LOVE....Its something that i have always yearned for.

Even if its fake. A little bit of admiration, a simple compliment can make my day. 

Its been like this ever since my brother, none other than Kim Jonghyun left the world. I started living with my step mother Kim Lila and my step sister Kim Yeri. Yes Jonghyun Oppa was my step sibling too but he never made me feel like i'm not his own sister.

My Oppa was the only one who actually loved me and admired me to the fullest. My mother is an Indian and was forced to marry my Appa after she saved him from an accident when he was travelling in India. I was a part of a mistake. Ever since my maa died everyone except my Oppa treated me like shit. Even my father. 

But then i met him. My love of my life, the most important person in my life. My husband Min Yoongi or better known as BTS's Suga.

Once again life played a merciless game with me. The man that i'm committed to, married to , bound by vows is in love with someone else. To be more clear he's in love with my sister Kim Yeri.

 How pathetic am i to have a life like this huh! We've been married for about 7 months now because that was my brother's last wish before leaving us. Suga was his friend and he thought that getting me hitched would've been the best thing to do, but to think of it , it was his biggest mistake. He knew i've always had feelings for a certain lazy grandpa, thus, his decision but what he didn't know was that Suga has always been in love with my sister and married me only to get close  to her. Suga cleared everything out for me once we came back from the reception right after our wedding.

Now its been a few days, two months to be exact that they've been dating , oh! and also sleeping around. What's sad is that i've caught them a few times during action in his bedroom. The only thing that i could do is simply go up to the terrace, look up to the sky and cry my eyes out calling out my Maa and my Oppa. I don't blame Oppa for anything.  It's all my fate. 

I'm a pathetic excuse of human as Suga likes to call me, who does not deserve anything in this world except for tears and sadness.

If you're wondering if Suga had always been like this? Then let me tell you No! 

It all started after 1 month of our marriage when  he started talking to my sister more and giving her more attention. The lies that had been fed to him by my Step Mother and Step Sister about me is what he believed at the end of the day.

Life has always been a mockery for me. I am not allowed to speak to anyone, it's not like i have any friends to talk to. The only thing i am useful for is to tag along with Suga to his company parties or a few award ceremony's as his trophy wife just cause i'm Kim Jonghyun's sister.

No one really knows what happens in our life everyday, not even his band mates. I'm sure it wouldn't have made any difference seeing they are his best friends. I'm not even allowed to talk to them even if i've seen them around at parties and award shows. I think my attitude has probably led them to think that i'm a snobby little bitch just like my Step sister. Oh yes! I do use bad words sometimes cause why not? I'm supposed to be able to do at least somethings in life right?

Its not like Suga is going to read what i'm writing here? 

I've given up everything, every little dreams of mine, SO if you ask me if i think that Suga is ever  gonna love me back , then my answer is No!

I would never even dream about thinking that he's gonna love me back. I'll just sit aside and keep loving him forever, even after he leaves me for my step sister after a year of our marriage. Just 5 more months to go. 5 more months to be with him. 5 more months to stay by hus side as trophy wife when he goes out for parties and awards. 

His world is a big one. Where his got his band mates, his family, his fans, his work people , my step sister even my step mom...... Everyone except for good ol' me....

I, Mrs. Min Anaya is just a LOST case in his big world...

Let's see where the upcoming 5 months takes us....... 

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A/N    Hey guys this is me Anaya here... This story is something that i've always wanted to write but just didn't have time . This is also like a tribute to the great KIM JONGHYUN who is Anaya's brother in this story . To clear doubts Yes Yeri from in this tory is Yeri from Red Velvet but no offense to her. I actually like her a lot. As per SUGA's character i know he's not like that in real life... It's just the storyline of this story

And those who think this story is a typical One Sided love story or Arranged marriage story then you're in for a ride ... Cause it's not....

Stay tuned for more updates...

    Love you Shookies!!!