For some people, life will be like an apple which have some bitter parts but for some people, it will be a bitter ground only bitter without any tastes. some people will through that bitter ground and end their life but some people won't do that, they will taste every bit of it even though it leaves your tongue tasteless and lifeless. the people who experience that either become adamant or tired and give up. i am in the first category. i want to eat this bitter ground till the end just to see what it finally has?

i came to London before 2 years from now. my mind still can't able to accept the fact that i chose this life and emptiness in my life and still can't able to figure it out. for the first in my lifetime, i took that decision to leave everyone and go far away from them. people say i am a bad omen to the people who love me to the core, proving that many things happened in my loved one's life. some peoples even reached heaven because of me and my bad omen. but then too i didn't opt to die, why i should accept the defeat? if everything happening because of my fate, let my fate and god decide my end. and it for sure i won't ever try to end my life. lets god decide my end and stop my life, till then i am going to eat this bitter ground.  - anika thought while having morning coffee in her favorite cafe and which can't resist herself from thinking about her beautiful past when bitter ground tastes sweets to her but the bitter ground is bitter ground right.

the time when her only financial support her daadi was ill, and she was impatiently waiting for her turn to go inside the face-face interview. she crossed 3 levels before that reaching here for her this job is more than important. her entire life depends on this.

Ms. Anika... - a person called her name out while praying God, she entered.

come in... have a seat! - Hr of the company asked her to take the seat. she sat on her seat while giving a small smile in her face.

Ms. Anika... tell me about yourself! - a blue-eyed man who sat in the middle of the HR asked her. 

sir, i am anika, origin from Bangalore and settled in Mumbai... and finished my post graduate in ... - she stopped after seeing his uninterested posture. 

i am listening... what's your name? Miss whatever... - he chuckled and dragged her in the place that she don't need this job for any cause. she also made her mind she won't leave the place before teaching him a good lesson.

"first of all, i am not Mr. WHATEVER ... i am Anika... ok Mr. WHATEVER, TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF?" - she asked him instead, and she sounds like thunder. i leaned back on her chair and crossed her legs forgetting table manners. why she even care? if she don't need this job.

"excuse me... i think you're forgetting i am the interviewer here" - he asked her having a slight smile in his face. she still can't able to assure which type of smile is this, he got impressed or he got a fun time on seeing her attitude, but she concluded with the second option and she concluded to play with him. 

"i think you're forgetting Mr. WHATEVER. this is my college" - she said with a smile and this time the two HR's who accompanied him started to nudge the college principal regarding my attitude. 

"Ms. Anika... mind your language" - college principal warned her but she didn't see to be giving an ear to his words.

"Sir, i think you're forgetting something... i am still the president of student association... hope you remember that" - she replied back to the college principal. before his two HR's could say anything that blue-eyed man opened his mouth.

"my name is not Mr. WHATEVER... i called or referred as Shivaay Singh Oberoi by my parents and others... you can call me shivaay rather than Mr. WHATEVER..." - he spoke with a sweet smile upto her surprise. 

"fine, Mr. Oberoi... tell me your qualification to sit here and select the candidates for your company..."  - she asked him with her bloodshot eyes where the disappointment regarding this job because she knew even though being qualified for this job she won't get this job.

"wait... wait... if i am not wrong, you are one of the sons of the great Oberoi family... that's why, otherwise, how could an employee throw this attitude towards the candidates? Mark my words, Mr. Oberoi, the destruction of the Oberoi empire already started..."  - words started to flow from her mouth without even her knowledge. 

"i think you're speaking these heavy dialogues because of the hope that you won't be hired by our company... but anika, i am sorry Ms. Anika... you already got select as an event management executive..."  - he said upto her surprise, but she already made her mind that she's not going to work under this man. 

"i am sorry Mr. Oberoi... i will decide what i actually want in my life and don't want to work under you" - she said and left the room by giving a huge sound.

even though she left that place, destiny was not ready to leave her at any cost, in two months span her grandma died and the empty pocket and empty vessels in her house started to knock her peaceful life. she needed a job but she was not ready to accept the offer from them which hits her doorbell every month. she finally got a job from a small firm with a package of 15k per month, she was happy. but her enthusiasm and happiness faded away when she came to know that her office was bought by Oberoi groups. she signed an agreement so she has to work for at least, one month in the company. 

"excuse me, sir" - she knocked on the door of the new owner of the company.

"Sir, i am impressed... Ms. WHATEVER" - she heard a familiar voice from the person who was sitting behind the door.

"come in" - he said while chuckling. she opened the door with confusion.

"you!" - she was hell shocked to see him in that place.

"yes... it's me... nice to you again, Ms. WHATEVER" - he greeted her with a wide smile, leaving her in shock.

 her chain of thoughts broken by the waiter who gave the bill for her coffee, after paying the bill  she moved from her favorite cafeteria and led her way towards the office having nothing in her mind. after walking for 2 km, she pulled out the identity card from her bad and headed towards the CNX office, one of the famous and topmost news media in the world, it's keeping its first position because of thousands of employees under them and she's proud to say, she's one of them. 

she crossed the entrance by giving a sweet and short smile to the security in the gate other than him, no-one in her office saw the smile in her face. for her co-employees, she's the book of secrets and mystery but she least cared about that. why should she hell care about their thoughts? she came here to work and for peace of mind while doing some works. she moved the way towards the brainstorming section and took her place over there. but instead of working they seem to be in tension with some other issue.

"what happen guys everything ok?" - she was forced to ask them when she saw the tension and fear in their faces.

"nothing is ok... Steve met with an accident..." - Jessi replied in a fast tone.

"we should be in the hospital, right? what are we doing here?" - she asked her in a stern tone. 

"he is fine now and out of danger! and the real problem lies here, who will be going to interview the Asian businessman of the year? you know how much it's important for us!" - Jessi said in a stern tone. 

"so!" - she asked them as she found they concluded something.

"so the team decided you're going to host the interview as you're the scriptwriter for this interview more than you we can't find any person qualified" - Jessi said in a stern tone. 

"are you out of your mind?" - she instantly yelled at her for her stupid idea, how come a scriptwriter become a host in the span of just 2 hours. it was a really shocking move for her. she just scripted the question for Steve without even knowing who won the businessman of the year award.

"team decided Ms. Anika... you have to do... no other option left" - she said in a stern tone. 

how will you feel when someone decides for you in your life? this is what the feeling she was currently undergoing after their decision of making her a host. now life again presented her the biggest fear to overcome. but she's not going to run away from this. she's going to face this. she made her mind and went towards the dressing room and the costume was kept ready for her.

relax anika... you can do it... she said to herself thinking about the interview. she grabbed a banana and ate it. she practiced multiple time before the mirror then too, she felt something different in the air.

anika... he came! are you ready? - Jessi asked her in the same tone, she nodded her while looked at her reflection in the mirror. she gave a small smile and moved back to her work. anika stood up from that place and moved outside the studio to greet the guest. she practiced multiple times about initiating the conversation. moved towards outside, but the fear inside her becomes strong. it becomes difficult for her to breathe, she feels a hot thing moving inside my stomach due to fear. exactly can't able to grab the reason.

he came inside surrounding 5 - 10 bodyguards around him. she can't able to see his face. she stood at one corner and leaning upwards to see him. still can't able to see his face. he moved towards Jessi and she seems like congratulating him. 

"wait for a while, anika... she will call you in seconds" - she said to myself, before completing my sentence she called me. she excused his bodyguards and moved forward. her feet rooted at the place when she recognized whom she's going to interview.

"Mr. Oberoi... this is Ms. Anika the one who is going to interview you" - Jessi introduced HER where he moved towards my position and faced me. she really wants to run away from this situation. tears are ready to flow out but she stopped it from flowing out. she immediately gazes down her vision when she found his blue-grey orbs facing me.