Honestly, I feel worse about people being upset around me (ex: about a death) than the causation itself.

Like, today, for example, we put down our dog of 17 years. I've been kinda like whatever about it because it was her time. She wouldn't eat and couldn't walk. She was going to die regardless. Although, to be fair, I didn't go to the vet with them.

But then, after my parents got home, my Mom was sobbing in tears. That made me feel like I was supposed to feel sad and, in turn, made me feel guilty that I "wasn't feeling sad like I was supposed to."

It's weird.