</3

***

"So what do you want to do for the rest of the day?", Taehyung asked softly, brushing through Jungkook's hair. They sat outside on the balcony and enjoyed the afternoon sun. Jungkook was snuggled in Taehyung's lap, head leaning onto his shoulder while he enjoyed the soft touch he earned for the past hour. "I still want to have an answer to my question", Jungkook pouted, turning his head a little to stare into Taehyung's eyes.

The older sat there calmly, a smirk playing around the corners of his lips while holding eye contact with his impatient boyfriend. "Oh, you would like to have that answer, wouldn't you?", he teased and now started brushing along Jungkook's thighs, hands making their way up to his middle and then back down until he reached his knees.
"Why did you tell my parents we are getting married?", Jungkook sighed, biting his lips while he tried his hardest not to get distracted by Taehyung who never gave him a break. He constantly had his hands on him, teasing him with every second the boy was awake.

"Well, we are going to get married someday, eventually, aren't we?", Taehyung asked.

"Well, yeah but you haven't even proposed to me yet-", Jungkook let out looking a little puzzled, "What if I would say No? You can't just go around and tell my parents we will marry when you don't even know if I want to-"

"Do you want to marry me?", Taehyung rolled his eyes, asking the question as if it was the most normal thing to ask out of nowhere.

Jungkook gasped, trying to control his heartbeat, "Of course I want to-"
"See", Taehyung chuckled, "So we're going to get married."

"B-but", Jungkook stuttered, "I want a real proposal, I always dreamed of something fancy and with ending up crying and-, and I want flowers-"
"You want a lot for being such a naughty boy", Taehyung said, slowly opening up Jungkook's zipper, "Guess you will have to wait for a real proposal then."

"Are you saying-", Jungkook inhaled deeply, "That you will propose to me?!"
"Someday for sure", Taehyung shrugged.

"Oh come on", Jungkook whined, "This is torture, I just want to know if we will get married soon or not because there is a lot to plan and-"
"You deserve a little torture", Taehyung hummed, voice turning a little cold, "Remember how you ruined my life?"

"Y-yes but", Jungkook let out quietly, "I'm sorry for all that and I thought we were moving past that-"

"And we are", Taehyung grinned, "But trust me, I'm going to ruin you just the same first."
That almost got Jungkook a heart attack, his body turning numb when he heard Taehyung saying that, "W-what do you mean? Please don't break my heart-", he begged, clinging onto Taehyung, "I swear I will be the best boyfriend ever but please don't break my heart Tae, you're the only one who could do that to me."

"I'm not going to break your heart, what the fuck", Taehyung laughed out, "You didn't break my heart either so-"

"So what else do you mean?", the younger asked anxiously, "Please don't hurt me-" There were tears in the boy's eyes by now and that made Taehyung actually feel a little bad so he just leaned forwards and hugged his boyfriend tightly, "You're ruining all the fun for me right now, stop being a crybaby-"

"Taehyung, oh come on", Jungkook hummed quietly. "Don't do that to me- I know I deserve it but-"

"Jeon Jeongguk", Taehyung inhaled deeply, "The only way I planned on ruining you was with making you so happy that you will start doubting reality, baby. I might ruin you in bed and give you meltdowns because of happiness but there is no way I will break your heart."
Jungkook was silent, wiping off his tears that fell off his pretty cheeks.

"I finally have you", Taehyung sighed, "I'm not letting anything bad happen to you. The only way you will end up crying with me by your side will be because I will get you horny at the most inappropriate moments and tease you until you break. How on earth would you think I'm trying to hurt you on purpose?"

"Because I deserve it."

"You ruined my life, yes you did. But you did all that only because you're madly in love with me. And so am I, Kookie. I'm in love with you so don't you dare cry ever again because you think I will hurt you on purpose, okay?"

The younger was still quiet, sobbing even more now while clinging onto Taehyung's chest and hugging him as tight as humanly possible.
"I just want one thing in return, okay? Then we can leave the past behind and focus on ruining each other in the best way possible, alright?"

"W-what thing?"

"I finally want to talk. I want to tell my version of the whole story. I want you to understand that you got it all wrong from the beginning. I want to clear my conscience."

Jungkook's eyes widened, "That's all you want?"
"That's all I ever wanted, Kookie. I just wanted you to listen to me but you never really did."

"I'm sorry", Jungkook whispered, "I'm so sorry, Tae."
"It's okay, just let me speak okay?", Taehyung asked softly, "Turn around", he then asked Jungkook and made him turn around on his lap so they were directly facing each other, "I want you to listen to every word I say and I want you to never ever doubt my love for you ever again, is that clear?"

"Y-yes."

"Good because if you doubt me ever again I will seriously leave you and never come back, understood?", Taehyung sounded so serious right now, it gave Jungkook shivers everywhere down his back. He nodded quickly and took the older's hands while making eye contact with him, "Okay, tell me your side of the story, I will listen to every word you say." He smiled shyly and so did Taehyung, "Thank you, baby", he leaned forwards and pressed a kiss to Jungkook's lips.

The older inhaled deeply and then finally started speaking what had been capturing his mind for so goddamn long,

"Let's start in the beginning, before I even got to meet you. I want you to know the real thing that went down with me and my ex-girlfriend. I know you always thought she was the one I loved and always will but trust me when I say, I don't think I ever truly loved her. We got together because of our companies, it was good for the media and we were visually looking good together, that's the reason we got introduced to each other. At the time I thought I fell for her, I mean who wouldn't? Jennie has always been a pretty girl. Thing is, neither her nor me knew what love really felt like.

That was until she met Lisa, I didn't want it to be true but I saw my own girlfriend falling in true love with someone else but I couldn't do anything about it, so I denied it to myself and everyone else.

When she died, the problem was solved without actually solving it, I thought I would never get over her.

I saw my friend, Yoongi, having this amazing thing with his paid boyfriend, Jimin. I thought, yeah maybe I can have that too. Someone to spend time with, someone to fuck without actually having to feel things again. I was so afraid of getting hurt again, Kook. That's why I just wanted someone for sex.
Well and then you walked in. You were nothing like what I was looking for, Kookie. I fell in love with you the second I met you. At the time I didn't even know how it felt to be with a boy but you were there and fuck, you made me feel all kind of things. I have never felt any of these things with anyone ever before, so that's when I figured out I never loved before.

But we both know how much of a little brat you are, I was scared of falling too hard for you and you not feeling the same, so I always kept it lowkey and waited until you made it clear that you loved me back. What I didn't know was that you have no clue what love feels like as well. All you ever got told was that you're too much and that you need to stop feeling so much. I realized that you indeed feel a lot when you got so obsessed with the thought of me being in love with my ex. Which I wasn't. I haven't thought about her ever since I met you. It's been you from the very first day, you made me so happy and I didn't know how that feels before as well. You showed me love and happiness.
But neither of us knew how to truly show it. I thought I did enough, but it apparently wasn't enough for you, which I understand now. You want more than just sex, you always wanted someone to have you sitting in their lap and just brush through your hair for countless hours. You're not too much at all, you just want the most simple things in life that no one ever gave to you.

I only realized that when I lost you.

But I was stubborn and thought to myself that this isn't my fault at all because you never let me talk. Now I know that this is on both of us, we weren't ready to talk back then. We're both very tense people and we think too much into things that aren't meant the way we think they are.

Look at us now, you fucked up again with being too obsessed with your thought of me being with someone else, hell you even ruined my job and my career just because you love me so much. And that's when I finally got it, you just want to be loved. And I love you a little too much, Kookie. We balance each other out, you're too much and so am I, yet we're both not a lot at all because together we're just right. But what we really need is trust, you have to learn that you are the person I want to spend my life with, you are the one I fell in love with. No one else. And I have to learn that you need to be loved to have this trust, not pushed to the side.

So let me tell you one thing, Jungkook; fuck my job. Fuck my career.

There was never room for a relationship.
Fuck all of this, let's get a place on our own somewhere far away and just be happy? Can we do that? Just you and me.
We can get the most usual jobs, maybe I'll end up being a bartender or something and we get to live the most normal life, but at least we get to live it together?
Do you want that?"

Jungkook was speechless.

"Koo-", Taehyung giggled nervously after finishing his speech, "Say something-"
Jungkook let go of Taehyung's hands, put them on his cheeks instead and just pulled him in for a kiss, their lips melting together as perfectly as they always did.
This kiss lasted for quite a while, until Taehyung pulled back and looked his boy in the eyes once again, "What do you say to all of that?"

Jungkook bit his lips shyly, looking down for a second and then back up, cheeks flushed red as he finally started speaking;

"Let's marry right away."

***

love how some of u thought breaking him meant something bad
is it so hard to believe that i let my characters be happy for once </3