jackie💎.

i walked into chipotle and sat down. the line is kind of long right now so imma just wait a little for it to go down.

"jack ?" i heard making me look up where i saw kb. her hair was longer and she was wearing jewelry that shined against the light.

"kb hey" i said awkwardly cus i didn't know how to feel.

"how you been ?" she asked.

"good.. happy and healthier" i said as she stared me up and down. even tho i was sitting she could still see my whole frame.

"yeah i can tell.. weight is up" she said making me mug her cus tf that posed to mean ???

"wtf you tryna say kb ??" i asked.

"lol nothing im just saying like you look good." she said.

"ohh thanks" i said and she nodded.

"how's counseling ??" she asked.

"it was good but i stopped going almost 2 weeks ago. just tryna learn how to manage my mental on my own" i said.

i have mixed emotions about seeing and talking to kb. i left basketball because anytime i saw her it would replay and i could not heal or move on from it.

"okay wanna tell me why you left basketball ?? cus you love it and we been tryna get you to come back cus it's not the same" she said.

"kb it's complicated. i just wanted to take time for my mental health that's all" i said.

"so boxing ?? you still do that" she said making me huff.

"okay fine, i left basketball because being around you made everything replay over in my head. i could not heal or move on from it so ik i needed a break to recover from all ts" i said.

i didn't wanna tell her the real reason cus we both moving past it and stuff but she was pushing for the truth so.

"i thought we was moving past that ?" she asked.

"we were and we are but that doesn't stop the fact that i was still traumatized. just because you apologized don't mean that that's gonna overpower a year worth abuse" i said.

"so a grudge ?"

"kb im not holding a grudge against you. i left so that i could heal and fully put it behind me. i been forgave you but my mind and body didn't" i said.

"you traumatized the h*ll outta me how you want me to respond or even act ?? because ts happened by someone i loved. someone i trusted. someone that was supposed to protect me not hurt me" i said.

"and you think i wanted to hurt you ?? i was losing my d*** mind and the amount of time that i called out for help and i begged for help you wasn't there jackie".

"it was either a'ja, boxing, or basketball. not one time did you ask me if i was okay meanwhile i was inside dying and no one knew".

"im not proud of wtf i did and yes i went about it wrong by taking ts out on you but i still deal with the consequences daily and i don't mind cus you never deserved that" she said making me stare at her.

i had no words cus it hit me. the amount of times kb threw hints that she needed help but i was too caught up in having fun with my best friend that i brushed it off.

she was hurting before the abuse started and i was never there for her and it really makes me realize that i was not the best gf either.

"kb i'm sorry.. i had no idea" i whispered.

"it's fine jackie.. imma catch you later but i hope you get better cus you deserve to be happy" she said before leaving.

i sighed and shook my head. i gotta go to a'ja house now. i was blind asf in our relationship and when kb and i first started dating i was outside almost every weekend fooling around with a'ja that i never saw her pain.

jazmyn🦋.

"so i talked to my ex" jackie said making her look up.

"wait what happened ??" i asked.

"i was at chipotle and then she came in and saw me and we started talking." jack said.

"how did it go ?" i asked.

"idk honestly. i wasn't gonna tell her the real reason i left basketball but she was being pushy. she was really hurting and i had no idea"

"when we first started dating i was outside every weekend with a'ja. she made me realize that i never paid attention to her and she was asking for help but i just brushed it off" she admitted.

"sounds like she need a little counseling too" i said leaning back in my chair.

"yeah and now i feel so bad cus i was the one person she called for help. the person she came to and i wasn't there" she said shaking her head.

"kb wasn't ready for a new relationship she was still healing from the past one and you not being there plus her already hurting inside let to her doing stuff neither of yall thought she was capable of".

"and idc what you got going on abuse is never okay and shouldn't have happened" i said.

"mommy" i heard making me look at the door. leyah ran over to me and picked her up.

"hey my baby what are you doing here ?" i asked giving her kisses all over her face as she giggled.

"tete tip brought me" she said hugging me.

"i missed you" i said.

"i missed you mommy" she said kissing my cheek.

"awww omgg baby fever" jack said.

"jack jack" she yelled excitedly after noticing her. i put her down and she ran over to jackie who picked her up.

"i missed you so much bookie" jack said making me smile.

"i missed you. mommy says that we're like besties now" she said.

"we are you're my favorite little girl in the world" jack replied.

"so did this make you relapse or anything ?" i asked as leyah played with her necklace.

"i mean it's been on my mind and i do feel guilty but we both are putting it behind us" she said and i nodded.

"lay" i said making her look at me.

"i have extra work to do before christmas you wanna go home with jack jack ?" i asked.

"yess" she said excitedly making me smile and nod.

"okay well she's gonna take you home to grab some clothes and you're gonna spend the night with her" i said and she happily clapped.

"sleepover bestie" her little voice said to jackie.

"sleepover with my favorite little girl" jack said.

"okay imma text you" she said standing up to stretch.

"bet, be safe" i said pecking her lips.

"bye mama" lay said as i kissed her cheek.

"bye love and be good" i said and she nodded. jackie picked her up and they walked out sigh and look at my computer.

i was hoping i'd be done with this by yesterday but ig not. but im tryna finish as much as possible cus i will not be picking up a laptop tomorrow lol.

"hey where's lay ?" lex asked walking through the door.

"jack just took her" i said not looking up.

"jazz you been working all day can you at least take a break ??" she asked.

"i can't im behind asf and i will not be looking at this thing tomorrow" i said.

"im sure lay appreciates it" she said making me look at her.

"and what does that mean ??" i asked mugging her.

"you're always working & im sure she's happy you'll be spending christmas with her" she said.

"okay first of all, i spend a lot of time with her. i'll admit yes im a workaholic but i gotta get ts done that's my job im my own boss".

"i do all this so she can have whatever she want especially when she gets older" i said.

"yeah, i'll see you thursday and merry christmas" she said turning to leave.

"whatever" i said huffing.

ik i work a lot but i do all this so i can give my daughter the world and more. especially give her things i never had and there's nothing wrong with that.

but i am so happy jack and lay are getting along and besties. cus i do not trust to many people with my kid. she said she ain't having no kids but imma change her mind lol.

chapter 15😝! vote and comment💕!