possible venting? its a rundown of the last hour at the time of the first sentence.

A vivid moment.

Battling one of the kids in Pokemon White, Pansear vs Oshawott. The MandJTV video titled 10 Pokemon Changes I Wish Never Happened playing in the background.

The door to my room opening, revealing my mother.

Being told that they called an ambulance because my brother was having a seizure or something. Being told that one of them was going on the ambulance with him and that I'd get a call.

The door closing.

Finishing the Pokemon White battle, and doing one more, another kid with a Panpour vs my Oshawott before realizing I can't go on like this. Saving the game. Pausing the video.

Sitting in silence.

Fifteen minutes pass.

My dad telling me they were taking my brother to the Hospital.

Another fifteen minutes pass.

The longest half of an hour in a long time.

Looking at Life 360, too lost in my mind to leave my room.

Waiting for someone to leave the house.

Finally, my mother and brother leave.

My Dad, getting ready to leave. Me, being unsure if I was going or not. Turning off my brother's lights in his room. My Dad, asking where a power bank was.

Me, throwing a box and charger, with my phone still connected, into my jacket pocket. My blanket, turning me Frogidier-esque.

My dad, asking if I'll go to bed at a reasonable time.

Me, answering with a yes.

My dad, leaving.

Me, melting down as soon as he left.

Checking Snapchat, where earlier I had posted a blank story with the words: im scared

A friend, replying with Stay Scared 😌, as my friend group tends to joke with things that may sound serious.

Me, filling them in.

Them being concerned.

My uncertainty.

Now, laying on the ground in my room, which has a makeshift second bed on the floor, typing this.

Still unknowing.