jackie💎.

"jack how come you never wear your stomach out nomo ?? i miss the abs" queen said making me laugh.

"it's just cus it's cold outside an normally that wouldn't bother me but it does make me sick" i said.

"yeah" a'ja said lowly like she didn't believe me.

and tbh she ain't wrong. cold weather don't bother me but the bruises are still healing. i think today im gonna tell a'ja the truth.

"yk if there's anything going on you can tell us right ?" tip said.

"ofc" i said smiling.

the only reason i haven't told them is because i don't want them to bash kb. we both know that kb was going through h*ll herself and ended up dumping all ts on me.

but she's not a bad person and stuff happen. she's been going to anger management so ik that she really does care.

"jackie we know you and we know when somethings wrong" kp said.

"right, cold weather have never bothered you before so wassup ?" tip asked.

"guys can we not" i started shaking my head.

"what's the point of being a team if you gone lie to us ?" ac asked.

"because ion have to tell yall everything that goes on in my personal life" i argued.

"you don't tell us sh** tho" queen said.

"we're just worried about you cus you haven't been yourself lately" megan said.

"well don't worry about me okay im good and ion need yall on my d*** bumper right now" i said. i quickly exhaled as i watched megan's facial expression change.

she's the one person i would never wanna raise my voice at cus she's so sweet and caring and i did not mean to yell at her.

"meg im sorry i didn't mean to yell at you it's just i been under so much stress and-

"yeah it's fine" she said interrupting me. i sighed and shook my head in defeat. i feel bad cus i really hurt her feelings and she was just tryna be nice and check on me.

"jack be honest with us please. we're just worried about you" kiah said.

"right im your best friend and i wanna be there for you especially if you're going through something".

"if there's anything going on you can tell us" chelsea said.

"fine you wanna know wassup ? kb and i broke up because she was beating my a** everyday. that's why im always covered up head to toe".

"i didn't tell yall because i don't want yall to bash her bcus she was going through things and she just happen to take ts out of me. she's not a bad person and she's been going to anger management since we broke up".

"ts has affected me to the point where im not happy and im putting my brave face on everyday and forcing a smile on my face" i said exhaling.

it felt good to get that off my chest but i didn't want the team to bash kb because it was a mistake and we both know that.

"jack why didn't you tell us" a'ja asked as she held back tears hugging me tightly.

"because it was just too much and then i had to think about how this would affect kb especially since she deals with the guilt everyday" i said.

"you still could've came to us boo. we're your sisters and we're here to help you" tip said.

"no don't cry.. imma be good" i said wiping a'ja tears.

"no because as your best friend i should've known." she said.

"aht a'ja no we're not doing that. it's not your fault and you didn't know. it's nobodies fault but mine and kb's ".

"because i will admit i did things that ik would hurt her and i did it on purpose because i felt like she was to insecure. it wasn't just her" i said.

"im sorry guys. i didn't recognize the monster i was and i swear im getting help. i was projecting my insecurities and my trauma on to her but thats not me and i swear im not a bad person"

"i just made some mistakes that i take accountability for and im getting help" kb said.

"we know kb & we're glad you realized that".

"nah cus why i noticed that she had bruises but she told me they were suction cup marks" syd said.

which is true, not to long ago syd noticed bruises on me and she asked if i was okay. and ofc i told her yes but ion think she really believed it. i told her they were suction cup marks.

kb🖤.

"and kb i owe you an apology. im sorry for everything that i put you through. even if it my mistake wasn't as bad as yours it was still wrong".

"im sorry that i hurt you, i thought that maybe since you were so insecure i would make me feel better but it didn't" jack said.

"i appreciate it jack. yk we gone be good no matter what" i said going hugging her but she lightly flinched backing up.

"yeahh" she said lightly but quickly hugging me.

"aww see this is better. now jackie you need to go to counseling boo. ts is affecting you and everyone's noticed" kp said.

"i've thought about it but idk guys" she mumbled.

"hey its okay to get help. it's okay to need help. going to get that for yourself will be one of the hardest but strongest thing ever. this could be good for you and helping you get that spark and happiness back" chelsea said.

"you see kb went to anger management and it's hard for some folks to get that and admit that they needed it" tip said.

"i'll see what i can do guys ion know many therapists and counselors here in vegas" she said.

"im proud of you. you gone come back harder" i said and she nodded.

"and thank you guys for not bashing or judging me. ik i was wrong and again i take full accountability for it and going to anger management has helped me to see the better side" i said.

"ofc we are in no place to judge only God can do that" ac said.

"right, right we are so proud of you both" queen replied.

i finished getting dressed and jackie and i were the last ones out. it was a comfortable silence and im grateful for that cus if we hadn't talked about it, it would be so weird.

"so counseling ?" i asked.

"idk ion think im that depressed" she said shrugging.

"you are. you don't even eat much anymore. and jack that's all you did like you had the widest back ever" i said making her laugh.

"ohh that's how you feel ?? you ain't even have to do me like that" she said as i laughed.

"hey imma big fan of big back jack.. im down to you eating 24/7 again and when that start to happen lmk food on me" i said.

"that is such a backsided compliment. but thank you kb i appreciate it" she said.

"hey so i have a friend that moved to vegas like 2 years ago and she's a counselor i could give you her information if you're down to it" tip said coming back into the locker room.

"uhh yeah sure" jack said.

"okay imma text you. im proud of you! we're gonna have the old you back in no time" she said going to hug her but she flinched.

"jack im not gonna hurt you boo" she said.

"ikk it's just a habit im still healing" she mumbled.

"hey take your time love. it'll get better" tip said.

"thank you. and please don't take the whole flinching thing to heart i promise you my body is just in protective mode now" she said lightly.

"ofc i understand that girl. yk im here for you. for both of yall" she said.

"thank you tip" she smiled.

"preciate you twin" i said and she smiled and nodded.

i grabbed my stuff and walked to the door making jackie quickly flinch and move away from me.

"im just going to the door" i said lightly.

"yeah sorry" she mumbled.

"you're fine. be safe" i said.

"you too" she said as i walked toward my car.

once i got home i showered and i heard someone knock on the door. i opened it and queen walked in making me look at her in confusion.

"are you crazy ?? how could you do that to jackie ??" she asked.

"idk okay. it wasn't me, and neither of us recognized that person cus i sholl as h*ll didn't."

"i was always mad, and so numb i couldn't figure out who that person was and why i acted the way i acted. because being with jackie made me happy but it also brought out some of my worst moments."

"kb you never healed from that last relationship so why did you think you were ready to get into a new one ?" queen asked.

"because being with jackie made me so happy. when we first started dating she made me forget the pain and trauma."

"but then it was like i was losing her and she didn't even care. days were we would argue and she would say the most hurtful sh**. i started to lose myself again. but this time it got worse" i said shaking my head.

"well why didn't you come to me and tell me how you felt ?? we could've figured out how to help you" she said hugging me.

"i don't even know.. i had a whole gf who i thought i could talk to but she would just brush it off and ts hurt me" i expressed.

"it's not an excuse for what i did, but i would never hurt her on purpose. we were both toxic and the love we had at the beginning was just gone." i said.

"well im glad you're getting help and so is she. yall both just wasn't healthy for each other" she said and i nodded.

"have you guys talked at all ??" queen asked.

"yes we apologized to each other like genuinely but honestly we haven't had a real deep conversation about our relationship" i said.

"and yk she's still kind of scared of me. me going near her makes her jump or flinch" i said.

"yeah she does that with all of us" she said.

"well yk maybe wait a little until after she start going to counseling. we can see how it's going and you guys can try to have a deep conversation" she suggested.

"yeah that's what's best" i said.

we decided to have a team bonding but jackie isn't coming so a'ja decided to stay with her so she wouldn't be alone. ik that she said she forgives me but i hope that one day she can actually forgive me and her body as well.

chapter 3😝! vote and comment💕!