its almost 4am pls forgive me that this chapter is so,,,,.. shit

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Taehyung was gone all evening.
After he dropped Jungkook off at his apartment and brought him to his bedroom, he headed outside and didn't show up for a whole 5 hours. Jungkook got bored, as usually, and decided to break the one rule Taehyung had given him; to stay in his own damn room and not do Jungkook-things for once.

Right now Jungkook was sneaking through the small hallways within the tiny apartment to get into Taehyung's bedroom. Somehow he felt as if he had every right to get in there. It's not like he wanted to sneak around, all he did was curl up in Taehyung's blankets that smelled so much like him. The boy closed his eyes, pressed a pillow to his chest and smiled happily. Being surrounded by Taehyung's sweet scent, knowing he laid in the bed he'd hopefully get fucked in later-, it almost made him forget about all the horrible things he brought onto them.

"What the hell are you doing in my bed?!", Taehyung yelled out when he came back close to midnight and found Jungkook asleep in there. He had given himself a minute to admire the boy laying there, nose a little scrunched while he had the brightest smile on in his dreams. Jungkook looked amazing while sleeping, Taehyung had always been weak for it.
Yet he yelled him awake right now because as so often Jungkook wouldn't listen to what he would tell him.

"You have your own bed, Jungkook", he grumbled and pulled the blanket off Jungkook, throwing it to the ground.
"Yours is better", the younger whined, eyes still shut but his arms wide open. "Come here", he mumbled sleepily, wishing for Taehyung to join him in the bed and give him the cuddles he thought he deserved.

Taehyung felt like panicking because this sight made his heart skip and his knees feel weak. Just a few weeks ago he would have given anything to get into those arms and hold the small boy all night. Right now it just gave him anxiety.

"Jungkook, please. I'll book you a hotel room if you won't get out of there", Taehyung said sharply. "I mean it."

"Why are you like this", Jungkook sighed and finally opened his eyes, sitting up. He eyed Taehyung who stood there, posture a little awkward because he had a couple of bags hung around his arms.

"What's that?", Jungkook asked curiously, trying to get a glance of what was inside those bags.

Taehyung didn't say anything, he just put the bags to the side and then hold the door open for Jungkook to leave him alone. Well, he thought.
Jungkook may have gotten up by now but his way didn't lead out of the bedroom, he just straightup went to the bags and opened them.

"You really have no shame", Taehyung tsked, crossing his arms. "Did you ever hear of the word privacy?"
Jungkook didn't reply, his mouth just fell open at the sight he got from there.

"Of course you didn't, you read my whole fucking diary and spilled my sexuality to the public, privacy is not in your dictionary", Taehyung sighed and then walked over to Jungkook and grabbed the bags, putting them in the wardrobe.
The younger glared at Taehyung, still gasping while cold shivers ran down his spine, "What is all this-"

"This is why you don't open bags from people without their consent", Taehyung patted Jungkook's head and then pushed him towards the door, "Now go to sleep."
"What are all those things-", Jungkook was still thinking of the many things he had seen in those bags. "Are those-"

"Yes", Taehyung said sharply. "And I'm not afraid to use them on you if you won't leave my bedroom right fucking now."

Jungkook literally squeaked at that.
And then pushed his pants down and rushed back to Taehyung's bed, laying down with his legs spread.

"What the fuck", Taehyung let out, eyeing the boy in confusion.

"I'm not leaving", Jungkook said in the smallest voice, "Looks like you have to-"
He didn't get any further because Taehyung walked over with his strong steps, grabbed the blanket from the floor and pulled it above them when he got into the bed, hovering on top of Jungkook. He pressed their lips together, stopping Jungkook from talking any more bullshit. It was so tiring to listen to this boy and his dumbass.

Kook however let out the happiest sigh, wrapping his arms around Taehyung's body to pull him as close as possible. It felt so good to feel those lips again, the craving inside of him got deeper with every passing hour. Now that he got a taste of those lips again, after months of starvation-, they felt so much more intense to Jungkook. His head got all dizzy, his tummy filled with butterflies and his mind kept spinning around just one thing;

Taehyung.

Taehyung grabbed the bed sheet beneath Jungkook, clenching his fist to control himself from getting too much into all this. He was scared of feeling too much around him. While Jungkook was finally ready to let go of his anxiety towards literally anything, simply enjoying Taehyung's closeness-, Taehyung was the one who struggled with trust now.

As much as he loved kissing those pretty, plump lips, it also gave him goose bumps all above his skin.

How damn scared he was of falling for those sparkly eyes all over again, how fucked up could this boy get him? Loving Jungkook was like riding a rollercoaster, you never know when it drops, but you also never know beforehand how amazing it can feel to get dropped down.
Was that how it felt to fall in love with a toxic person?
Taehyung was pretty sure of that.

"I can't do this", Taehyung backed out, pulling away from Jungkook. He sat up on Jungkook's body and stared at the wall in front of him. "Why?", Kook asked in the tiniest voice, eyes all dolly and glittery. "Did I do something wrong?"

Taehyung nodded, "Yeah. I'm going to leave you, Jungkook. None of this matters anymore, do you hear that? Stop trying-"

"Trying what?", Jungkook tilted his head.

"Making me fall back in love with you", Taehyung snapped at him, "We're so fucking over."
Jungkook pulled Taehyung back in with grabbing his collar. The older was way too weak right now to resist, so he let Jungkook pull him down, making eye contact with him. Taehyung's lips were trembling and his eyes filling with tears, "I'm going to leave you", Taehyung repeated, voice cracking when he felt Jungkook's hot breath against his lips.

"Then tell me one thing", Jungkook whispered, his tone so soothing that it got Taehyung's heart racing. "Why did you pick me up today?"

"To help you", Taehyung stuttered, "To keep you safe."

"Why? I don't deserve any of this and you know that", Jungkook said calmly. "You don't have to push me away, Tae. We can be fine now."

"No", Taehyung shook his head, "We can't."

Jungkook sighed heavily and pressed his head back in the pillow, letting out a little groan, "Come on, Tae. Why can't we?"

"Because you got everything you want", Taehyung said quietly, looking away as a tear fell down his dark lashes, "And I lost everything I wanted to keep."

"Tae-", Jungkook cried out, "I'm sorry. But is losing me too really worth it?"

Taehyung nodded, "Yes, because none of this is love, Kook."
"Of course it's love, Taehyung!", the younger cried out, "All of this is love. We're in love, we always cross ways eventually, we always end up in the same bed. We're meant to be, we-"

The older shook his head, brushing through Jungkook's hair while his mind dazed off for a few seconds, then he started speaking, "No", he hummed, "We're literally nothing but bad for each other."

"How can it be bad if it feels so good to be close to you?" Jungkook's eyes were begging for Taehyung to press their lips back together, wishing to be held and loved all night long. But at the same time, his mind knew that this wasn't going to happen.
And Taehyung only confirmed this with what he was about to say;

"Because that's how toxicity works."

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If you thought that was it for this night, you thought wrong.

It was around 3am when Taehyung was sound asleep, dreaming of small puppies and happy summer days when a certain someone sneaked back into the bedroom. He closed the door as quietly as possible, hurrying over to the bed. His bare feet left small noises on the wooden floor, making him flinch with every step, he did not want to wake up Taehyung to avoid another fight.
But he couldn't sleep, so he shyly lifted Taehyung's blanket and crawled into the bed. He snuggled himself next to the older, put the blanket down on both of them and just remained still, praying inside that the older wouldn't wake up and just let him stay for the night.

Jungkook was still haunted by nightmares of Taehyung with someone else, they kept him from sleeping all the damn time.
Right when he thought everything worked fine, he felt two arms wrapping around his body, pulling him as close as humanly possible. For a second it was hard to breathe because Taehyung pulled him so close that Jungkook could literally feel the older's heart beating and his dick pressed against his butt.

So that was it with sleeping for tonight for sure, the boy couldn't think of anything else except for this one thing he felt pressed against his ass.

"Jungkookie wait for me", Taehyung whispered against the younger's neck, still caught up in his dreams while Jungkook's heart lost it at those words. Was he dreaming of him?
Fuck, Jungkook let out the happiest sigh, wiggling his butt a little against the boy's dick. Not to make him horny but because that was his reaction to happiness coming over him.

He heard the older letting out a slight moan, "Baby", the older let out, his voice all raspy. "Come here", he hummed again, smiling as he nuzzled his head in Jungkook's neck, leaving some neck kisses there, as if he'd be awake yet he did all that while dreaming of Jungkook and him.

"Sure, you're gonna leave me", Jungkook chuckled to himself, amused by Taehyung's dreams.

He felt Taehyung's hands making its way downwards, "Are you sure", he hummed, "We're outside-"
Jungkook gasped, "Taehyung, dude!", he let out in disbelief, "Are you planning to fuck me in public in your dreams", he whined, shocked by the older's wild dreams.

Then it was too late and Taehyung had his hands sliding into Jungkook's boxers, shyly touching his length which made Jungkook moan out loudly, way too much tension loosening up with that.

"Wait", suddenly Taehyung's tone changed and he lifted his head, pulling his hand out as quick as possible. "Jeon fucking Jeongguk", he groaned out and then kicked Jungkook out of the bed.

Kook let out a scream as he fell to the ground and pulled the blanket with him, hugging his knees when he was on the floor, "Thanks for that", he hummed annoyed. "I'll sleep on the floor then."

"You have your own bedroom!!", Taehyung said, cheeks red in embarrassment, "Can't you just do for once in your life what I want you to do?"
Jungkook remained silent and looked up to the older who sat upright in the bed and tried to control his boner.

"I fucking hate you", Taehyung hissed at the younger, "What are you doing here?"

"I couldn't sleep", Jungkook admitted, "I feel better when I sleep next to you."
"What did you do the past few weeks where I wasn't around?!", Taehyung grumbled, "Did you sneak into other bedrooms as well?"

Jungkook shook his head, "I didn't sleep much in that time", he said in all honesty. "Can I just stay here for the night please-"

"No, get out."

Jungkook rolled his eyes, got up and laid back down in the bed, "Fuck off, Taehyung."
"Excuse me?!", Taehyung smacked Jungkook's ass, trying to push him off but Jungkook grabbed one of the bags and pulled out handcuffs, leaving Taehyung in shock.

"Wait what are you doing", he said anxiously, staring at the boy fiddling around with those cuffs. "Don't you dare-" He knew that the smaller one was way more muscular and stronger so if he wanted to he could easily-
Well, Jungkook put those handcuffs around his own wrists and then tied himself to the bed, he had the key pushed into his boxers and now just stared at Taehyung, "Looks like you can't get rid off me now", he said with a big smirk on his babie face.

"You're insane", Taehyung commented, "Cuffing yourself to my bed when I'm mad at you is such a huge mistake", he said.
"Why? What you're gonna do? Fuck me? Oh no, how terrible. Let's go", he said sarcastically.

Taehyung let out the biggest sigh and then just ripped Jungkook's pants and shirt off his body and left him naked there. "Spread your legs", he demanded and Jungkook immediately did so. Then the older did something quite unexpected, he got in between those legs, wrapped his arms around Jungkook and pulled the blanket above the two of them.
Then he just stayed still, put his head to Jungkook's chest and used him as a pillow. "Goodnight, Kookie", he hummed sleepily.

Jungkook was confused.

"Wait? Aren't you gonna fuck me? Dude I'm literally tied to your bed oh my god, just go for it-"
But he didn't get another answer, he just saw Taehyung's eyes falling shut and him drifting off to sleep.

"Wait, can you maybe uncuff me", he asked quietly, "Dude I can't sleep like this-"

No answer.
Just Taehyung going back to his wild, wild dreams. On top of Jungkook.
The younger wide awake.

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the next chapter will probably be nothing but smut im sorry im advance