Lucy p.o.v

As Natsu leaves i feel a sudden urdge to run after him. I have never lived alone, but i bet i could handle it. I can handle anything! Not really though.

As i clumper into bed i realize just how much that pinkie has done for me.  it wouldnt seem like alot but he gave me a friend, set me free from my dad, and made it so much easier to smile.

Thinking of Natsus sweet smile set a weird feeling shoot through my heart and i get the sudden need to.... Kiss natsu?

No no no. He doesnt like you like that. I need to remind myself that Natsu is a good looking and smart boy with a bringht future, hes so far out of my leauge it seems impossible that he is even my friend. That he even notices i exist.

Am i even capable of love? The answer is no. But.... Natsu, the name sounds so right, and thinking of him makes my heart flutter.

No. I refuse, anyway its to late for me, i dont have alot of time left anyway.

See, for sometime i have been loosing all strength in my muscles. Its a deadly desiese and i think im going to refuse the surgery, its risky and who would i live for anyway.

Natsu. I voice says in the back of my head. Youll live for natsu. But even if i did make the surgery, hes out of my leauge.

You love Natsu, lucy. But... I cant.

I cant love anyone.