this chapter is for all the multis out there <33 haha

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2am – Jungkook and Taehyung laid in bed together, eyes fixed to the ceiling because none of them dared to look at the other. It just hurt. During the whole flight here, they had remained silent and only stole glances at each other when the other wasn't looking. Taehyung had cried a few times but Jungkook was trying to ignore it.
Those tears weren't real, he was just sad because he had nothing to fuck anymore. It wasn't because he actually felt the same, right?
Jungkook hadn't cried, he just felt his heart aching in pain all the time.

They had arrived at the huge hotel and went to their suite, luckily unseen by anyone.
But not even in here they talked. When they realized there was only one bedroom with a double bed, both sighed but didn't argue over it. Showered, changed in bed clothes and now here they were-, laying here for almost two hours. None of them was able to sleep, heads full of thoughts they wanted to speak out but didn't know how.

None of them had expected that breaking up would hurt this bad, even though all they had was a sex contract. Nothing more than that, right?

"Jungkook?"

Taehyung's voice was the first to break the silence between them that had lasted for too many hours.

"Yes?"

"I can't sleep", he mumbled, voice numb. Darkness surrounded them because they held the curtains closed and the moon couldn't shine in. But Taehyung knew Jungkook was close enough, he could hear his breathing that was still going way too rapidly, so he couldn't be asleep either.

"Me neither"

Jungkook smiled sadly, facing the wall now when he turned his back to Taehyung. He didn't want to look at him. Because the tears were already filling up his eyes and he had no intention of crying tonight. Not with Taehyung right beside him, so close yet so far.

"We could still work this out", Taehyung whispered through the dark, turning towards to Jungkook's back and just kept looking at it.

"How?"

The older thought to himself for a while, "I don't even know why you don't want this anymore, Koo. Fixing it would work if I'd at least know your problem."

Jungkook didn't say a word, he just started sobbing and pulled his knees to his chest, hugging them softly. He looked tiny now, Taehyung's heart hurting when he saw Kook's shoulders shaking. "Koo, please just talk to me-"

"I just don't want you anymore", Jungkook lied, "Coming to New York was a mistake, I want to go back to my parents. All of this is wrong, you're the biggest mistake I ever made", he tried to put all his pain into anger, firing it against Taehyung. Jungkook wanted the older to take the pain from him, he should handle all this. Jungkook didn't want it. It was too much.
Taehyung gulped, not saying anything. Being called a mistake was something he had heard before and coming from Jungkook only made it even more hurtful.

"Did I do something wrong?"

"Everything about you is wrong!", Jungkook suddenly got up from the bed and turned towards Taehyung, turning on the lamp on his nightstand. "No one asked you to mess me up but here we are, I'm crying over a guy who just wants me for sex when all I want is to be the one he wants to marry", Jungkook cried out. "And I hate you for that."

"Jungkook I-"

"No shut the fuck up, Taehyung!", Jungkook was about to lose it. "I don't want to hear anything. I regret making this contract with you, I wish I never slept with you! You made me fall in love when all you care about is some dead bitch and your job. You and me we can never be together because you're still caught up over some bitch who cheated on you. You can't come out either because you just won't, so we can never be together in public because your job is so important. Well, I get it. Maybe if I were in your position I'd only want a fucktoy too, but I'm too good for that!"

"But, Koo-"

"No fuck off, Taehyung", Jungkook yelled out, "I'm in love with you and I hate you for that. I'm going to get drunk now, don't you dare follow me."
And with that he grabbed some jeans and a shirt, put it on and slammed the door shut behind him. There he was, the old Jungkook who would just get drunk and do something embarrassing. Taehyung knew he should go after him. Just in case he'd say something in front of anyone or mentioned his name, it could easily get out to the public if drunk Jungkook made one mistake. But at this point, Taehyung was too tired to even follow him. He asked him not to and he didn't even let him talk once, he just ran out after dumping his feelings on him. It just felt wrong to run after him when Jungkook clearly didn't want him to.

So Taehyung stayed in bed this night, crying a little more while his world just seemed a little too heavy.

Jungkook however found the hotel bar which was quite well visited tonight. His way immediately headed towards the hotel bar where he sat down and looked at the cute bartender who stood in front of him. He had brown hair, a precious smile and was looking at Jungkook's tears a little shocked. "You good?", he asked worried.
"No, can I have a beer", Jungkook asked him, wiping away his tears.

"Sure", the guy said and prepared him a beer as quick as possible. Jungkook was about to pull some money out but the boy only shook his head, "Nah, it's free for you. You seem to have had a rough night."

"Wish it had been rough in a good way", Jungkook chuckled sadly.

The guy's eyes widened because he didn't exactly want to know that much detail. He just nodded, "I'm sorry for you that it wasn't the good way."

Jungkook looked at him for a while, he kept preparing drinks and smiled at everyone wholeheartedly. There were a few girls who melted just at his sight and even a few boys looked a little too long at him. Maybe he just looked too good.
"Hey what's your name", Jungkook blurted out. He had no one else to talk to anyway.

"Jeno, yours?", the guy asked.

"I'm Jungkook", Koo introduced himself, sipping on his beer. "I'm gay", he then felt the urge to say.
"Good for you", Jeno laughed, "What has that to do with your name?"

"I'm with this actor", Jungkook said bluntly, "Kim Taehyung! Do you know him?"

Jeno didn't even look surprised, he just nodded, "Sure, he's a good actor. Watched some movies, heard he can sing as well."
Jungkook's eyes went big, "Why don't you look surprised?"

"I saw you coming here together", he laughed, "And I don't really care that much if someone's gay. I hope you two are happy-"
"We're not", Jungkook said, "We broke up before we came here."

"But still go on vacation together?"
"Yeah, I don't know why. I'm going back to LA soon."

Jeno nodded, "Okay, that's nice. Hope you'll find happiness there, Jungkook", he gave him another smile while cleaning some glasses. Everyone who came here always had some story to tell, longing for someone to listen, so Jeno always listened, giving them some warm words and then just went on with his day.

"Can we hook up", Jungkook asked directly. "You're hot and I need to get my mind off Taehyung-"

"I'm not gay-", Jeno sighed, "Sorry, bro."

"Oh that's fine", Jungkook blushed a bit, "Bro", he added, trying to seem cool after being rejected. "Can I get another beer?"
Jeno laughed and then gave him another beer, without charging any money again. To be honest, he felt a little sorry for this kid. Being in a relationship with a celebrity never was a fun thing, it always hurt more than it brought happiness.

"Hi", another voice appeared behind Jungkook and when he turned around there was a guy with black hair and one of the most handsome faces ever. "My friend over there is too shy but he really likes you-", he hummed and pointed towards another boy who sat all across the small bar, golden blonde hair, the softest facial expressions ever and literally looking like an angel.

"Oh?", Jungkook asked confused while Jeno in the back looked a little worried. He knew for a fact that Jungkook was in a mood where he actually would do anything to get rid of Taehyung in his thoughts. Even hurt another boy who probably really liked him.
"Yeah, I'm Hyunjin by the way", the black haired guy introduced himself.

"Nice to meet you", Jungkook shook his hand and then looked back to his friend, "And who's he?"

"That's Yeosang", Hyunjin introduced his friend. "You should come over and say hi. Really. He's sweet-"
Jungkook nodded and got up from his chair, waved Jeno and said, "Bye Hottie, I'll never forget about you!" And then walked with Hyunjin back to Yeosang who sat there, looking a little shy when Jungkook approached him.

"You think I'm cute?", Jungkook said straightforward and sat down next to him. "You're cute too."
The blonde blushed a little, "Oh, thanks-"
"And I'm gay", Jungkook added, "Are you too?"

Yeosang nodded slowly, "Uh-, bi"

"So we can hook up?"

"Jungkook", Jeno groaned from behind him, he had left the bar and headed over to the boy who was literally way too direct right now. "Sorry man, he's being a dumbass tonight", Jeno apologized. "You can do better than him, trust me", he hummed towards Yeosang. The boy looked completely overwhelmed, "But he's hot-", he let out, looking at Jungkook.

"Yeah but stupid", Jeno sighed, "And he's taken."
"Yo I told you we broke up", Jungkook snapped at the other. "Stop ruining my chance on dick-"

"Bro", Jeno grumbled, "Let's go."
Jungkook sighed and then said, "Yeosang give me your phone number I'll call ya."

The boy nodded slowly and quickly wrote down his number on a paper he found coincidentally. Just like a pen.
"Don't get your hopes up too high", Jeno sighed, feeling sorry for Hyunjin and Yeosang because they had to deal with Jungkook's dumbass. "He's in love with his Ex."
Yeosang nodded a little disappointed and Hyunjin only rolled his eyes. He hated those guys who were caught up with their Exes.

So Jeno dragged Jungkook away and sat him back down at the bar, handing him another beer. "You, my dear, are going to stay right here and don't go break other boy's hearts just because you got yours broken, is that clear?"

"What are you? My father?", Jungkook grumbled, pissed off because he missed out on a chance to get laid tonight.
"No, but I feel sorry for your boyfriend."

"Great, just go and fuck him. Maybe you're more his type than I am because he doesn't even like me back. And now you ruined my chances on getting my dick sucked. The least you can do is suck me off now!", Jungkook got a little angry but Jeno stayed calm, sighing to himself.
"I'm still not into guys", he explained, "And how does your boyfriend not like you back if he's your boyfriend?"

"Because he still likes his Ex", Jungkook hummed, "I read his diary and it's full of her name."
Jeno went silent, staring behind Jungkook while the younger kept rambling, "He literally wrote so much about this bitch, he even cried over her. Then he cried at a photoshoot when he got reminded of her and it's never me who makes him cry, y'know? I want to be cried over too. I want to be in his diary too. I want to be the one he loves, not this dead bitch."

Jeno still didn't say a word, biting his lips a little while he still hold eye contact with the person behind Jungkook.

"And the most annoying thing about Taehyung is-", Jungkook inhaled deeply, feeling a little dizzy because the alcohol hit him well after not eating all day, "He's everything I ever wanted. And I can't have him because we can never be together. He's so pretty but intimidating at the same time and when I look at him I want to spread my legs but also open my heart, it's so weird. I never felt like this before and now I'm here with him and before we laid in bed together and I really wanted him to hug me and hold me but he just didn't and I hate this."

Jeno sighed and now the person behind Jungkook stepped forwards and sighed as well.
"Kook, it's enough now", Taehyung grumbled, his eyes were reddened from crying and his hair a mess. He was even just wearing his pyjamas even though he stood in the hotel bar where dozens of people were who probably knew him from TV.
"Let's go to bed, come on", he said tiredly, not even smiling.

Jungkook gulped dryly.
"Did you hear all that-"

"Yeah", Taehyung sighed, "Let's just go, okay?"

There were already some girls coming running towards him, screaming for autographs and grabbing their phones but Taehyung only looked at them for a bit, "Please just don't, okay?"
The girls put the phones away but looked at him worriedly, "Are you alright, Taehyung-oppa?"

Jungkook cringed at that, jealousy coming up.

Taehyung sighed, "I'm here privately, I'd prefer if there weren't pictures of me in pyjamas all over the internet."
The girls smiled and said sorry.
"Are you coming now or not, Jungkook?", Taehyung turned back to the boy who just sat there, fists balled as he watched the girls. He was way too close to tell them that Taehyung was his, but he kept his mouth shut and just got up. "Mhm", he groaned and then headed out of the bar, followed by Taehyung.

God, this little shit.

"So why did you had to ruin my night?", Jungkook snapped at him as soon as they were in their bedroom again. Taehyung quietly grabbed a bottle of water and some aspirin and placed it on Jungkook's side of the bed, then went to the other side and laid down, not saying much.

"Hey, talk to me when I'm talking to you", Jungkook growled, and sat down besides Taehyung, refusing to lay down. "We're broken up, you have no right to come to the place I'm drinking at and take me with you."

"Good night, Jungkook", Taehyung only replied and turned the lights off.

"I fucking hate you", Kook sat and pulled Taehyung's side of the blanket away and just used all for himself so the older would freeze throughout the night. Yet he still didn't give Jungkook any attention, closed his eyes and ignored him for the rest of the night even though Jungkook kept rambling.

"And I hate Jeno too, everyone is against me all the time", he laid down and started crying. "I just want to be loved too. Like my Mom said when I was five, she always said someday a girl or a boy will really like me and then make me so happy. She said that when I was crying because I got rejected by a girl in elementary school, so I told her I like boys now. See, my Mom promised someone will love me but no one does, I always just cry and I hate this", Jungkook didn't even think of stopping to talk, his heartbeat going faster as anger built up inside him, muscles tensing up as well.
"Everything just sucks, why can't you just leave your job and-" he stilled for a second when Taehyung turned towards him and just grabbed him by his waist, pulling him close as he wrapped his arms around him and kissed his neck. "What are you doing, let go of me!!", Jungkook squeaked because he hated how his whole body immediately calmed down just by being held by him.
Tears fell of his lashes even quicker now that Taehyung was holding him so tight, pulling him a bit closer everytime Jungkook tried to get out of his grip.

"You can't just-, Taehyung!!"
Jungkook sobbed but Taehyung wouldn't let go.

So at some point Jungkook just gave up and snuggled up in Taehyung's arms, listening to the older's soft heart beat that sounded so steady.

Jungkook had never longed so much for something steady like right now.
And Taehyung's heart was exactly that.

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can I just say that I love yeosang and jeno with all my heart and if u don't know them go stan ateez and nct dream ok bye hope u enjoyed this chapter