jackie💎.

today i decided to go talk to kb. im coming back to basketball soon and i do not want this affecting the team. i knocked on the door 3 times and i could hear footsteps.

a few seconds later the door swung open revealing kb. she looked confused and shocked to see me and hey im just as shocked as she is.

"jackie what are you doing here ??" she asked.

"i need to talk to you" i said.

"about what ??" she asked making me huff and roll my eyes. it's cold asf, i can't feel my fingers, and my nipples feel like they finna fall off and she wanna do all this and not let me in.

"girl let me tf in its cold asf" i said pushing past her.

"come in i guess" she said sarcastically rolling her eyes as she shut the door.

"so talk" she said.

"kb what's wrong ?? cus you was acting like i did sum when i came to the locker room" i said.

"nothing i told yall i was just in my own little bubble. we been put ts behind us and we both taking the time to move on".

"we both healing from things we don't talk about. i just been tryna focus on basketball and bettering myself" she said.

"so then why come for the girls then ?? like you got offended asf" i asked.

"bcus they were tryna be funny with the whole i gotta problem with jack sh**. and they know it just as well as i do" she said shrugging.

"no they just wanted us to talk if anything was wrong so that we would be good before i come back" i said.

"yeah and then a'ja had add her 2 cents. tryna get me out of character h*ll i still deal with the guilt everyday and so she can't make ts no worse for me if that's what she tried to do".

"that's one reason i didn't want the the team to know cus i feel like ts gone be brought up everytime you get into with sb" i said shaking my head.

"yo gf know you over here ??" she asked.

"no and she doesn't care either. wassup kb ? cus you acting like you hate me" i said staring at her.

"i don't hate you and yk that jack. i got so much love and respect for you especially as a person and someone who's been through so much".

"but you made it known that being around me replayed it in you're head so im tryna give you as much space as possible so you can heal" she said.

"and i have. if i didn't i wouldn't have went to the locker room. if i didn't i wouldn't be here right now. God got me and ik that ts is behind me" i told her.

"ik you're not proud of everything. and ik the real you. im sorry i never saw you're pain. im sorry i wasn't there when you begged for help, when you needed me" i told her.

"its fine jack it's behind me. i've healed.. but seeing you brings back that feeling of realizing what a monster i was" kb replied.

"and things change.. people can change for the better and you did. you have. we're good so stop worrying about that. it already happened and it's done now gotta worry about us getting that chemistry back on the court" i said.

"i got you" she said as i hugged her tightly. being in her arms brings back so many memories. bittersweet.

and talking to her on this deep level made me realize why i fell in love with her in the first place. because even tho she was fighting demons and even tho she f*cked up she still has a good heart.

"we should get you some hot chocolate.. ik yo nipples hard asf right now" she said making me laugh cus she's right.

"man i was cold asf out there and you ain't wanna let me in" i said shaking my head.

im hoping this will be the start of a new slate for both kb and i. focus on being teammates and friends and not ex's and not focusing on why we broke up. and i got so much love for her.

jazmyn🦋.

"i just wanted to see what her problem was" jackie said as i followed her to her kitchen.

"what did she say ?" i asked.

"she just told me she was just focusing on basketball and bettering herself. and she said she was kind of distancing herself from me cus i told her me being around her made it replay" i said.

"hmm" i said and i nodded for her to continue what she was saying.

"and we talked about moving on and putting it behind us and focusing on getting the chemistry back on the court and being friends and not being ex's" she said.

"so yall friends now ??" i asked.

"yeah we're gonna try to focus on that for right now" jackie told me.

and hearing that gave me mixed emotions cus like now you're friends with you're ex but im also happy cus i don't want the pass weighting down on them.

"oh" was all i said.

"what ?" she asked as she handed me a cup of coffee.

"nothing" i said shaking my head.

"babe tell me. what happened ??" she asked.

"idk that give me mixed emotions.. cus like you're friends with you're ex now and yall gone be in each others faces but im happy because i want you both to be able to heal and move past that" i said.

"well yeah but only cus we play basketball together." she said.

"yeah i guess" i said.

"so what ? you want me to act like she don't exist ? cus thats impossible when you're on the same team" jack responded.

"okay jackie. do what you gotta do. if it's healing you i accept" i said.

i'm really getting irritated because she's not understanding but im definitely not finna argue with her. im stressed out enough as it is.

"jazmyn wtf is your problem ?? it's not like imma f*** her" she said. i could hear her slightly raise her voice.

"idm jackie because being to friendly could make her fall in love with you again. and you ain't even tell me you was going to her house to talk to her" i said standing up raising my voice.

"jazz bring yo d*** tone down lay is in there sleeping. and im grown asf ion have to tell you everything" jackie said using her hands.

"but that was you tho jackie. and i didn't say ts now did i ?? you still could've told me tho cus if i was going to my EX house i would've told the person i fw. yk some called respect" i said.

"i only went there to make peace bro it's not like that jazz. you trippin" she said making me shake my head.

"so me having feeling is trippin ? ik you lack emotion but don't act like im overreacting" i said.

"but you are tho. you making it seem like im f*cking with my ex while im talking to you when that ain't the case." jack replied.

"and ykw you might as well. cus i already know you friendly as h*ll lol".

"omg baby be fr.. when have i ever gave you the impression that i don't want only you ?? you think i'd treat lay like she my own just to hurt you ? you already know how i feel about you".

"but you not understanding what im saying. how would you feel if i was friends with my ex ??" i asked.

"we play on the same d*** team jazz wtf do you want me to do ?? im not finna keep going back and forth with her over some past sh** bro" she said getting loud.

"aight baby. im not finna argue with yo a**" i said grabbing my phone and keys.

"im not tryna argue baby but you thinking that i wouldn't be loyal to you is crazy as h*ll" she said following me.

i walked to the guest room and lightly picked lay up. im glad we didn't wake her up cus she is a light sleeper.

"where you going ?" she asked.

"home im not doing this especially not while my kid is here" i said walking past her as lay laid on my shoulder.

"baby don't leave. can we just talk about ts ?" she asked.

"yeah but we both know it's gone turn into arguing. i'll text you when i get home and i will try to come back tomorrow when i don't have her with me" i said walking to my car.

"bae" jackie said as she stood at the door.

"imma see you later" i said as i finished putting her in her car seat. i put her blanket over her and closed the door getting into the drivers seat.

arguing is bad enough and then arguing with a child near is crazy. i never want my daughter around that kind of energy ever especially as a little girl. ts could traumatize her.

and no im not insecure but ts is not normal to always be in yo ex face and yes i understand they play basketball together but sum about that still rub me the wrong way.

chapter 18😝! vote and comment💕!