'It's like... 4 o'clock. Still 4 hours until we have to meet Guy' you thought looking at the moon shining through the crack of the curtains. Your attention shifted to the silver haired male sleeping besides you, one arm lazily over you while his other supported his head.

Kakashi had the habit of letting go of you as the night proceeds, but always remains in contact in some way. Now it was an arm, other times it's a leg, sometimes just his back against yours. It was quite nice to not be smothered.

With expert skill you snuck out of the bed without waking the sleeping Jonin. You gathered your clothes and dressed in the Livingroom before going out in the fresh morning air. The wind licked at your bare skin, causing shivers to run down your spine. A smile crept on your lips, your knees bending, bracing your body.

A spurt of energy running through your muscles had you taking off into the forest. A cry of joy left you. Your eyes wide open to the world around you. Different layers appear before you. Your lips curled into a grin. "Let's warm up!" you grinned. A familiar tug at your chakra had a portal open in front of you. You dashed right through it, closing behind you.

The trees were lavender while the grass was blue. The sky was an ire grey. The atmosphere was nothing short on ominousity, but you only felt joy in seeing new surroundings. A giant tree moved its roots. Slowly unplugging itself from the ground before you. A slit opened, revealing jagged teeth as long as yourself. With a flick of the hand and another tug at your chakra another portal opened. Dashing through it you appeared back in Konoha, only yards up in the air.

A cry of joy and excitement left your lips as you flipped in the air.

Coming closer and closer to the ground you performed hand signs. "Water style: Geyser!" you shouted. A burst of water shot up, straight for you, breaking your fall and with some control of your chakra you had it lower yourself on the ground.

Once down you shook yourself like a dog, which seemed futile. Your drenched clothes wouldn't suddenly turn dry from shaking a bit. With a shrug you walked over to a bakery, knowing one that will be open at 5 o'clock in the morning.

"Good morning Yusha" you smiled. The bell above the door chimed, announcing your arrival. A tiny man looked up from kneading dough. A shy smile adorned his lips, his walnut eyes, with a ring of emerald green at the centre, fell on you. "Welcome (y/n), isn't it a bit too early? Did you go swimming" he mused eyeing your wet clothes, skilfully moulding the dough into balls and put them on the plate for the oven.

"Isn't it always? And something like that" you chuckled and glanced over the fresh baked goods in the showcase. "I'd like... you know what? Surprise me. Put 12 little breads in a bag" you grinned. Your eyes ran over the chocolate croissants, to the cheese sticks, all kinds of sweet and salty treats in between.

"12? Isn't that a bit much for a mere after training snack?" Yusha grabbed a plier and swiftly got to work.

"4 for me and Kakashi this morning and the rest is a lunch, or snack, for three" you explained, forcing yourself not to look at what he put in the bag.

"Very well" he handed over the back and held out his hand. You rummaged through your pockets until you found the pocket money Kakashi had granted you until you would receive your pay check. Yusha smiled and took the money, "have a good day".

"You too Yusha!" you smiled before leaving the small cosy bakery.

By now the moon had left the sky and the sun peeked over the horizon, casting an orange glow over the village. Long, relaxed strides brought you back to Kakashi's house. Peeking inside with your sensing you saw the man still laying in bed. You shrugged and let him sleep until it was necessary to wake him up. Going into the kitchen you put the fire on to heat the pre-made miso soup.

"Good morning" his raspy voice made something flutter. You turned with a smile, "good morning. Slept well?"

He nodded and shuffled over to the pan of soup, smelling the contents. As he sighed content you moved over and kissed his masked cheek. "I brought some fresh bread".

He arched a brow, "how long have you been up?"

"2 or 3 ours" you said tapping your chin in thought.

"You could wake me up" he muttered and put of the fire, serving you and himself a bowl of miso soup.

"You looked peaceful, didn't want to disturb you" you mused, taking your bowl of soup and moving to the table. Inspecting the contents of the bag of bread you picked out four pieces that would taste the best when fresh. You handed Kakashi one of the most delicious, since there was only one.

The man arched a brow, looking at the two pieces. "I thought you prefer this one".

You shrugged and took the bowl of soup in your hands. "You should enjoy it as well".

Kakashi smiled and picked up one of the pieces. "Then don't mind if I do" he mused. You nodded and closed your eyes, sipping on the hot soup.

When you returned the empty bowl on the table you blinked surprised at half of the bread you like. Looking up at Kakashi he gave a sheepish smile, his food completely finished. A small smile appeared on your lips while you took the piece to your lips, nibbling on it. The chocolate goodness filled your senses and a moan of delight left your lips.

"You should have bought more if you like it so much" Kakashi mused, watching you.

"I asked for a surprise bag because I couldn't choose" you answered absentmindedly.

He chuckled and stole half of a piece of your bread. Not minding it one bit you continued eating. Kakashi waited patiently for you to finish before cleaning up the utensils. You stood up and helped him.

"How far is the fire temple?" you questioned while drying the dishes.

"2 days of traveling" Kakashi answered, handing you another wet dish. You nodded and silently cleaned.

"Over here!" the man dressed in a green jumpsuit stuck out like a sore thumb. Izuma and Kotetsu looked at the enthusiastic Jonin as he waved to his two approaching teammates.

You leaned towards Kakashi, "are we actually on time?" your eyes showed your disbelief at the sudden punctuality of the silver haired Jonin. He nodded in confirmation but didn't explain why. You turned Guy with a smile and waved back, less enthusiastic. "Great you can join us on this mission of youth!" Guy exclaimed with a sparkling smile.

"Great to be back" you mused, "ready to go?"

Guy and Kakashi both nodded and bend their knees. You followed their example and off you three went. Dashing through the woods.

Even though your stamina had returned completely, running for 3 hours straight took a toal on your body. Your breath became more elaborate as you tried to keep it under control. Something you didn't want to do was propose a break. That meant giving in that they both had better stamina, which they probably did, but they didn't need to know that.

"Guy".

He turned his head to look at his silver haired comrade. "Let's take a rest by the upcoming stream" Kakashi stated, his eye looking uncaring. Guy frowned in response, "we can still at least get halfway!" he exclaimed encouraging. Your stomach dropped at his mindset. Of course he wanted to shorten the travel time. Of course he wanted to over exert himself. You looked at Kakashi, hoping he won't give in to Guy's stupidity.

His coal eye shifted to you for a small moment before returning to Guy. "We have two days to travel. It's better if we arrive in top condition, instead of tired out from the journey" he reasoned. Guy thought for a moment but then put his thumbs up. "Great thinking!"

You sighed in relief, keeping your eyes on the road.

Relieve filled you as the creek came into sight. It didn't take long for your team to arrive at it. You crouched besides the water and smiled at the clear water, breathing deep through your nose to stabilize your breath. Guy on the other hand was stretching his limbs, preparing to run again any minute.

A gentle hand on your shoulder had you looking up. "How are you holding up?" Kakashi asked monotone, you could see the concern layered behind that stoic expression though.

"I'm just fine, just need a bit of time" you assured and turned to look at the clear creek. "What time is it?" you questioned.

Kakashi paused to look up at the sky, "I'd say it's around 11 o'clock".

You nodded and stood up. With a swift movement you ended up behind Kakashi and rummaged through the backpack. The silver haired male waited patiently until you pulled out the bag of bread and a bottle of water. "I brought some supper" you mused, opening the bag. The smalls weren't warm, but smelled delicious nevertheless.

Guy peeked over your shoulder and smiled broadly. "What thoughtful of you to bring something to replenish our energy!" he exclaimed. You nodded, ignoring his antics and handed both males two pieces of bread. You looked around to find somewhere to sit.

The creek was surrounded by trees. The creek itself was filled with rocks from all sizes, which also covered part of the edges. The trees were your average size, not like the ones at Mount Nekono. A smile tugged at your lips as you spotted a fallen tree trunk. It had mushrooms and moss growing on it, but that didn't bother you much. With a light skip in your step you walked over to it and took a seat, munching happily on the rosemary bread.

Kakashi strode over to you and stood in front of you. You glanced up, wondering why he moved over, but he didn't show any reason for doing so.

After a quiet snack, which is quite an achievement with Guy in the company, your team took off once again. Not stopping until you reached the checkpoint for the day.

Arriving at the small grass field, surrounded by trees, it was still light. The sun was slowly closing in the horizon, warning you that setting up camp had to be done quickly.

"Guy, gather enough firewood for the night. (y/n) gather diner and preferably also breakfast" Kakashi ordered calmly. You grinned and gave a mocking salute before disappearing through the trees.

First you gathered a big arsenal of herbs found in the perimeter. Next you looked for fruits and vegetables, which was less rewarding. You ended up with 4 carrots. At last you set your sense on full range, looking for any wild life.

When you arrived at the camp you had a hare with a kunai wound in it's neck, carrots and a small bag full of herbs. Kakashi had made a place to start a fire and put stumps around it, serving as chairs.

He looked up and smiled, "if you prepare the soup, I'll skin the hare" he spoke. You nodded and put the hare by his feet before pulling a small lightweight pan out of his bag.

When you came back from filling the pan with water, Guy had arrived with a pile of wood, as big as he is tall. You frowned, "did you challenge to gather as much as you could carry?".

"Yes! It's quite a feat if I say so myself" Guy grinned proudly. You rolled your eyes, walking over to him and eyeing the pile of wood. "Well, at least we won't get cold" you mused and looked up at Guy. "Not bad Fuzzybrow" you smiled.

"(y/n)! You remember the nickname you gave me!" he exclaimed happily grasping both your hands. You blinked in surprise. "Eh, yeah, I have all of my memories back" you laughed sheepishly.

Guy laughed as he pulled you into a crushing hug. "That's fantastic! Now you remember our youth!"

You rolled your eyes at him. "Yeah, yeah" you chuckled before wriggling out of his hold. "Try to keep my bones whole okay?"

"Ah" Guy looked a bit uneasy, "sorry". He looked uneasy? Guy never looked uneasy. It also could have been your imagination. I mean, come one, that idiotic dork doesn't understand the meaning of nerves.

"(y/n) did you start with the soup?" Kakashi's voice pulled you out of your thoughts and had you turn around. "I'll start" you announced, going back to the pod with water in it. Some herbs were mauled and put in the pod while others were kept whole to avoid making the flavour to overpowering. Next you began chopping the carrots, which was pretty difficult with a kunai.

"Hn, Asuma's knuckle knives are much better for this" you muttered, cutting the third carrot.

"Don't let him hear it. He'd rather cut with a kunai than his trademark weapon" Kakashi stated.

"Ah, his precious" you mused and began on the last carrot. "Can you start the fire?" you questioned without looking up. Kakashi gave a nod, even though you didn't see it you could hear the rustling of his hands.

A warm wind blew into your face, making you smile. "Thanks" you said and put the filled pod on the fire, placing the lid on top to let it cook for a while.

You stared absentmindedly at the pod. The fire licked at the bottom, dancing along the side as if it was trying to swallow it. "Should I put the meat in?" Kakashi questioned, not wanting to ruin your idea of diner. You nodded.

Your mind wandered over memories. They started out nice. Many times you went to train with Rin, the first time you succeeded in a jutsu, the sparring sessions with Guy, having heated discussion with Kakashi. But slowly you wandered to the darker part of your mind. Clear visions of the memories appearing before your eyes. The masked man in front of your door, his voice deep and monotone. A scream of your own, ringing in your ears.

The bloodied faces of your comrades. Each one of them being precious to someone. Only you, who only had Kakashi left, survived. Only you were allowed a miracle of rebirth. Wasn't that unfair? Shouldn't you be the one to have died there, instead of your team?

"(y/n)"

Your head snapped up, a sheepish smile forming on your lips. "Ah sorry, what did you say?" you excused rubbing the back of your head. The two males frowned at you. "Tomorrow we will be arriving at the temple. I'm sure you know it as well, but a temple has rules and standards which we should respect" Kakashi spoke slowly.

You nodded, "obviously". Your attention shifted to the soup, the hunger you had felt halfway the midday had been replaced with an uncomfortable knot. You lifted the lid of the pod and stared at the boiling meat. "10 minutes" you stated and put the lid back on.

"Where is that book?"

You looked confused at Guy who was focused on Kakashi. He however, looked just as confused as you did. "Wh-"

"Ah! You want to have a duel! Of course!" Guy exclaimed jumping to his feet. Kakashi looked confounded at the enthusiastic man.

"No?" he stated.

Guy frowned and put a hand on his chin in thought. "Then why.... Are you perhaps ashamed to show your youthful book to (y/n)?" he thought out loud.

Kakashi flinched, your eyes focusing on him.

"What book?" you spoke.

"It's nothing really" Kakashi waved you off.

Guy sat back down with a smirk. "It's in his weapon pouch" he stated proudly. He finally saw his chance to take a little harmless revenge on the man who punched him for no apparent reason. Guy deemed it no reason, though Kakashi did have one. Feeding your girlfriend drunk and telling lies wasn't really a part of everyday life.

Kakashi slowly rose from his seat with an unnerved expression. "It's just a book I read from time to time" he excused.

"Then why so uneasy about the matter?" you mused, slowly standing up as well.

A tense silence rose between the two of you.

Suddenly your bent knees fired you towards the tense silver haired male. He quickly dodged to the side, to avoid your hands.

You landed on one leg and twisted with your bodyweight, firing yourself towards him again with your other leg. He dashed to the side, avoiding you once again.

A quick set of hand signs had an earth-clone buried in the ground and one earth-clone standing at your side. You both dashed for the silver haired Jonin.

He managed to fight you both off but still went the way you chased him to. Suddenly hands sprung from the ground and grabbed Kakashi by the ankles. A victorious smirk appeared on your lips. While his focus was shifted to the clone in the ground, you snatched a book out of his weapon pouch and jumped back.

His eyes widened as he dashed for you. The clone turned back into earth, signalling he was too late. "Icha Icha paradise? Kakashi.... I honestly expected more of you" you sighed and threw the book at him. Kakashi caught it and did a quick run over for damages before putting it into his weapon pouch. "It's a good story" he excused and turned back to sit by the fire. You followed after him and sat down on a stump. "That's the ero books written by Erofrog. Good story my ass" you snorted and put the lid off the pod, steering into it with a big spoon.

"(y/n) That smells of youth!"

You looked up with a counfounded expression, "thanks?" You picked the three lightweight bowls out of the backpack and filled each to the brim with soup and added a spoon before handing one to each male.

"Thanks for the food" Kakashi hummed before eating. Guy said something similar and dug in as well. You nodded and took a spoonful. The flavours exploded in your mouth and a soft moan left your lips. "Spartan training with Yin was so worth it" you chimed.

Kakashi glanced up, "if this great food was worth all that" he mused, remembering your complaints about Yin's punishments. You rolled your eyes and pointed the empty spoon at Kakashi.

"Good food can save the day" you stated before returning to devouring the delicious diner. Serving seconds for yourself and Guy since Kakashi actually took his time to eat. By the third portion Kakashi finally had his second serving.

"(y/n) are you okay with taking the first round?" Kakashi spoke as you cleansed the utensils with some water.

"Sure" you answered and got up, "shift divided by three?"

He nodded, "I'll take it over from you, Guy is last" Kakashi looked over at the man who put his thumbs up. You chuckled softly and dried the utensils off. "Then I wish you two a good night sleep" you mused, taking seat on a stump. Kakashi ruffled your hair with an adoring look on his face before he retired to a spot close enough to the fire for warmth but not close enough to get burned by turning.

"Good night!" Guy smiled and dropped down opposite Kakashi, by the fire.

You stared off in the distance, enjoying the cold night air caressing your bare skin. A shift in Kakashi's body had you looking to the side. A frown creasing your eyebrows at the sight of his tense muscles. With expert silence you moved over to his side. He laid on his right side, facing the fire. His back facing you.

It had been about two hours now. It would be another 1,5 hour for the shift change. You glanced down sympathetically. Your hand slowly reached out and rested on his shoulder.

You held back a yelp as his hand suddenly went up and grasped yours. Observing his breathing you concluded he was still asleep. His fingertips were cold against your warm skin. A small smile tugged at your lips as his muscles began to relax, a relieved breath leaving his lips.

'How cute' you mused looking down on him.

1,5 further into the night there had been no changes in the surroundings, only wildlife that avoided the camping place. No humans were detectable.

Gently you shook Kakashi with the hand he had held for the whole time. "Kakashi, it's time" you whispered close to his ear. His eyes groggily opened and glanced up at you. His hand slowly released yours as he sat up, rubbing the back of his head. "Any changes?" he questioned lazily.

"Not in 5 km surrounding us" you hummed and laid down on the spot he had been laying. He turned to you, a smile under his mask. "Thanks".

"Your welcome" you mused and propped your arm under your head as a pillow. The warmth of the fire licked at your skin, you eyes slowly closing while the exhaustion of the day took over.

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Even though i'm so worthless... Even though i carry the blood of a demon...

Thank you, for loving me

Who recognizes this heartwrenching quote?