2 weeks later🫶🏾.

jackie💕.

"you got this" a'ja said and i nodded.

"okay text me when you're done and let me know how it goes" she said.

"okay i will" i said.

i finally decided to stop being scary and actually try counseling cus it's either that or drown in depression and i can't handle this.

walking into the building i walked up to the front desk.

"hi my name is jackie young and i have an appointment scheduled for today" i said.

"okay let me see" she said as she typed on her computer.

"okay you are scheduled with one of our bests jazmyn. she's actually finishing up with one of her patients right now so she'll call you out in a few" she said smiling at me.

"thank you so much" i said and she nodded. i sat down and scrolled on my phone to run down time.

im really nervous about doing this but my family really wanted me to give it a try along with my teammates. this feeling of vulnerability i cannot do this it's to much.

"miss young" i heard making me look up. i saw a stud with locs standing at the door. she was tatted down but definitely professional.

and yes, she does look good. good asf too. lord i should probably stop and leave the studs alone not gone lie.

"you can follow me" she said and i followed her office. we walked in and it was so nicely put together. it's giving decorator she really took the time to make it look good in here.

"you can sit" she said sitting down behind her desk.

"so im jazmyn your counselor. but you can call me jazz" she said.

"it's nice to meet you jazz" i said nervously.

"you too jackie" she smiled as she wrote down on her clipboard. again very professional.

"soo you wanna tell me about yourself or are you scared i will bite you ??" she asked making me laugh.

"im just shy lol. but my name is jackie, im 27, very shy, oh and i play pro basketball" i said.

"mhm i watch. you fire one of my favvs" she said making me blush.

"thank you i really appreciate it" i said.

"ofc. my name is jazmyn.. im 26, im a businesswoman, entrepreneur, and a psychologist" she said making me smile.

"ohh so you doing it big" i said.

"ykk it" she said showcasing her pearly white teeth.

"okay jackie.. you wanna tell me why a pro baller like you need counseling ?? and ofc ik that you're still human and yo type of job can have an affect on the mental big time but it's rare that a pro baller comes and gets help" she said.

"well um it's just some things i can't handle and i have been through a lot this past year" i said and she nodded.

"take your time im here to listen whenever you're ready" she said making me smile and nod. i love how patient and gentle she is with me.

"so i was in a 2 year relationship. and it was going amazing at first but it started to go downhill. it's like she just lost that love for me. she became passive aggressive".

"and that turned into physical abuse. neither of us recognized that girl cus that wasn't who i fell in love with. but it was a constant fight and me being scared for my life" i said.

"i see. so abusive girlfriend. look not gone lie im very professional but as a female to female you got some big a** arms. you should've used that to beat her a** she wouldn't have touched you again" she said making me laugh.

"thanks for the advice boo" i said laughing.

"on a real note tho, how did it affect you ?" she asked.

"iykyk i love crop tops.. i will wear one any and everyday even through cold weather. i stopped because the bruises were so bad. i stopped eating and i love to eat. i just wasn't happy"

"i felt so numb and being around people always made me flinch" i said.

"my parents wanted me to report it but yk ik her. ik the real her, the one before we started dating and that was nothing like her.

"this girl was fighting demons or some sh** because they way her eyes looked when she was either hurt or p*ssed off." i expressed.

jazmyn🦋.

"how long did you wait to tell your teammates and family ?" i asked writing.

"4 months.. i just didn't want them to bash her because after we broke up she started anger management and ik the real her" jackie said.

"jackie abuse is never okay. it doesn't matter if it's from female to male and definitely male to female. so many women lose there lives to that".

"you are never alone and even if you feel vulnerable and alone just know that so many women understand you. don't hide your pain"

"and i'm proud of you for getting help. ik that can be hard especially feeling unhappy but i promise you this is the start to finding yourself" i said.

"thank youu jazz. i have brushed it off for a minute but it was either feel sorry for myself or get help for myself. and im always down to bettering myself" she said wiping her tears.

"you're so strong. and just know that this doesn't define you it just happened to you."

"have you been on medication ??" i asked.

"yes too many in the last 4 months and they don't help. they help numb the pain for about a hour and 2 and then it's back to being sad" she said.

"well whoever prescribed them to you needa stop shoving different medications down your throat lord. how about we get you off of those and you can just try counseling for now and if that don't work we can try something else" i suggested.

"i would love that" she said smiling.

"awesome okay any questions or anything else you wanna talk about ??" i asked.

"no we're good" she said.

"okay well how does once a week sound ?" i asked.

"umm i can do that" she said looking at her phone.

"specific day you would like ??" i asked.

"is wednesday fine 1:30 ?" she asked.

"yes ma'am. okay i will see you next wednesday miss young" i said as we both stood up.

"jackie" she said making me laugh.

"yeah my bad" i said shaking my head.

i walked her out and said goodbye to her before looking at my watch. i still had time before i had to go pick up my daughter from daycare.

"HEYY JAZZY POOH" my co-worker lex said.

"hey lex" i said laughing as i shook my head.

"how my niece doing ??" she asked.

"good still bad asf" i said laughing.

"aye now not to much bookie" she said.

"who would've thought a little study stud would get pregnant" she teased.

"man ionk i was doing stuff off that alcohol ain't drank since" i said shaking my head.

"so anymore patients left for today ?" she asked.

"no she was my last one. im gonna finish some work for the company and then go pick up leyah bad ahh from daycare" i said.

"aww i just know she misses her mommy" she said.

"me too i dropped her off this morning and she cried her little heart out. i mean she cried like a baby she wouldn't let go of my shirt it made me sad cus my poor baby" i said laughing.

"okay well im about to head out see you tomorrow" she said.

"okay drive safe" i said walking back into my office. i looked at my clipboard were i wrote down almost everything jackie told me.

just so i can be able to understand it better and be able to help her without being to pushy or it being to much for her.

im glad she decided to get help cus i could see that spark from her eyes were gone and she was not happy and we gone work towards getting that back especially before her season starts back.

chapter 4😝! vote and comment💕!