it doesn't really effect me as much. It was what I heard Jermaine and my mother saying in the kitchen that really hurt me. I know i've done some pretty shitty things in the past, but I really am trying and Ocean and I are doing everything we were told to do that the courts have asked so we can try and get DJ back and hearing my mother saying that we're never gonna get him back and lucky we haven't had Nevaeh taken from us really broke my heart. They've all completely given up and are trying to forget about DJ and even trying to get us to do the same thing. I haven't told Ocean what I heard them saying, because I don't want her to feel the same way I felt and still feel hearing those words come out of my mothers mouth. We ARE gonna get DJ back someday. It may not be today or tomorrow but we will. Everybody else may have given up on DJ, but he's our son and we WILL get him back.

"Michael?" I hear Ocean's soft voice bringing me from my thought's. "are you ok? You were just staring blankly into space" she says concerned and I smile pecking her lips. "I'm just really tired" which is the truth. It's only 9pm but this whole day has completely drained all my energy. "it has been a long day. why don't we put this one to bed and have and early night ourselves" she smiles through pursed lips and I nod smiling back at her the same way.

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Once Nevaeh's all tucked in and asleep, Ocean and I go into our room and snuggle up under the sheets "do you ever think about more?" I ask and she looks at me confused "children.. Do you ever want more?"

"Yeah, someday" she smiles half asleep. "what about now?"

"I think we need to concentrate on the two we have now first" she smiles and cuddles up to me. "I love you" I mumble feeling my eyes getting heavier "I love you too" she smiles onto my chest. I lift her head up to kiss her and she kisses me back. Even though I'm totally exhausted right now, I still move in for more positioning myself between her legs. Slowly pushing myself inside of her. "Michael, your tired" she says softly. "I'm fine" I mutter barely able to keep my eyes open and she softly presses her lips against mine. "you need to sleep" she says softy moving me back onto my side and I pull her close to me so I'm still inside of her and we're face to face, both on our sides. "can we stay like this?" I whisper and she nods. "it my sound strange, but I always sleep better when I sleep inside of her, because this is the closest I can possibly be to her and hold her the entire night. While we sleep.

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Aisha's POV

After seeing how happy Michael was playing with his daughter then how quickly his mood changed once it was just him and Ocean. It's even more clear he's only staying with her so he can stay with his daughter. And it clear Ocean doesn't care about him. He was practically begging her for another child and she just blew him off not caring how hurt he is.

I can see how much Michael loves his kids and would do anything to be with them which is why once we're together I won't stop him from seeing them. As I'm sat looking at he screen on my laptop. I notice Michael crying softly while that bitch just ignores him and continues to sleep. (which she's probably faking) I've never really likes the idea of having smelly little brats running around me. But if that's what will make Michael happy and that's what it's going to take to make him mine, then I know what I have to do.

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