This is a bit of a rambly rant thing, so please skip if you want.

I'm too brutally honest about how I feel I think.

I just got told off by my mom to not be rude after I expressed disdain for sleepovers after a friend, who was already over, invited herself to spend the night. (Although apparently her parents are back from where they were going, something I didn't know)

This isn't the first time something like this has happened either. I got told to just be grateful for something my aunt gave me that I already own. Not Christmas 2021, but Christmas 2020 my mom told me to fake gratefulness for gifts.

If I were given the option between honesty vs kindness, such as a value, I'd probably choose honesty. I feel as if I value honesty more than kindness, whereas everyone around me values kindness more.

And I know there's the whole "Treat people how you want to be treated" but maybe I want to be treated with this type of honesty. It reflects a person's feelings without any sort of sugarcoating. Just tell it how it is.

And I also know there's a relationship between kindness and honesty, and of course I try to be both when I can, but honesty tends to be the victor when they go head to head. I know one can't exist without the other, but I also feel as if there are situations where they can be opposites.

I also don't use it as an excuse to say whatever whenever, as I'm actually pretty quiet about my opinions most of the time, and since no one asks, nothing happens. But whenever I do, it's always at what seems to be the wrong time.

Every person has flaws, and I'm pretty confident this is one of mine. Another is getting caught up in thinking about very specific things I think about (ex: this, why the fuck do formal events exist?, etc)