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Luke Patterson

It's been almost two weeks since our first concert as a band signed to a major record label. Amazing isn't it?

I suppose, anyone in our position would be absolutely ecstatic, going out to celebrate, attending major after parties, booking gig after gig, spending time in the studio.

If I'm being honest, the boys and I have only been doing two of those four things.

Well at least, speaking for myself only, the only time I've been willing to leave the house was when we had to be in the studio.

Since that day in our dressing room bathroom after the concert, it's really clear that something has been bothering Tanna, and a lot.

Seeing her face and eyes red, dried tears along her cheeks was something I absolutely hated seeing.  It broke my heart seeing her that way and not knowing why.

She never did tell me what was going on when we got home. She found ways to avoid it by distracting me or keeping us all busy so I wouldn't get the chance to question her but I knew there was something wrong.

She doesn't talk as much as she used to, she doesn't leave the house much but when she does she doesn't really mention where she's gone off to and no matter how much I wanted, no needed to know whether she was okay or not, I knew privacy meant something to her and I wouldn't force it out of her unless she wanted to tell me.

She would tell me when she was ready right?

She was comfortable enough around me to trust me with anything right?

"Earth to Luke?" I snap my head up, taking my gaze off of the table and focusing on Alex.

"Mmh?"

"What's got your mind so occupied." I sigh, knowing he knows exactly what's on my mind constantly, rather who's on my mind.

Of course Alex and Reggie have noticed as well, but they don't see the way she shies away from my touch, completely opposite to the way she normally craves it.

They don't see her at night when instead of wanting to keep close to me, she prefers to keep her distance and stay faced away from me or the way she'd rather stay in her own room, not even wanting to come to me anymore.

What they can see is the effect that this is all taking on me, whether they realize the extent of Tanna's actions or not, they can definitely notice how worried I am all the time.

"Go home Luke." Once again, Alex's voice brings my focus back into him, seeing him and Reggie's gaze on me, their eyes full of sympathy.

"I- I really want to, but if th-"

"We'll cover for you." Reggie says pointedly, as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"Yeah man, now go home. It's not doing you any good sitting here and worrying." I nod slowly, stopping my leg from shaking as I drag my palms along my jeans.

"Thanks guys." I breathe in deeply as I stand up, grabbing my keys from my pocket as I make my way out of the studio and towards my car.

Everything is going to be okay Luke.

Although that's something I want to believe most right now, I can't seem to bring myself to go with it.

The car ride was silent, I didn't turn the radio on, but maybe I should have. Maybe it would have been better than listening to my overbearing thoughts swirl through my mind constantly.

After pulling up into the driveway and making my way inside, I slowly make my way upstairs, looking for Tanna along the way.

My heart tightened with worry as I made my way to her bedroom, seeing her own bed messy, yet it was missing one thing. Her.

Maybe she wasn't home.

I sighed, my mind hoping she was okay wherever she was as I made my way over to my own room.

As soon as I walk inside, my eyes wonder over to my bed, the sheets no longer intact from when I made the bed earlier.

They were all bunched up, curled around her tiny figure as she laid on my bed wrapped in between the sheets.

My heart ached as I sat down next to her, careful not to wake her. Her eyebrows were furrowed inwards even while she slept, making me wonder what was bad enough to plague her mind and take every sense of peace away from her.

I lifted my hand, carefully caressing the side of her face, desperately wanting to feel her skin against mine.

"Luke?" She mumbled in a very sleepy state and I couldn't help but smile at the sound of her voice.

"Yeah baby, I'm right here." It's like as soon as she actually knew I was there, her whole body froze, making my hand on her face freeze as well.

I quickly took my hand away, not wanting to upset her, no matter how much it hurt me that that had become her reaction to my touch.

She opened her eyes, slowly sitting up and pushing her knees up to her chest, at the same time moving herself slightly further away from me, probably thinking I didn't notice but yet again, it caused another pain to shoot through me.

"Aren't you supposed to be at the studio?"

"You weren't answering your phone."

"So you just left early?"

"I was worried." Her eyes widened slightly at my words, her lips parting gently as she was about to respond.

"You don't need to worry about me."

"What are you doing in here?"

"Oh, um, I'm sorry, I'll leave, I just- never min-"

"Woah, woah, stay." My words were quick, desperately wanting her to stay. This is the first time she had been in here in the last week, well of what I knew of at least.

Maybe she was getting comfortable enough to speak to me about what's going on.

She nods hesitantly, stilling her actions completely as she avoids my gaze.

"You need to be at the studio Luke."

"The only place I need to be is with you." I take a chance, hooking my hand underneath her chin to tilt her head up at me. "What's going on baby?"

Her eyes start pooling with tears, making my eyes widen, immediately pulling her into my chest as she starts to sob.

Tanna Carson

"Baby?"

"I- I can't, can't stop the tears. I'm sorry, I'm trying bu-"

"It's okay, it's okay, just breathe with me yeah? You don't have to be sorry for anything. I've got you."

"I- I don't know." After a while, I try to gather my voice just enough to break the silence.

"You don't know what Tan?" His voice was so gentle, but I could hear the concern clearly in his tone.

"I don't know what's wrong." I try explain once again, my next words coming out just above a whisper. "I'm scared Luke."

His grip tightened around me as he heard me utter those words and I couldn't help but melt into his touch, it's something I've missed the most in these last weeks.

"I'm here." His words made a huge wave of guilt run over me. I have done nothing but push him away over the last two weeks, but he's still right here beside me, no questions asked. "How about I run you a bath to relax?"

I pull back slightly, wanting to look into his eyes and I feel his body tense at the loss of full body contact.

"I'm- can you join me please?" I whisper, needing his presence more than anything right now.

"If that's what you want baby." He leans forward, pressing a soft kiss to my forehead before moving away to go run the water. "We'll figure this out together yeah?"

I nod guiltily once again, watching him turn around and walk into the bathroom.

Of course I know what was going on but one lie wouldn't hurt anyone.

Right?