I'll never forget when I came home, I had so many butterflies in my stomach. It had been only half a year since we'd seen each other. Phone calls weren't the same, and sleeping in hotel bedrooms alone always felt so strange to me.

I knew this was going to be the normal, as long as I'm working for Steven and he's touring. I asked Steven a couple of times if Guns could open for their upcoming tour. They were already starting to dominate the music scene and he wanted to feature other bands who were trying to get their foot in the door. Which made sense. I just wanted more opportunities to be around Slash as much as I could.

We were laying on the couch together," I missed you so much," I said.
"I know baby...you know what I missed?" he said, literally trying to reach for my chest with his hands, "these in my face."
" Woah dude, careful!" I laughed, " They're a little tender these days."
" Fuck, that doesn't mean somethin' bad does it?" He asked.
" It most likely just means its time for my monthly cycle."
" You're bleeding?" He asks, " Fuck, just when I wanted to get busy tonight..."
" No babe, I said it could be, not it is. Im perfectly okay right now."
" Shit thank god...because its been way too long since I've even touched you." He chuckled, trying to unbutton my blouse.
" You know I've been doing a lot of thinking...I mean we have a home, were married now, we're becoming successful...I would say we're ready for kids, wouldn't you?"
" I mean we could be, but you gotta remember we're both on the road a lot...it may be hard to fully commit, you know?"
" I could take some time off. We could make it work if we really wanted to..."
" You really want a nappy headed kid running around our house huh?" He chuckled, setting his cigarette on the ash tray.
" I really do babe, don't you? Don't you wanna see what a mini you looks like? Maybe they'll be musically inclined...We fought so hard for the things in our life, I think this is the next step. And you know uh...my birthday is coming up soon and this right here is the biggest wish I have."
" Well shit, its a good thing were good at practicing makin' babies anyways," he went in for a kiss and then stopped, " If were gonna have a kid, you have to promise me you'll get level headed with the fact that we could loose it okay? Shit happens, its always a possibility. Im not saying I want it to happen, but its happened before. Let's fuckin' learn from it, okay? Its pretty serious. You promise?"
" I promise, baby...I promise."