It was such a nice feeling.

To wake up with Lars Altaria beside me, that is.

The first thing I did in the morning was to check myself under the sheets. I was still dressed. Nothing happened between us yet.

And then I spent the next hour admiring the man sleeping soundly beside me. Sir Lars is such a beautiful man. You can tell that he takes good care of himself just by looking closely at his face. Makinis na balat, magandang tubo ng kilay, at malambot na mga labi... He's so neat and clean.

"Ang gwapo mo naman." I whispered then poked him with one finger on his cheek. "Hindi ako makapaniwalang pinatulan mo ako, Sir Lars."

Just when I was about to pull my hand away, he suddenly bit my index finger. I gasped when Sir Lars opened his eyes and looked straight at me.

"Good morning, Sir." I nervously greeted him.

"Hmm." My finger was still in his mouth.

"Uhm," I panicked. "Why are you biting me?"

He ignored me and licked my finger. "Moya..."

My cheeks reddened. Seriously, that's such a lewd gesture... It doesn't help that he's calling me like that, too. It's making me feel a lot of things!

"What are you doing, Sir Lars?!"

"What am I doing?" patay-malisya niyang tanong.

Once again, my finger brushed against his teeth. I closed my eyes and bit my lower lip to stop myself from making sounds. Is he seducing me now?!

"I'm perfectly sober right now, Moya." He told me when he let go of my finger. "Shall we do it?"

Napabuga naman ako ng hangin. "Sir Lars, I'm only realizing it now... but you're quite a horndog."

"I won't deny that." Sir Lars chuckled then buried his face on my neck. "But you're the only girl who excites me like this so please understand, Moya."

If it were the old me, I would have fainted from all the attention that Sir Lars has given to me. Thanks to him, I learned to love myself little by little.

Ngayon, mas nangingibabaw na sa akin ang saya sa tuwing pinaparamdam niya sa akin na maganda ako. I'm starting to regain some of my lost self-confidence.

I brushed my hand through his hair. "What if I tell you to wait until we get married before we do it?"

"I don't mind getting married," His lazy eyes peeked on me. "What if I ask you to get married tomorrow so that we can do it asap, Moya?"

I shot him a horrified look. "Do you seriously want to have sex with me that much, Sir Lars?!"

"Honestly, yes. You turn me on so much."

Napatakip ako sa mukha dahil sa sobrang hiya. Even though he lost his memories, his talent remains the same: to make people uncomfortable!

"Let's save this discussion for another time." sambit ko at bumangon na sa pwesto ko.

Sir Lars held my hand. "We're getting up already?"

"Maghahanda na ako ng almusal." sagot ko.

"It's like we're newlyweds." Tila kinikilig na sabi ni Sir Lars. "Waking up beside you in the morning, cuddling a bit before preparing for work, and you cooking breakfast for me... I love this so much."

Biglang bumangon si Sir Lars at niyapos ako muli. Ipinatong niya ang kanyang ulo sa aking balikat. Napangiti ako. He's still the same touchy Lars.

"I don't even need my memories to know," I could feel his breath on my skin. "I love you, Moya. Your finger's empty for now, but I'll put a ring there soon."

My eyes watered with tears. This guy, seriously...

"You're gonna make me cry, Sir Lars." biro ko.

"Then cry. As long as they're tears of joy."

As soon as he said those words, my tears fell. I've never felt this loved and wanted. I spent my life thinking that no one needs me because I wasn't good enough... but that's not the case anymore.

That day progressed as usual, with Sir Lars busy working on his paperwork. On the other hand, I assisted him by receiving calls on his behalf and arranging his appointments. So many work to do...

The next few days became even busier since we had to hold the photoshoot for the next magazine issue. Again, I was in charge of the food distribution. This time, however, the food was kept on the second floor. The pictorial this month was more large-scale, so there was no extra space.

Napanguso ako. Hindi ko tuloy makita si Sir Lars.

I went to the bathroom a few minutes after the photoshoot started. Karamihan ng mga tao ay nasa taas, kaya naman laking gulat ko nang makasalubong ko si Genesis.

"Oh," He looked at me indifferently. "It's you."

I smiled politely to him. "Hello, Genesis."

"Hi." tipid niyang sabi at umiwas ng tingin.

I know he's only here for work, but his presence still made a part of my heart uneasy. It would be weirder if I weren't troubled. While Sheila was the paranoid ex, Genesis was the wild ex of Sir Lars.

I even witnessed them doing it once, didn't I?

Bigla akong namula sa naalala ko. Napatingin sa akin si Genesis at napataas siya ng kilay.

"Why are you blushing?" pagtataka niya.

I gulped. "I just remembered something."

Sandali siyang napatitig sa akin. Makalipas ng ilang segundo, napangisi si Genesis at humakbang palapit sa akin.

"I know what you're thinking, Miss Aria." His face leaned closer to mine. "Should we reenact it?"

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. What does he mean?

With one last grin, Genesis left me on the second floor. I'm telling you, that guy's bad news...

Nakaramdam ako ng lungkot dahil sandali ko lang nakita si Sir Lars at hindi rin kami nakapag-usap nang matagal. Sinabihan niya rin ako na mauna nang umuwi dahil hindi pa sila tapos sa pag-edit ng mga picture. Well, Sir Lars is a perfectionist by nature and he values the process very much.

"Huh?"

On my way home, Sir Lars sent me a message saying that I should head to his unit instead. He's not the type to change his plans last minute.

I wonder why.

Still, I complied. Sa halip na umuwi, dumiretso ako sa unit ni Sir Lars. Wala naman sigurong masama kung pupunta ako ngayong gabi.

Habang hinihintay siya, napagpasyahan kong magluto muna ng makakain namin. Baka gutom din siya pag-uwi niya. Siguradong pagod din siya.

Maya-maya, narinig ko ang pagbukas ng pinto. Mukhang dumating na siya. Sasalubungin ko sana siya ngunit napatigil ako nang mapagtanto kong hindi siya nag-iisa.

"So, what do you want? Make it fast, Genesis."

I blinked twice. What is he doing here?

Sa sobrang taranta ko, napatakbo ako papunta sa kwarto ni Sir Lars at nagtago. I can't believe I'm inside his closet again. I don't even know why I'm hiding in the first place!

Nagpigil ako ng hininga noong pumasok silang dalawa sa kwarto. Medyo kumirot ang puso ko dahil hinayaan lang ni Sir Lars si Genesis na sundan siya sa loob. Well, they're family...

Besides, Sir Lars doesn't remember that he dated Genesis for quite a time. So I guess he doesn't feel awkward to be in the same room with him. I hope that's it.

"You wanted to tell me something about Suna, right?" Sir Lars asked impatiently while undoing his tie. "What is it? Did she talk about your brother again? Honestly, I've never met Uriel, but he's done nothing but cause trouble to my sister."

Hindi ko maintindihan ang usapan nila.

"No, no. I didn't come here to discuss about that." Genesis replied. "I'm here to talk about us, Lars."

The next scene caught me off guard.

Genesis boldly placed his hand on Sir Lars.

On his manhood.

Just like me, Sir Lars was momentarily stunned. However, as soon as he recovered from the shock, he quickly pushed the hand of Genesis away.

"What the hell do you think you're doing, you scum?" Sir Lars growled, obviously violated.

Genesis persisted. "I'm trying to help you regain your memories, Lars. Aren't you tired of playing with your doll? It's about time you return to me."

Sir Lars was taken aback, but he tried to composed himself. "What are you talking about?"

"I'm saying that we used to fuck each other."

I panicked on my spot. What am I supposed to do in this situation? Should I go reveal myself?

Technically, I'm his girlfriend. Of course I don't want anything to happen between them... but I think they also need to talk. Sir Lars needs to know the truth about their past relationship.

Sir Lars chuckled dryly. "Don't give me that crap."

I gasped when Genesis went down on his knees right in front of Sir Lars. Don't tell me that...

"If I do this, will you be able to remember, Lars?"

There was a mixture of confusion, discomfort, and horror on the face of Sir Lars. To say that he was shocked would be an understatement. He was utterly bewildered.

"Wait, what are you..." His voice croaked when Genesis unzipped his pants. He stopped his hands once again. "What the hell, Genesis!"

I don't want to be here. What should I do?

Genesis hissed. "Now that you have a girlfriend, you're finally throwing me away, Lars? Is that it?"

Sir Lars was rendered speechless.

"You do realize that you're no different from Hana if you do that, right?" Genesis said in a low monotone. "Leading me on then dumping me for no good reason... That's cruel, you know?"

"Fucking hell," Sir Lars cursed. "We dated?"

Napatikhim si Genesis. "You shouldn't have turned me gay if you were going to dump me like this."

At that point, Sir Lars was evidently filled with guilt, and a spasm of pain crossed his face. He was a kind person. The idea that he heartlessly threw someone away didn't sit well with him.

Genesis attempted to kiss his body once again. This time, Sir Lars stopped him more gently.

"I'm sorry for everything that I have done." Sir Lars remarked with all sincerity. "However, we can't do this anymore. I already have a girlfriend."

"Oh, Aria." Genesis whispered. His face darkened at the mention of my name. "You fucked me with that bitch on your mind, you know? I think I deserve an apology and a little compensation."

The silence that followed was suffocating.

"Lars, at least let me do this before you leave me completely." Genesis pleaded then touched him once more. "Believe me or not, I did love you."

Sir Lars didn't resist anymore.

I could see the guilt and tiredness in his eyes.

I sat there for half an hour, watching another guy give my boyfriend a blowjob. The truth is, I could've stopped that from happening if only I came out and revealed myself to them.

Pero hindi ko nagawa. Wala akong nagawa.

It was all due to my own fear and guilt.

I was afraid that Sir Lars might change his mind about me now that he knows about his ex. And I was guilty towards Genesis because I felt like I stole someone important to him. I wasn't exactly a third party, but still... They were lovers till I came.

"Get out of my sight." Sir Lars stated firmly as he laid lifelessly on the bed. "We're done. Don't show yourself in front of me ever again."

Genesis didn't say anything. He simply left.

Meanwhile, Sir Lars stayed on his bed. There was no sound or movement from him for a while. His forearm was covering the upper part of his face, so I could only see his mouth.

Soon, he broke the silence with his cries.

"What have I done?

My heart broke into pieces.

"I'm sorry, Aria..." he said in between sobs.

I listened to him cry the whole night. I resented myself for not doing anything. Hindi ako makapaniwalang pinabayaan ko lang sila dahil pinangunahan ako ng takot at pangamba.

When Sir Lars finally calmed down, I saw him calling me. Fortunately, I had my phone with me and it was on silent mode. I quietly answered his call.

"Sir Lars..."

His face softened at the sound of my voice.

"I'm sorry. Did I wake you up, Moya?"

I took a deep breath. "Sir, I want you to turn around. But if you see me, don't say anything."

I opened the closet just as Sir Lars turned around with a stupefied expression. His face blanched.

"You were there the whole time?"

I ignored his query then wrapped my arms around his waist. Sir Lars stiffened instantly.

"Moya, did you see everything?"

Hinigpitan ko ang yakap sa kanya. "I did."

"Then, why are you..."

"Because I love you, Sir Lars." Tears streamed down to my cheeks. "I don't care about Sheila, Hana, not even Genesis. I only care about you."

I lifted my gaze to him.

"I'm sorry I didn't come out earlier. But whatever happened tonight, all three of us were at fault." malumanay kong sambit. "I love you, Sir Lars. That's the only thing that matters to me."

His eyes welled up with tears.

"You're not mad at me, Moya?"

I closed my eyes. "How could I be?"

Sir Lars kissed me softly, like he was begging me for forgiveness. But after everything that happened, I'm done holding myself back. I don't even know what to do with these feelings anymore.

His hands touched me affectionately. My body burned with every touch of his fingertips. At this point, it was going to happen and none of us can stop.

"Moya," Sir Lars groaned in frustration. "If you don't want to do this, let's stop while I'm still on the right mind. Please."

A small smile dawned on my face. "Let's do the honeymoon in advance. We can get married tomorrow if you want, Sir Lars."

"Alright," He smiled softly. "Let's do that."

That night, we drowned in each other's kisses and fell asleep hand in hand. I will never forget the first time I gave myself to him. The way he called my name with pleasure, the way he looked at me like I was the most desirable woman in the world.

"Sir Lars..."

"Hmm?"

"Who did it better? Me or Genesis?"

His nose wrinkled at my question, but he still answered anyway. "You, of course. It was awesome and I loved it, so prepare yourself."

He planted a soft kiss on my head.

"You're gonna do it with me forever, Moya."

---

Genesis is such an asshole loool.

By the way, I think some of you haven't read the first two stories that came before this, namely You're Blooming the Wrong Way and A Burnt Flower's Ashes, so you might not be familiar with some of the characters.

The twin sister of Lars, Lucy Altaria, is the heroine in YBTWW. Suzanna Irenea, or simply Suna, is their half-sister and the heroine in ABFA.

Other characters such as the Shiota brothers, Hana and Haru, are also in YBTWW, while the Adriano brothers, Uriel and Genesis, are in ABFA.

Sorry for the long note loool just wanted to give some of you an idea of who they are so you can relate with Lars more.

Anyway, keep safe!

Yours Truly,
Aomine-san