It was the first night in America, and I was left with no other choice but to share a room with Nathan after I was told there were no more rooms available on the floor which we were staying on; but I had prepared for such an event and managed to squeeze an airbed into my packing after Nathan admitted the truth to me - don't ask me how I got it in there, because I honestly haven't got a clue how it fitted in there.

Luckily, the boys didn't have any work for the first couple of days we were here, so they planned on going out and getting completely smashed tonight.

I was with them on that one and agreed completely that it was an amazing idea - being eighteen over here did suck a little, but when you're with The Wanted, anything is possible and I plan to get as drunk as I can before I get caught and am sent straight back to the hotel to be dealt with in the morning.

For now though, I was just going to enjoy the moment and I was going to make sure I had a good night for as long as I could get away with it.

And it was even going to play a little game, just to get under the skin of Nathan even more; especially after the comment he made about me at the airport just taking anything that was thrown at me - if that's what he really thought of me, then I might as well have some fun with it, because it's not like I was going to be getting Nathan anytime soon.

"Jess, we're leaving in half hour, so make sure you're ready." I heard Jay shout through the door and I just laughed to myself as I pulled the outfit out of the suitcase, making sure it was the right one for this evening before I placed my phone on charge and jumped into the shower; further washing away all traces that Nathan had ever laid his hands upon me and I was going to erase all memories of the two of us together at the same time.

Once I stepped out of the shower, I took a look at the time and saw that I had fifteen minutes left to get myself ready before the boys left without me.

I pulled my dress off the bed and pulled it over my head, the dress itself came to stop about mid-thigh while the outer material fell to below my knees and I looked in the mirror, feeling satisfied that my choice would definitely attract the attention of the male population. I allowed my hair to remain in its natural state, only adding in a few curls for more volume and to make it more noticeable; completing the style with a floral headband. I then applied mascara and thin layer of eyeliner to make my eyes the more prominent feature on my face and added some red lipstick to finish the make-up.

I looked at the time once again, seeing that I had just about enough time to accessorise the outfit and make myself even more impressive than I already was; I picked up my flower earrings which had been bought for me as a Christmas Present by my ex-boyfriend because I told him that I loved flowers, I then pulled my pearl chain bracelet onto my right wrist and secured my necklace which read 'Love' around my neck - I gave myself one last look in the mirror and saw that there was only one thing missing now.

The shoes.

I decided that my nude coloured platforms would go perfectly with the outfit. Pulling them onto my feet and removing my shoulder bag from the case, I was ready just as I received a knock at the door and then heard Max shouting through it for me;

"Jess, are you ready?"

"Yep. All ready." I smiled as I walked out of the room, making sure I locked the door behind me and stood beside Max as he looked up and down me; making sure he was actually still looking at the real Jessica Smith he had been looking at when we arrived here.

"You look amazing. Trying to impress anyone?" he winked with a slight laugh.

"If you're referring to Nathan, then no, I am most definitely not trying to impress him. Even if he was the last bloke in America, then I still wouldn't be dressing to impress him." I stated, making my feelings towards the youngest member of the band very clear and hoping Max understood them; she wasn't dressing this way to impress Nathan, she was dressing this way to make a point to Nathan.

"Last thing I heard, he was keeping your bed warm with you. What's happened between the two of you?" Max questioned as we got into the lift and I placed my phone into my bag, on top of my purse and make-up.

"Oh, just the usual, turns out he has a girlfriend and he was just using me to get what she wasn't willing to give him." I shrugged.

"You what? Nathan has a girlfriend?"

"Correction. A girlfriend that won't sleep with him." I smirked, checking myself in the lift mirror just before the door opened and revealed the other four boys, and Kev, stood there waiting for us to arrive; especially since we also had a dinner reservation at a restaurant in town and they hated people that turned up late.

"I'm sorry, where is Jessica and what have you done with her?" Jay asked with a complete look of shock on his face because, although he had seen me in short dresses before, he had never seen me on a short dress that still made me look classy and not like I was actually out for just one thing.

"Shut up Jay." I replied, feeling a sudden rush of heat to my cheeks.

No one ever compliments me or makes me feel good about myself, I just get all the sexual comments and have to put up with them. I get the weird guys who have never had any female attention in their life and just want to try their luck with someone who looks like their an easy target.

"Not being funny Jess, but why have you let Nathan get to you this much?" Max whispered to me as we walked out of the hotel, ignoring the flashes constantly going off in out direction as we got into two separate cars; I was in one with Max and Tom while the others went in the one which was in front of us.

"Because, as crazy as it sounds, I thought that he did actually love me and, for once, I wasn't just being used by someone; I thought that someone actually wanted me because they liked the real me." I sighed looking at Max, although Tom just looked extremely confused about what we were talking about.

"I'm sure you've had someone love you before. A pretty girl like yourself can't have always been single?" Max replied.

"Pfft. The only thing a guy has ever wanted from me is sex, and that's the only thing I've ever given a guy in return." I laughed because, to me, the idea of ever being in a relationship with someone was a joke within itself.

"Then why did you do the same with Nathan?"

"I thought there was a chance that he actually liked me. Yes we were sleeping with each other whenever he wanted to, but he actually treated me like I was person and he understood that I had feelings; he even listened to me when I needed someone to talk to. That's never happened to me, so when it did, I just thought there was something different. I guess I was wrong." I sighed again, as I looked at my phone and saw that Nathan had sent me a text message; which I decided that I was going to ignore for now and I'd look at it when I was ready to see what crap he was going to spill to me next.

"Maybe his relationship is just covering up what he really feels for you then?" Max suggested.

"Wait? Nathan is in a relationship, be he's sleeping with you?" Tom asked in confusion, finally catching on to what me and Max were talking about.

"Well done Thomas. Lets give you a round of applause." I replied sarcastically, giving him a round of applause to match at the time.

"And you had feelings for him?" Tom asked, attempting to wraps his small brain around everything that was going on and making sure he wasn't missing out on anything important.

"You make it sound like it was in the past...."

"So you still have feelings for him then?" Max asked, and I just nodded my head, deciding that now would be a good time to read the message Nathan had sent me before I shoved my phone back in the bag; I was now ignoring the conversation going on between Tom and Max, so I didn't know what they were talking about anymore.

From Nathan;

Jess, I really am sorry for everything. I know it's hard to believe, but I actually do love you and I want to be with you; you don't even understand how much I want to be with you. Please just let me explain?

"Jess? Are you alright?" I heard Tom asking, suddenly shaking me from my thoughts and bringing me back to reality.

"Erm, yeah, you know, just, erm, fine." I said, fumbling over my words without even meaning to.

"Are you sure?" Max asked with a suspicious look on his face, knowing that he didn't believe me and he knew that there was something wrong with me.

"Y-y-yeah." I replied, still thinking about the message I had just read.

Nathan had just told me that he loves me and he wants to be with me, but not 30 hours ago, did he also tell me that he had a girlfriend and wasn't actually single.

What the hell could there be to explain?

"Try that again Jess. What's wrong with you?" Max prodded.

"It doesn't matter. Are we there yet?" I questioned, changing the subject before they could ask me anymore questions.

"Yeah. Just round the corner." Tom smiled at me.

To Nathan;

I'll talk to you, but you've still got to understand how much you hurt me. You better have a good explanation.

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