did my pain reach her? shivaay asked himself before talking or responding anything further. and he still amazed how her touch didn't fail to soothe his wound, but he don't want to get relieved. he wanted to relieve her from her thought. he don't want to loose this opportunity to relax her from the wound which was a very deep cut in her heart. he held her waist and pulled her more into him.

"don't know, why i am living in this world?" - she whispered while burying her face in his neck crook. he was stunned because as far he knew his wife, she never talks about ending her life at any cost, instead, she has the personality to challenge her life. Anger rages in his vain, hearing those words which he never wants to hear at any cost. In a fear of losing her, he pulled her more into him. 

"The reason is me, i am the only reason behind your existence" - shivaay said and failed to control his tears, it reaches her side hair through his cheeks. she hugged, even more, tighter than him. physically, it's very difficult for them to breathe but their wounds are healing because of this proximity.

"How can you suppose to love me this much?" - she whispered, most of the words are mixed with her breath but shivaay felt week on his knees but instead of answering he wanted to show her position in his heart. he started to kiss from hairline to neckline, he usually does to comfort her.

"Because i saw the reason behind my existence in you" - shivaay said, those words are enough to anika to come back to him? she was thinking for a while before raising her head and look at him with her pleading eyes. he looked at her, her forehead hits his chin. he raises down his gaze to see her but only heard her sobs. it hurt him to the core and pushing him away from his objective to talk to her heartfully.

before he could start, she started... "you worked as a waiter in that restaurant because of me" she said along with her sobs. shivaay loosened his grip slightly but didn't let her go away from him. because he intentionally hid that from her. she was pregnant by that time and needed complete bedrest, so he lied that he got a job in a start-up but in reality, he was working as a waiter in that restaurant. he don't want to bother her and also don't want to take the entire blame on her head.

"shivaay... please let me go..." - she cried again telling him to flee her from his love. but he never gonna do that, she knew but then too she tried to pass current on the insulator.

"at least, i was happy and living then..." - he finally said and replied all her questions in that answer. he was happy and living with her. she raised her head and looked at him, slightly increasing the distance between them.

"but now, despite having everything i am feeling dead and depressed only shivanya and her smile keeping me going..." - he said while tears flowing over his pink cheeks. anika heart hung on seeing his tears, she forgets about her pain at that spot and hell cared about wiping his tears from his eyes. she raised her hand and tried to wipe it off but he stopped.

"let it flow... now you can able to feel, how i would have felt when i see you in this condition after 2 long years" - words uttered from his mouth. she remained lost and her ultimate aim was to wipe the tears as well as the pain from his heart. she keeps on jerking her hands and tried to flee her hand so that she could wipe his tears. he pressed her wrist tightly so that she can't able to move her hand upward. 

"you know i can't see you like this!" - anika said putting her grief and everything aside. he looked at her with those teary eyes, their eyes met where he wanted to throw everything which was bothering her to an extent.

"even i am... " - he said and it reached her spontaneously. she looked at her tear flowing eyes. she tried to release her hand but he wasn't ready to leave her. In that process, she moved closer to him. he finally released her hand, but instead of wiping his tears, she brought her hand on the backside of his head and pushed it towards her lips. his lips hit her lips and she opened her sealed lips and initiated it. she closed her eyes tightly and trying to flee herself from the pain, somehow it helped her and she also succeeded in wiping his tears off from his eyes. 

she opened her eyes, gasped. but still, their lips brushing with each other. he opened his eyes, but instead of looking at her merely he read how that incident created a deep hole in her heart. he moved closer and first kissed her forehead assuring her that whatever be the situation i will always stay by her side. then her eyes telling her she won't let her cry lonely. her face blooms in sadness because along with his kisses he also told her how he felt without her. it's also true that shivanya is the only reason behind his smile. 

she slept flat and let him tell everything in his language. in no time, he hovers her and kissed her cheeks and apologized for letting it dry in these 2 years, even he didn't responsible for it, he took the entire blame on his head. he broke down, he can't able to go anything beyond that. he stuck over there. their past stuck him over there. he buried his face on her shoulder and cried, anika understood more than anything else, his feelings, his smile, his happiness, his peacefulness mean everything to her. she ruffled his hair and cupped his face made him look at her. he looked at her eyes and her eyes met with his teary-everything-happened-because-of-me eyes. she took her lips towards his and sucked his lower lip conveyed her feelings that his broken state killing her multiple times. she never let him breathe in the fear of his tears.

"i won't cry!" - he finally said while breaking their kiss. she looked at him with teary eyes.

"but i want one thing from your behalf" - he added, anika knew what he's going to ask and now her heart was ready to give another chance to their life, a final chance. 

he didn't say anything, before that she nodded fastly with teary eyes. the tears from her eyes sprinkle on his face and assured him more. he pulled her more close to him and didn't say anything. he also knew how she would have convinced her heart and give another chance. 

she kissed his shoulder line and completely surrendered her to him. he understood and finally felt relieved. he took a deep breath and kissed her neckline. there were only love and pure love in their touch. shivaay dripped off her shirt while kissing her forehead, she didn't protest. Infact, she helped him from taking her clothes off. he moved his lips from her forehead to lips and he pulled the bra off from her body gently. his fingers and palm touched her warm upper body. she felt secured rather than pleasure. she felt someone is there whom you can share your pain, your life, and claim them. 

"he loved you, he loves you and he always loves you anika..." a primeval voice told her the truth. In no time, he's out of his clothes and hugged her tightly. they didn't go anywhere beyond that. they didn't even leave the air to separate them. they were hugging each other naked. he kissed her forehead and told, "thank you for coming back".

"Sorry for hurting you more" - anika whispered and kissed his cheeks. he smiled finally, she wanted to freeze the moment. he kissed the tip of her nose and smiled again just to assure her that she meant everything to him. 

he caressed her widened lips, she was smiling, yes she's smiling on seeing him. "i want to see you like this every day! that's my only wish!" he said. in no time, she kissed him and made him hover her and they pleasured each and every moment while keeping their past aside not throwing them away from them because they knew that was not much easier to forget.

the early morning sky and anika's mentality have something in common both are waiting for the sun to swap all the left out darkness. she opened her eyes where shivaay was still sleeping while holding her waist tightly. peacefully sleeping after ages... 

she grabbed her dress from the ground and widened the screen so that she can see able to see the sparkling Arabian sea which gave a good view from the window. shivaay hand searched for her after a few milliseconds, his eyes helped his hands to search her. his hands didn't find her but his eyes did, it spotted her near the window thinking about something. 

"good morning" - he muttered, she turned her face to him at the very next second with a smile in her face.

"come here" - he widened his arms for her and called her to him. reading her slight negative thought in her mind. she walked towards him and reached his widened arms, she moved closed to him and kept her head on his neck crook. 

"You remember! i asked you to give you another chance" - shivaay asked her. 

"the last chance," she thought, she nodded and wrapped her hands around his waist.

"want coffee?" - he asked her, she nodded no and replied "want you" softly.

"constant" - he replied and pulled her more into him. 

by then, they heard the door knocking sound. shivaay got up from his bed and dressed in. he moved towards the door and reached the door. he opened the door where anika rest herself on the bed. 

"maa" - he called out, where anika turned towards her side and looked at her.

"shivaay! actually, i want to go back to home...immediately!" - she said in a hurry.

"what happened?" - shivaay asked her.

"nothing your father is suffering from fever... just now got the call" - pinky said. 

"oh my god" - shivaay said. 

"ok wait... i will come" - shivaay added.

"no... no, you stay here... shivanya is sleeping right now... i just came here to ask you to take care of her... I will go with the driver... no need to take tension" - pinky said while glancing anika with a smile.

"shivaay i will take care of her... you go with mom" - anika answered and it's out of blue for pinky. 

"sure?" - shivaay asked her. she nodded with yes. pinky heartfully smiled at shivaay forgetting about her husband's condition. she turned her face towards shivaay by then anika excused herself and moved towards shivanya's room. pinky looked at shivaay with many questions. by answering everything, shivaay blinked his eyes with a slight smile. 

anika went to shivanya's room where shivanya sleeping peacefully while surrounding her soft toys. anika controlled her tears and moved towards her and rest next to her. seeing her face, tears rushed down over her cheeks, she wiped it.

"i am sorry" - she whispered, probably it would have reached shivanya, she moved her position and hugged anika in sleep. her tiny hands were around her neck and her baby face on her shoulder. anika can feel her heartbeat and her hot breaths which hits her shoulder. how come she forgot that she gave birth to her and left her just like that? that question roams around her head. she hugged her back and closed her eyes. shivaay who was seeing with teary eyes left to drop his mom while closing the door.