"over again" january 15, 2023

verse 1

have you ever felt like

you were drowning while still standing on the shore?

and all it smells like

is that sickening salty scent of your reflexive mourns?

pre-chorus 1

i don't know how i'm still here

only meant to stay a couple years

and now my biggest fears

are chasing after me

and i pretend that i've found

somewhere happiness abounds

that nobody sees around

i thought i'd be dead by now

chorus 1

but it's okay, i make the same mistakes

over and over and over again

now i'm wasted and i feel nameless

doing it over and over again

over and over and over and over again

verse 2

when you lost your balance,

was it easy to get back up?

or did you lie there on the ground waiting for it to end?

when your mind's malice

decided you were fucked,

did you give in?

pre-chorus 2

some things are better dead

some messages left unread

some thoughts left unsaid

some demons under the bed

i honestly don't know how

i'll ever find my way out

the thoughts are getting loud:

"you should be dead by now"

chorus 2

but it's okay, i make the same mistakes

over and over and over again

now i'm wasted and i feel nameless

doing it over and over again

over and over and over again

over and over and over again

over and over and over and over 

and over and over and over again

bridge

like the thoughts entwined, the universe divine

i can't find my high anymore

the person maligned, perpetrator undefined

they won't try to unwind anymore

the beautifully designed, and the marvelous confined

no place to hide anymore

the blind leading the blind, all senses are deprived

no tears left to cry anymore

chorus 3

but it's okay, i make the same mistakes

over and over and over again

now i'm wasted and i feel nameless

doing it over and over again

but it's okay, i make the same mistakes

over and over and over again

now i'm wasted and i feel nameless

doing it over and over again

the perfect model turned out to be awful

but still i'll follow over and over again

church bells chiming, what perfect timing

while i'm dying over and over again

-lol depression