Michael's POV

It's the middle of the night and I wake up feeling Ocean stirring and moving around, trying to get comfy. "are you ok?" I whisper and she mutters something inaudible clearly still asleep. I turn on my side putting my arm around her placing, my hand gently on her tiny baby bump and smile falling back to sleep. I know it may sound weird we're not telling people since this time we have no reason to fear people finding out, but it's nice for us to have this little secret to ourselves because it's probably the only secret we've ever had that actually won't hurt or upset our family when they find out and will be a lovely surprise when they do. It's also kind of become somewhat of a tradition, we're also planning a home birth like we had with DJ and Nevaeh.

I fall back to sleep and again I'm woken. Only this time its through Ocean crying slightly. I lean over and she's still asleep. "Ocean!" I whisper trying to wake her and her soft cries turn to sobs "Ocean!" I say again slightly louder "No... Stay away from him!" She says shakily sitting up, but clearly still dreaming "Ocean calm down. You were just having a bad dream" I say softly "please don't take him from me" she sobs staring at me terrified and I cup her face in my hands. "Ocean, baby it's me" I say softly trying to break her from her dream and she looks at me confused for a moment then she finally wakes up properly. "it's ok, it's was just a dream" I smile softly pulling her in close to me and she holds me tightly.

She starts calming down and I suddenly hear DJ scream running towards our room and I Ocean jumps up. "I need my mommy" he sobs and Ocean picks him up holding him tightly to her. "Ssh, its ok baby, mommy's here" she says shakily. "I don't want the bad people to take me away from you" he sobs onto her chest. "it's ok, buddy. Nobody's gonna take you away from mommy" I reassure him pulling them both close to me. With all the crying, Neveah soon wakes up and I go to her room to get her and Ocean takes DJ in our room.

I get back and her and DJ are lay together cuddling on the bed and I bring Nevaeh in with us putting her next to DJ so me and Ocean are at either side of them wrapping our arms around them. This has been happening many times and we've spoken to our therapist about it and he thinks that even though DJ was very young when we lost custody, him and Ocean our having repressed memories of what happened that day at the hospital.

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Jessica's POV

I'm sitting in the kitchen eating breakfast and Robert walks in. "morning!" He smiles happily and sits down with a bowel of cereal. Today would have been Marissa's 26th birthday and clearly Robert has forgotten. I sigh not saying anything and he rolls his eyes at me. "what's wrong now?"

"todays your sisters birthday and you don't even care" I frown. "no it's not! Ocean's birthdays not for months!" He shakes his head. "MARISSA'S!" I snap at him. "I completely forgot. I'm sorry" he sighs. "you have no problem remembering Ocean's clearly" I scoff. "it's to early for this" he rolls his eyes. "oh! that's right I forgot we don't talk bad about Ocean. Marissa on the other hand he gives a fuck" I scoff. he sighs not saying anything and Ray walks in. "Geez! You guys arguing again?" He rolls his eyes, sitting at the table "no. I just forgot we're not allowed to bad mouth Ocean" I say sarcastically. "so you shouldn't! You can't bad mouth someone who's..ouch!"

He jumps slightly getting cut off by Robert nudging him under the table. "who's what?" I frown "nothing" he shrugs innocently "Ocean's cool. So quit bad mouthing her" he frowns leaving the room before I get a chance to ask anymore. "what was that about?" I turn back to Robert. "nothing. I'm gonna get dressed, before Frank gets here" he shrugs getting up from the table. "Robert, please consider what I've said? You know how I feel about you doing those drugs"

"I already told! It's MY life and I'll live to the way I want!" He snaps at me. "if you don't like it, then get the fuck out of my apartment" he shrugs and walks out.

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Ocean's POV

Michael called Randy this morning and told him he wouldn't be working on a job with him today. He didn't go into detail, just that we were up with this kids during the night. I told him he didn't have to, but Michael being Michael didn't want to leave while one of us was upset.

Since he was going to be home all day Michael decided today would be a good day to start working on the nursery. I'm in the kitchen preparing lunch and DJ comes running in. "Daddy's gonna say bad words"

"what makes you think that?" I giggle slightly. "ahh!!! YOU MOTHER FUCKER!" I hear Michael yell from upstairs. "told ya" DJ shrugs and walks off into the living room.

I go upstairs and Michael is slamming around "what happened?"

"I caught my hand with the hammer" he winces. "awww.. Baby, I told you not to do it while you were tiered"

"I know, but I don't want you worrying it won't be ready on time. Your supposed to stay stress free and relaxed" he mutters "we have months yet. And how are you gonna deliver this baby with only one hand" I giggle slightly examining where he hurt himself. "I've done it twice already. I could probably do it with one hand behind my back" he shrugs cockily. "well I'd prefer you didn't. C'mon let go put some ice on that" I smile pecking his lips. "I'm supposed to be taking you. Not you taking care me" he pouts as I lead him out of the room. "and you always do." I smile kissing him once more and pull him in for a cuddle. Although he'd never admit it around other people. Michael actually does need someone to care for him and needs alot of kisses and cuddles just like I do and just like he is with me I'm more than happy to give that to him. "maybe we should all get on the sofa and have a snuggle day... to cheer you and DJ up" He mumbles "we'd love that" I smile and his pout is replaced by a smile and once i've got some ice for his hand, we start getting ready for our family snuggle day. which are pretty often in our house.

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Jessica's POV

"and he didn't remember? That's awful!" Mollie, Roberts friend says when I tell her about this morning. Mollie's not like Robert and Ray. She lives close and always comes by to check on them. She's a really sweet woman with a good heart, which makes a change from the rest of the scum around here and me and her have become good friends.

"he'd completely forgotten! He had no problem remembering Ocean's though. All I get from him and Ray is how perfect her and Michael are!" I scoff. "perfect? Michael and Ocean?" She chuckles slightly under her breath. "I didn't really know them very well, but from what I saw that were FAR from perfect. They came across as selfish brats to me" she shrugs. "they are! Yet everybody makes out like their this amazing couple and great parents"

"they think two teenage drug addicts are great parents?" She chuckles "they cared more about themselves and getting hold of drugs than they did that poor little girl. How that child didn't get taken away is beyond me!"

"and now they have Duncan too. They only did it to spite me! They don't care about him" I croak feeling myself getting emotional again and she wraps her arms around me. "hunny it's ok, they always were selfish little bastards and one day that little boy and even their daughter is gonna wake up and realise how terrible and selfish their parents are"

"I know Ocean hates me, but to just take Duncan away from me like that! I'm more of a mother to him than she is!"

"and I'm sure little Duncan sees it that way too. And he'll grow up to resent her for it. She may be his biological mother, but in his eyes your always going to be his mommy"

"thank you" I sniffle smiling through pursed lips. "for what?" She asks confused. "for understanding. Your the only person that's ever understood that what I did I did for all the right reason. Everybody else just judges me and makes me out to be this horrible, selfish person and I'm not"

"I'd never judge you. And I know you've only ever had that little boys best interest at heart" she smiles at me through pursed lips

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Michael's POV

We've spend pretty much the whole day watching movies and at some point fell asleep during either the 9th or 10th Lego movie DJ wanted to watch. I wake up and see everybody else is still sleeping. I sit smiling at them and then remember Ocean, made cake earlier and I slowly get up off the sofa so I don't wake them and put the blanket back over Ocean and the kids.

As I slowly start to my way towards the kitchen, Nevaeh stirs "Dadda?" She babbles sleepily "Sssh. It's ok Veah, daddy's here" I whisper picking her up before Ocean and DJ wakes. "let's go find where mommy hid the cake" I whisper and she smiles as I tiptoe into the kitchen with her.

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"told you we'd find it" I smile giving Nevaeh a piece of cake in her highchair, after a few minutes of searching "silly, mommy, thinking we wouldn't look in the bread box" I chuckle and she grabs a fist full and shoves it straight into her to mouth.

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After we're done I clean Veah up and decided to call and check Roberts ok, since we haven't call in awhile.

"Mikey!! Been a long time. How's it going! Heard Ocean has another bun in the oven. Congrats man!"

"thanks Ray" I chuckle at his excitement "it's going good. is Robert there?"

"nah, he's out and I'm stuck with the mega bitch! You guys were way cooler roommates all she does in nag nag nag"

"you guys got a roommate?" I ask confused. "more like STUCK! Oh turns out it wasn't your mom that came over"

"I did tell you" I chuckle "did you ever find out who she was?"

"yeah, turns out it was your baby mamma's mom."

"Jessica came to see you!?"

"yup! Is Ocean adopted?"

"no why?" I frown confused "there's no way that mega bitch could have pushed out Ocean's fine ass!"

"Ray, how many times I gotta tell you? Gay or not, Don't speak about my wife like that... What did Jessica want anyway?" I ask and he start telling me everything that's been going for the past few weeks.

"so she's living with you guys?" I frown. "yup. And the ungrateful bitch just sits around complaining all day about how shitty everything is and how everybody's turned their backs on her... Blah blah blah" he chuckles

"that's karma for ya. The bitch only has her self to blame for people turning their backs on her" I chuckle and continue with the conversation.

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Jessica's POV

I'm lay on the bed and Ray walks in uninvited, without knocking and I quickly sit up "your supposed to knock, you can't just walk into a woman's bedroom without..."

"blah blah... Don't care.. I'm going out" he cuts me off "where's Robert?" I ask and he shrugs. "if he's not back by now he's probably gonna be out all night like I will be"

Once he leaves I lay back down on the bed crying. Yet again I'm left all alone in this hell hole while the two of them are out taking that disgusting stuff. I lay there trying think why someone could ever want to have a life like that. Or why people would want to take it in the first place.

After and hour or so of sitting feeling sorry for myself and trying to work out why Ocean and Robert would take that stuff. I open the bedside table draw and see the bag with the brown powder still there. I sit staring at it nervously for awhile wondering what exactly it does and how it makes you feel. I've never questioned Robert or Ray about what exactly it does before, because it's something I've tried to push to the back of my mind and in away pretend like it's not happening. But as I sit all alone in this apartment with nobody to talk to and nothing but the memories of everything I've lost curiosity gets the better of me.