The first time in ones life feeling so alone to move on to the next step in life is the hardest part after pushing her out of my life i still feel the heatbrokeness of losing the best thing i had in my life i can't seem to fill the void no matter how hard it is to i just can't get over the fact that that i had everything to lose it all that day i left her in her home town still hurts me the pain i felt when i got back a 300lb man choking me on the ground and to have everything i known ripped away from myself as i lay there face in the dirt getting home from the country side the sky red is all i saw before i blacked out feeling the edge of my life falling apart was the hardest part to deal with i still had no real choice but to let my life go and im sorry for pushing her so far away from my heart i was so blind to see the her falling apart as we drove away pulling up and literally just kicking her out the door of that truck was the hardest part and if i could I'd turn back time to where we still had each other