I've just walked home and was about to call Rafaela. My phone beeped a sign of a notification, I looked at it was an email. From the one and only, Jane. But it was a new email, not the same one on my phone.

"Hello Dave,
How are you holding up? How's life? Long time no speak.
I am sorry to send you this out of the blues but I just had something I wanted to say to you ..."

I dropped my phone out of the excitement, of course she wants us to get back together! A little late if you ask me but I will take it of course. I hastily got my phone from the floor and continued reading.

" I don't have feelings for you, never have and never will"

Wait what?

"Our time together was great and I had lots of fun but that was it for me, I never planned to live my life with you and you simply wasn't what I wanted, nor good enough for my taste. I am sorry . I hope this gives you closure.

Not yours but nothing else to say ' Yours'
Jane"

To say I was devistated was not even enough, the words felt so... fake. She couldn't say that to me, TO ME..

A lot of people think men don't get emotionally sad and they start to eat icecream and Netflix as a sort of coping. And that's true. I don't eat ice cream in front of Netflix, I eat 3 Big Macs and play some FIFA on my playstation.

After what felt like an eternity, I went to sleep but that didn't come easily. I was just turning around my bed all the time. What Jane said kept running in my mind. Why would she say that? And why would she say after a whole year of our break up? Something gotta be wrong, perhaps she tried to convince herself with what she said to me because she's trying to enjoy her new relationship but she can't because of course she's still in love with me!

Yes, that was the reason behind the email, denial. Now, I feel even more motivated to go after her and tell her I love her back. Yet till, I am not going to go on my own, oh right! Rafaela.

I searched for her number on my phone and dialled.

"Hey, Raf"

"Who's this?"

"It's Dave, of course"

"Are you serious? It's the middle of the night? Mr. Artist doesn't have that 8 to 4 kind of job type but the rest of us do, let me sleep"

Rafaela was the worst person if you woke her up, she cherished her sleep more than anything, one time in high school  I woke her earlier than usual and she punched me, like actually punched me.

"Do you think you can take a time off work? A sort of vacation."

"Vacation? Why?"

She sobered up a bit and I felt her moving around. She is fully awake. A miracle.

"Okay, I am just going to be honest with you. I am going to get Jane back, you know Jane my ex? I started dating her in college. Anyways, we dated for so long, seven years but then we broke up. I am still in love with her and she needs to know that before she dive into a new relationship"

Silence.

A lot of silence.

"Raf? You there? Don't tell me that you slept"

"No no, I am awake. And no.

"What's the last no for?"

"I can't go with you."

"What? Why?"

"I can't take time off work."

"Raaaff, I am sure you can arrange something, it will be maximum 10 days, it would be an awesome chance for us to catch up. I am buying the tickets and everything. You just have to come with me. Please, Ben can't go and I sort of don't have any other friends."

"Ugghh, I will try but I am not promising anything."

YES!

"That's the spirit!" I said with too much of an enthusiasm.

"Hey, it's still the middle of the night and I still have to go to work tomorrow, bye."  And she hung up.

I slept with a wide smile on my face.