Blame
Michael's POV
"how about this one?" I ask nervously trying on a different shirt. "you look perfect. Just relax" Ocean smiles adjusting my collar. "what if we mess it up?" I sigh nervously and she presses her lips softly against mine, making me quickly relax and I sigh contently. "your gonna do great. You both are and you'll both have your dad there to help you out... You can do this" she smiles, reassuring me. "yeah! you can do it daddy!" DJ smiles coming into the room "what's he trying to do?" He whispers to Ocean. "daddy and uncle Randy our going to see some very important people today so we can have our own company" I smile picking him up. "can I work with you?" He asks and I nod "of course! We're gonna need you to build all the houses for us to decorate"
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After kissing Ocean and the kids goodbye, I make my way over to my parents and just like me, Randy is nervous as hell. "this is very important and I don't want any messing around in there from either of you. No jokes, no attitudes, no..." my dad begins and my mother cuts him off. "Joseph, leave them be. the boys are nervous enough"
"well I need to make sure their serious about this. Owning your own company isn't just fun and games. It's alot of hard work and they have to be committed"
"and we are! We really wanna do this and we WILL be taking it seriously. This isn't just some crazy idea we have or something to pass the time. This is something we're really passionate about and it's not just for me. It's for my family and for DJ and how ever many sons I have after that. 'Jackson and son's' it's right there in the name" I tell him honestly and he smiles placing his hands on my shoulders. "that's perfect! Say more stuff like that in the meeting"
"how come it's 'Jackson and Son's?' You have a daughter too. Is she not apart of it?" LaToya asks with a slight attitude "of course she is! And so will my other daughters. They don't have to get their hands dirty to be apart of it" I frown getting a little defensive. I'm all for woman's right and equality and all that stuff. But recently LaToya's been jumping down everybody's throats about it and it's actually getting pretty annoying. "well woman can do just as good a job as men and I'm sure your daughters will be able to be just as good at building and decorating as your sons and so could Ocean. Woman aren't just there for making babies and doing housework you know" she shrugs. "I'm sure they could. But I like to provide for my family, treat my wife like a queen and my daughter and my future daughters like princesses and they choose to allow me to do that and Ocean chooses to bare all my children" I smile with a slight smirk, seeing how wound up my comment just made her, which I knew it would. She's about to speak and my mother cuts her off. "exactly how many children were you planning?" She smiles excitedly at the idea of more grandchildren. "18" I smile "and what makes you so sure Ocean will be happy to give birth and take care of 18 babies? Have you asked her?" LaToya asks raising and eyebrow. "I'm sure she'll be fine with it. Ocean loves kids" I shrug. She's about to speak and my phone starts ringing. "I'll be right back" I say heading to the backyard seeing the number and close the door behind me.
"I thought I told you not to call! We'll call you. If my dad knew we were still talking to you guy's he'd..."
"your momma's here" Ray mumbles down the phone. "huh?"
"Yeah, she's here in your old room... Sleeping. Thought you should know in case you thought she got lost or something"
"don't call me when you've just shot up. I don't need the distraction today" I roll my eyes. "but she is here!"
"Ray, I'm at my parents house and my mothers here! And even if she wasn't she wouldn't come to you"
"so who's the old lady that stayed over?" He asks confused. "how the fuck should I know!? I haven't been to your place or that area in months" I frown. "oh yeah! You and Ocean are doing the all American family thing now" he mumbles confused. "yeah, Soo... Anyway tell Rob I'll call him during the week. I have a really important meeting to get to"
"so what I'm I supposed to do about your mom? Robs not here. Should I send her home to you or..."
"Ray, how many times? My mother is not in your apartment. She's at home... I'm looking at her right now through the window"
"sooo... You don't want bring her to you?"
"no" I sigh. He's about to speak when LaToya opens the back door and I quickly hang up the phone. "Joesph said it's time to go... Do you think you can manage a few hours without talking Ocean?" She says that last part sarcastically, playfully smirking. "maybe... Do you think you can manage a few hours not talking to your boyfriend?" I smirk walking past her and head back in the house. "I don't know what Ocean told you, but I do not a boyfriend" she whispers rushing over to me. "mhm... sure you don't" I smirk folding my arms playfully "you better not say anything. I kept YOUR secrets!"
"what secrets?" I frown confused. "when you and Ocean were having underage and unmarital sex! I never told anybody"
"I'm pretty sure that's secrets out already" I chuckle. "don't worry I won't tell anybody you have a BOYFRIEND"
"I don't have..."
"As much as I wanna stay and talk about you getting a boyfriend some more. I have a meeting to get to" I smirk seeing her blushing. "he's not my..."
"yeah, yeah" I chuckle leaving the room.
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Jessica's POV
After laying there with my eyes closed hoping that all of this had just been a terrible dream, I finally open my eyes and sit on the edge of the bed staring blankly around the room, before eventually getting up and leaving.
I go into the living room and the same man from last night is sitting on the couch injecting himself with something. "sooo... Are you gonna tell me who you are?" He mumbles removing the needle from his arm and placing it down on the table. "Jessica, I came here last remember?" I mutter "yeah, but I just spoke to Mike and he said he's with him mom right now and he didn't know you" he shrugs "I'm Robert and Ocean mother I came here looking for Robert last night" I remind him "oh yeah! Your the baby snatcher" he chuckles slightly and switches on the TV. "it wasn't like that. I didn't.."
"not my business. Just don't be bringing kids here" he cuts me off. "we only let Mike and Ocean stay with their kid coz he's a friend and Ocean's Robs sister" I don't say anything and he turns and looks at me confused. "you gonna sit down or?..." He shrugs and I walk over and sit on the chair across from him. "so you still see Michael and Ocean?"
"Nah, Rob won't let them come round here anymore, but they call and check in sometimes to make sure Rob hasn't choked yet and to let us know their ok" he shrugs. Staring at the TV. "choked?" I ask confused "dead" he looks at me then turns his attention back to the TV "why would they worry he'd die?"
"coz of his aids thing, but he's still alive he text me before" he shrugs "Robert has aids!? Why didn't anybody tell me!?" I gasp "is Ocean adopted?" He asks casually. "no, of course not! What does she have to do with Robert having aids!?" I frown confused. "just asking" he shrugs. "She's way more cool to talk to... Plus she's hot as fuck! Even I'D fuck that ass and I'm gay now! So You actually gave birth to her?"
"yes, I gave birth to her!" I frown ignoring his comment about her back side. He's about to speak when the door opens and after two years I'm face to face with Robert. And he looks so skinny and fragile to the man I saw two years ago. "what are you doing here?" He frowns. "I- I came to see you" I stutter as he walks past me and sits beside Ray. "if you came here for money, I don't have any"
"I didn't ask you for any money" I frown. "no, but you went asking Ocean" he frowns. "you spoke to Ocean?"
"she's my sister. Of course I speak to her. I can't believe you even had the nerve to ask her for anything after what you did!" He frowns. "oh and your so perfect!? You got her hooked on heroin and let her live in a DRUG HOUSE with a baby!"
"Because just like you now. They had no where else to go. And yeah, I gave them drugs, but at least now I'm doing the right thing now" he shrugs and takes a bag of brown powder out of his pocket and begins doing something with to on the coffee table"
"yeah, looks like it!" I say sarcastically "I told her and Mike not to come back here again. Trust me. Me staying away from them is the best thing I could do for her"
"but your still have contact with her" I shrug. "by phone only. They call me every now and then to check up on me and to let me know their doing ok"
"and to check your not DEAD! Do you know how sick that is neither of you bothered to tell me you were dying of aids!?" I snap. "do you know how sick it is to steal someone's baby? And why would we tell you? I died years ago remember?" He raises an eyebrow. "is she always such a nagging bitch?" Ray asks Robert and he nods at him. "can we talk privately?" I frown getting annoyed with his friend. "whatever! Ocean and Mike were WAY more chilled roommates than you!" Ray frowns leaving the room.
"and we all know why they were always so 'chilled' don't we?" I turn and say to Robert sarcastically. "did you just come here to bitch about how shitty kids me and Ocean are or did you actually want something. Because if you did then you may as well leave"
"I don't have anywhere to go and everybody's turned against me. Even your fathers threw me " I mumble. "what do you expect? You don't exactly make it easy for people"
"so your just going to side with your sister AS ALWAYS?"
"OH MY GOD! Will you just listen to yourself woman!?" He snaps "not everything is about YOU! Ocean's happily married living a good life with her husband and kids. You should be happy!"
"a good life! You call living with an ex junkie that beat and forced her to sleep with him a good life?" I scoff. "nothing she does is ever good enough for you is it?" He shrugs. "yeah, Mike's fucked up in the past and so has Ocean. But your so filled with hate you can't even see he's not that same messed up little kid he was back then and neither is Ocean. I lived with the two of them and Nevaeh remember? And it was clear as hell how much he loves and adores Ocean and his kids too and their loving and adoring parents"
"what would you know!? They were nothing but useless junkies just like you and You were probably just So off your face on heroin to know what was going on and clearly to blind to see the truth" I snap. "really? Did you know Mike is building up his own family company? Or that Ocean has started at college and will be helping him with the finances? Their doing all that, plus running a house and taking care of two young kids and planning a wedding to renew their wedding vows and as for that EX JUNKIE! Ocean was in the exact same place as him and yes they've had their problems, but look at them now!... And look at where you are"
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Ocean's POV
"Oh my God! This would look so perfect as centre pieces" Beth gasps looking through wedding things with me. "so have you picked a date yet?"
"not yet. We wanna plan everything and make it perfect" I smile. "how come you both wanna do this anyway? I thought you guys got married two years ago?"
"we did. But it was rushed and in a hospital and not exactly legal... And we always said we would do it properly once I was 18 and now I am that's what we're gonna do"
"awww. You must really love each other huh?"
"well I'm marrying each other twice!" I giggle slightly. She about to speak and the phone rings. "oh my god! It's Michael. Fingers crossed" I smile answering the phone.
"hi baby! How did it go?"
"not good" he sighs "oh no! What happened?"
"it went GREAT! We're officially a licensed company!"
"ahhhh" I scream excitedly down the phone jumping up and down. "are you happy?" He chuckles at my reaction.
"what happened did they get it?" Beth asks trying to get to the phone. "is Beth with you?" Michael asks. "yeah. I'm gonna let her know our men are now fully licenced business owners!" I smile turning to her and she smiles excitedly trying not to scream. "well now she knows. You need to kick her out of the house. You got five minutes"
"why?" I frown confused. "because, I'm five minutes from the house and we're gonna celebrate mikezilla style!... Love ya" he hangs up the phone and I turn to Beth and we both begin squealing jumping up and down excitedly. "oh my god! Oh my oh! We're all gonna gave are own business!" Beth squeals excitedly. "I know I can't believe it" I smile "but now you have to leave" I smile pushing her towards the front door. "what? Wait why?" She asks confused as I lead her outside. I'm about to speak and out of nowhere Michael crashes his lips hard against mine pushing me back into the house closing the door behind us. "um... I guess I'll see you perverts later then" Beth chuckles on the other side of the door.
"no, hi.. How was your day?" I giggle slightly, when he finally removes his tongue from down my throat. "Hi, how was your day?.. Now take off your panties" He pants undoing his belt. Well actually..."
"that's great" he cuts me off lifting me up wrapping my legs around his waist and pushes me playfully against the front door and crashes his lips against mine and I moan loudly onto his mouth pulling him closer to me as he pushes himself deep inside of me. I guess I can tell him the other news later.
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Michael and I lay on the sofa trying to catch our breath and he pecks my lips and sighs contently "I love you so much" he smiles and pecks my lips again "I love you too" I smile back biting my lower lip. "what?" he asks sensing something. "I have some good news of my own" I smile excitedly.
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Jessica's POV
"why does everybody keep going on like she's some perfect, innocent little princess and making me out to be some kind of villain? I've done nothing but want was best for her. And me having Duncan would have helped with that. She could have forgotten all about Michael and gotten a good education and a great job and gone on to marry someone successful. She was the one that was ungrateful and threw it all away"
"that's just it. She's not perfect. It doesn't matter how hard you tried because she was never gonna be. She's a human being and she has her flaws just like the rest of us and you know full well you didn't take DJ because you thought that was for the best. You did because you saw an opportunity to try yet again to have the perfect kid!"
"flaws? Robert she got pregnant at 15 and married a boy who..."
"who would do anything for her and their kids. Even die for them!" He cuts me off "Mike may not be some successful millionaire. But he's a good guy and he loves Ocean and she loves him... Which is exactly why you've wanted him out of the way. Because Ocean loves him" he shrugs. "that's not true" I frown. "yes is it. You always have. Your perfectly happy people thinking she's perfect and loving her, but the second SHE loves that person too, you get rid of them. She loved her son... You took him away. She loved me... You sent me away. Just like everybody else she loves"
"I havn't sent away everybody she loves" I shake my head "everybody but Michael. That's what pisses you off. It wasn't the fact he got her pregnant when she was 15 or the other things he's done. It's the fact Ocean loves him back and no matter how much you tried. Michael just wouldn't go away"
"so what are you saying I'm a terrible parent because I wanted better for my daughter!?" Scoff. "no I'm saying can't make someone into something's their not. She's happy and that's all that should matter. All she wants to do is be herself" Robert says in a softer tone. "but I did"
"no, you let her be who YOU wanted her to be. You wanted this perfect, straight A beauty queen and that's not who she wanted to be"
"she would have won that pageant if it wasn't for you dragging her off the stage" I frown "she didn't wanna be there"
"she was just nervous. If you would have just left her alone then..."
"she was crying mom!" he cuts me off. "she was six years old and You practically pushed her in the middle of the stage and she was standing there crying, because she knew the only reason she was up there was so a room full of strangers could judge her"
"it wasn't like that" I shake my head "but that's what it felt like to Ocean. Yes Ocean's beautiful. Always has, always will be, but you shouldn't need a room full of strangers and a trophy to tell you that and she's a smart girl and again you shouldn't need a piece of paper to tell you"
"I wasn't trying to change her. I just wanted her to do well and have the perfect life and be..."
"the perfect daughter" he cuts me off. "why is it so important to you that she be perfect?"
"do you really want to know?" I croaks and He nods looking at me confused. I don't say anything for a moment then look at the ground. "I wanted to feel less guilty for having her and I wanted to see that Marissa didn't die for nothing" I sob slightly. "Marissa dying wasn't Ocean's fault" he looks at me confused. "she was sick and needed a kidney transplant... If Ocean had been born with the same blood type as her then Marrisa would still be here. But instead she had to come out with a rare type that wasn't a match and .."
"wait! you only had Ocean, because you wanted body parts for Marissa!" He looks at me with shock and disgust in his eyes. "the waiting list was so long and the three of us weren't a match and..."
"so you had Ocean so you could cut her up for her sister!?"
"I was desperate. My little girl wasn't dying!" I begin sobbing and he puts his arms around me. "you can't keep hurting and blaming Ocean for Marissa dying. It's not her fault and you can't try and make her into something she's not. It's not fair. Ocean hasn't done anything wrong and what you've been doing to her is just cruel!"
"the only child that loved me is gone! And after Ocean was born I couldn't have anymore. Because of the complications with her, every baby after that miscarried. Even Duncan hated me. I tried to raise him as my own and he still hated me"
"because you took him from his mother! And you not being able to have more kids isn't Ocean's fault either and you can't just take her kids away because you want more kids. You took away her first chance at being a mother so that you could have another chance to get it right. Do you have any idea how much damage that caused her and Mike... And especially DJ!"
"I just wanted one last chance to get it right and have a child who loves me" I sob. "so do the normal thing and adopt a child that actually needs a loving mother. Don't steal one that already has a loving mother and we never said we didn't love you, but maybe if you tried showing people love then they'd show it back"
"Ocean doesn't love me. She HATES me!"
"she's heartbroken. And so would you be if your mother did to you what you've done to her"
"are you going to ask me to leave now?" I sniffle and he shakes his head. "you can stay here for now, but don't start trying to change me or Ray or..."
"but I can help you! With the drugs! I can help you stop and.."
"I don't want to stop and neither does Ray" he cuts me off. "if you really wanna understand Ocean, then try living the life she's had to"
"you think I should take up drugs!?" I looked at him in utter shock. "I meant you staying here awhile might help you see the life her and Michael had to live" he chuckles slightly. "maybe if you understood her better it'll even help you get close to her" he shrugs. "I doubt she'll ever speak to me again" I shake my head. "like I said she HATES me"
"Ocean a very loving and forgiving person and cares alot about people... So there's one thing you've learnt about her already" he smiles at me through pursed lips.
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