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Swara in present :

she was feeling pained seeing sanskar in so much pain still trying to act normal

Sanskar : Shona, Can i please sleep in your lap?

Without any further discussion bolted the door, moved and sat near him and cautiously helped him to keep his head in her lap and started caressing his hairs....She was happy hearing him calling her shona after longtime.......She found his body slightly shivering but before thinking she heard him speak to her

Sanskar : Please move on shona, Get a life for yourself....we both know i won't survive

Swara : (shocked) Sanskar not single word...If its about death i'll die with you and if its life i will live with you....If question is about existence then you are the reason for it...you will be absolutely fine....

Sanskar : I know my condition i'm a doctor dear. Nothing is gonna improve its been deteriorated to the worst in two years. Why you wanna keep false hope...

(He was in pain and his voice was breaking she wanted to stop him but knew he was very admant)

Swara : you want to kill me "kill me" once and for all but don't push me to bear this torture

Sanskar : I just want you to live your life, be happy,smile, get back the lively swara...

Swara : Shayad tum yeh bhul gaye ho ki woh zinda dil ladki swara nahin shona thi sanskar ki princess (I think you forgot that girl full of life was shona and not swara....shona sanskars princess)....main mar gayi hoti par meri saansein tumse judi thi isliye lash bankar hi sahi is duniya main rahi (i would have died but my breath were tied with you therefore i am still in this world like a deadbody)....Dhadkane ruk hi gayi hoti jis din tumhari maut ki khabar aayi par mera dil toh tumhare pass tha isliye jee gayi( my heart beat would have stopped the day i got the news of your death but no my heart was with you therefore i still survived)...

Sanskar : Princess, Yeh zindagi nahin hain tumne kaid kar rakha hain apne aapko humari yaadon mein( swara this is not life you have imprisoned yourself in our past)

Swara : wahi meri zindagi hain (Those are my life) I can't breath without thinking about you i can't sleep without your dream....I don't have anything or anyone in my life except you.

Sanskar was trying his best to convince her but his health and breath were not permissing he started breathing heavily and his body was shivering she held him tight on to herself and started speaking in his ears....She knew its more because of his overpowering drug withdrawal symptoms she was determined to get him back healthy....

Swara : I am alive just because of the intuition that you were alive and breathing somewhere....I live just for you if this motive ends i will die....

Sanskar : (teary eyes broken voice) : You can't di...e till ti... i am alive and nor even after my death you have live fullfill.....

he was now unable to talk she was trying to calm him....His body was craving for drugs though not with his will but those animals had made him addicted injecting him daily....He can't control his cravings he was sweating profusely,shivering,he was in dire pain...She gave him mild dose but still his body needed more as he was continuously drugged for 2 years....He was made slave to drugs....She was trying to make him feel wanted and trying to make him believe his life was very precious it indeed was,as he was her life.....

Swara : Sanskar, I love you i always did and i will always do till my last breath.....I am always there with you no one can harm you....

Sanskar : (hallucinating )See they are here...They will again give me pain.....You can kill me with your love please i want peace.....

Swara : Koi nahin hain yahan main kisiko nahin aane doongi tumhare pass ( no one is around i won't allow anyone to come near you)....I am here with you and only for you....Koi kuch bhi kahe main janti hu ki tum mere ho sirf mere (Let anyone say anything but i know you are mine only mine). Tum chahte ho na mein zindagi main aage badu main jarur badungi (you want me to move ahead in life i surely will)....I will do whatever you say but please don't stress and give pain to yourself....

Not able to see him in pain she knew she had to divert him this talks were not helping her.... she just held his head in a place touching her forehead to his, then her right hand placed on his cheek which was in her lap gave a loving look into his eyes and crushed her soft lips against his rough ones claiming them gently pouring all her love and care into it....She was caressing his hairs....She was trying to suck up all the pain through her kiss....her hands were moving on his chest calming his racing beats and trying to hold him from moving vigrously.....

He was shocked and resisting because he had gone through a very painful time with this desire...Her love and calmness was overpowering his senses and he was forgetting everything looking at her....He started responding slowly and was feeling relaxed....he had turned red,But was calming in her arms as if finding solace.....she was cuddling him in her arms like he was a small baby scared of a nightmare....She left when she found his body loosen up she wiped his sweat with her dupatta...later,she tried to make him lie comfortable on bed but he was holding tight on to her and was not ready to leave so she sat there resting her body against the back rest and closed eyes remembering there life before they got separated.....

Swara (mono) : Thought of getting away from me gets you in vulnerable state and you are all set to leave me....I don't know what you are thinking...I would never listen to you, i did it once and almost lost you...Now you are back and would always be mine...

Swara's past flashback (moments with sanskar) :

Sanskar :Princess where are you get ready fast all are waiting...

He was standing at the end of the stairs keeping track on his watch.....She was alighting the stair looking beautiful in her formal attire a tight black short pencil skirt till her thighs with formal satin cream shirt completely buttoned having a bow at the collar.....With black netted tights covering her legs......., carrying her graduation gown and cap....She was busy setting her high heeled D&G pair of sandals and throwing her curls back ...Her lightly blushed smoky eyes and pink glossy lips were making her look super sexy...a simple stud in the ear....she was talking non stop

Swara's attire for her graudation ceremony.....

Swara : Wait dear this your choice of ultra modern pair is so difficult to carry.... i would fall if these pairs wobble a bit and everyone in the auditorium will laugh at me....I hope you don't want to become a joke...

Sanskar was just mesmerised seeing her and looking at her,its usual everytime she decked up he would fall for her beauty...This is the first time she wore something so modern and revealing..Why not it was her graduation ceremony and dress code had to be followed...Moreoever sanskar had specially got it designed as per his taste.....She stumbled a little turned on the long stair was about to touch the surface of the hard stair but, he immediately withdrew himself from his dream world and was their holding onto her protectively..Her eyes were tight shut in fear when she found herself held she opened her eyes and looked at a concerned sanskar...

Swara : I am sorry not use to these pencil heels....I would have fallen if you didn't get me on time...

Sanskar : i would never allow you to fall princess.....helping her stand and helped her to put her sandals sitting on his knees...

swara ( was smiling looking at him) If anyone sees this would have a choked to death...

Sanskar : would you mind telling me the reason for your dangerous thoughts....

Swara : The great "Sanskar Maheshwari" business strategist business tycoon handling multi million Maheshwari business empire ,top neurosurgeon sitting on CEO post of Maheshwari group of hospital most eligible bachelor is setting sandals of a random girl....headline would just crash the complete share market.....laughing loudly

Sanskar : you have rather become lioness scared chic....I don't care of the share market and headline but how can you address yourself as a random girl... You are my breath, my only reason to live,my princess,my soul....don't you ever dare to address yourself as that...Your are My shona only mine... I have complete right to take care of you even if it meant to falling on your feet i would do it.....

Swara (teasing ) How about me not getting committed to you and marrying some other rich handsome guy...I would get loads now afterall, I am a doctor that too studied in London...

Sanskar : Good for you then you won't have to bear a arrogant, busy, pre occupied person....As for me It will be the last day of my li....

keeps her hand on his mouth....

Swara: don't even think about it in your dream.

Sanskar : Don't even tease me on that topic....You know i can't survive even a second without you my neuron....

Swara (smiling): As if i can... You have just got into my head like a drug, you are an addiction.....For now enough of your romance lets go before the gang comes here and bangs our head....

Sanskar : Finally swara you have done it... Gently pecking her forehead....After todays graduation ceremony you'll be pronounced as a doctor....I am so proud i can't imagine even after the issues you pulled it off

Swara : I have just fullfilled the dream you saw for me....I can never let you down....I would never leave your side....You matter the most never try to hide anything from me....Whatever it is we will fight together....

Sanskar : Ok neuron, forgive me for hiding about my health i just did not want to stress you...

Swara : What happened finally you landed up in hospital with me worried and scared to death a day before my finals...

Sanskar : Lets forget and move on dear neuron because (looking at phone) everyone is set to kill me...

Reaching the venue she saw all the girls drooling over sanskar who was in his cream colour armani with Royal blue satin shirt and Police glares complimenting her look....She possessively held his hand and got inside...She was topper of the year and won awards for her achievements...Her thanks giving speech was more over sanskar appreciation who was watching her as a proud guardian why not he was her guardian angel....Finally when she came down from dice and forwarded her hand towards sanskar but then.....

Present:

She came out of her wish land when she felt sanskar move in her lap and opened her eyes to see sanskar in slumber she shifted him on bed and went near the balcony the sky was geared up to embrace morning with its hues expressing its eagerness.....it was cool and breezy with fragrance of flower spread across giving her nostrils a delightful knock of morning....Her eyes were puffy red due to all the crying....She just closed her eyes and sat on the swing trying to calm the turmoil inside her....reasoning herself for sanskars behaviour...The sanskar who could not live without her for a second wanted her to move on with someone else.....

Her chain of thoughts broke with the knock on the door....she moved and unlocked the door....It was murali standing there tensed...

Swara : What happened?

Murali : Something urgent would have to report to the headquarters, shamoli is sleeping thought to inform you.Also, wanted you to know Adarsh bhaiya has reached kolkatta.......

Swara : Hmm fine you go but you will be back right...

Murali : yes, by afternoon i am taking charge of sanskars case with your permission so i would be around...

Swara : Thats good, i am worried for him

Murali : Is everything fine?

Swara : No i have a strong feeling he is still hiding a lot of things which we need to know. he asked me to move on.

Murali : what are you saying? You must be joking? he can't live without you we all know that but...

Swara : Cutting him i know thats why now i really want to know the reason but i am sure he won't spill the truth by himself. He is trying to protect something or someone.....

Murali : You didn't talk to him at least talk to him try once...

Swara : Not after he told me baby is his and Kavita's.....Afterall he's The Sanskar MAheshwari who can do anything on cost of his life to protect others.....

Murali : What the hell? is he trying to potray a happy life spent with kavita in this two years with a baby. He seriously needs a reality check

Swara : Hmmm seems so......you move otherwise you will be late....

Reason to live..... When we have thousands of reason to give up just get that one reason to live....Its like getting breath while sinking....surely very important part of survival may be a strong reason for living till death embraces.....