"So, you are now training the nephew of the hokage?" Ebisu nodded, pride clear in his expression, "And you have your own team like Kakashi" you mused. Guy smiled proudly, "genin of top class!"

You Chuckled as he looked challenging at Kakashi while he just sipped his steaming tea. Your hands were wrapped around the old fashioned cup, enjoying the heat. "I wonder if the Hokage will give me my Jonin title back when my memories return".

"Of co-"

"What makes you think you are a Jonin?" Kakashi interrupted Guy, gaining a frustrated look from the raven. You smirked, "cause I doubt my memory holding self could stand having you guys overtaking me" you mused. "Point taken" he muttered returning to his tea cup which was now empty. How did he do that!

"I hate to say this, but I must be off. I have an appointment to look after Konohamaru" Ebisu excused standing from his seat. You looked up and gave a gentle smile. "Good luck and I'll see you around". He smiled at that, "Until next time" he nodded to both men before leaving the café.

"(y/n) you have to meet my team! I'm sure they will be fired up from your expertise!" Guy exclaimed decisively. A nervous smile appeared, "maybe another time, when I actually have any expertise to share".

Guy frowned, "so be it. I expect you within two weeks. No, one!"

"I can master this move in one week! No, five days!"

You rolled your eyes while lazying against a tree. Guy had been going at that dummy for hours, claiming he had thought of a new technique which you had yet to witness.

"Doubt it" you sighed, tugging lightly at the headband on your arm. "Just wait and see!" he ventured, his attacks increasing in speed.

"(y/n)"

You looked up and a smile appeared. Jumping up you jogged over to the brown haired girl, purple stripes ran vertically over her cheek from her purple eyes. "Rin! You are late" you scolded.

She stuck her tongue out, "you are just early" she giggled. Rolling your eyes you turned to the boy in the green jumpsuit. "I'll be next to this field, I don't need your sweat stench interfering my training" you shouted.

"My sweat- Hey!" you laughed, running off with Rin in tow.

You blinked, "yeah, dream on" you mused. Guy looked crestfallen and pouted, "then when?"

"When enough memories return Guy. I don't know when that is. It's not like we can't see each other in that time though" you shrugged. The odd guy immediately cheered up. "I will see you soon!" he laughed, saluting you and nodding at Kakashi before going off as well.

Kakashi eyed you with a knowing look. "Yes, a memory again" you sighed and slumped in your seat. The memory of the graveyard popping up. You had nodded at a grave with a name sounding so familiar. "So she's dead" you bit your lip, Kakashi leaned in with worried eyes.

"Who?"

You shook your head, not wanting to bother Kakashi until you knew the full story of her. "Nothing yet" you said picking up the teacup and drinking the last bitter sip. He eyed you suspiciously for a moment, sighing in defeat when the memory of your stubbornness crossed his mind.

"Where shall we go now?" he questioned.

"Don't know..." you sighed, "I think I'll train on my own until diner".

"I can help" Kakashi offered but you shook your head.

"I need to figure some stuff out, which I rather do alone". He looked pained at your decision. "Don't look like a kicked puppy or I will actually kick you" you grunted. He blinked, a low chuckle rumbling from his chest. "Alright. Be on time for diner" he spoke, standing up. He paid the waiter and saw you out. At the end of the street you parted ways with him. He returned home while you wandered to the graveyard, while keeping check that Kakashi didn't follow you.

"Hey again..." you stared at the tombstone with a sad smile. "Sorry I didn't bring any flowers. Next time I will get you some... Those fuchsia lilies! I wonder if they still have them" you mused sitting down in front of the grave. "Hey.... I'm sorry I forgot about you. About everyone. I did keep my promise though, I did remember Kakashi's name" you looked down defeated. "Sitting here already gives me more information of my past" you murmured and looked back up, your white eyes tracing the letters engraved in stone. "Next time I will bring some sake as well, so we can drink on... on.... I just want to drink with you again, you got me" you chuckled.

"Rin. I miss you" you whispered, tears welling up, "so much". Your hand covered your mouth, holding back the sounds of your sobbing. Your fist clenching at your side. "Why couldn't I be there for you?" tears rolled down your cheeks. "Why couldn't I help? Why did you have to go in a snap. Why did an ANBU person have to tell me, at my doorstep, that you had died!" the screams in your mind formed mere whispers on your lips. "Why.." you looked down, the sense of loss overwhelming your body.

Minutes felt like hours as you sobbed in grief.

When your body finally calmed down you looked up again. "Shinobi never show weaknesses, never show their tears" you recited and shook your head. "They should change it into, a Shinobi only sheds tears to mourn a lost comrade" you huffed. "I bet Ebisu would scold me for that, you would scold him for scolding me" you chuckled. "Say... did I shed a tear when you died? I hope I did, it's bad to bottle things up" you muttered. "I wish I had much more to tell. I really want to tell you everything that happened. I just can't... not yet".

"You already helped me a lot. I think you did that a lot when you lived as well" you sighed standing up. "Next time we drink okay? Upon my return and new found memories" you smiled and trailed the cracks on top of the headstone before leaving the site.

Slapping energy into your cheeks you looked determined towards the destination of the forest. Training would help the most right now. The earlier you are back to full power, the better. Morning runs should be good too.

"And what happened to you?" Kakashi stood with arms crossed, foot tapping in front of you in the hallway of his house.

"I trained" you smiled innocently. Every muscle was sore and it wouldn't be surprising if your chakra was on its last straw. Kakashi scowled and tapped your head with his spatula. "Diner was an hour ago and you come back as if you just fought in a war".

"Not a war.." you muttered looking down, your knees trembling with the effort to keep you up. Not a war indeed. Whatever it was, you barely believed it yourself. The moment you tried to imagine an enemy you felt your chakra draining. Several creatures appeared out of seemingly nowhere. The positive was, you were able to get to full knowledge of your powers, the negative was that it was at the cost of nearly all of your chakra.

Kakashi took in your appearance, his clothing hanging in ribbons on your body, slashes marring your beautiful skin and your muscles trembling in effort to just stand.

A yelp escaped your lips when a pair of strong arms scooped you up. "Hey! I can walk!" you snapped, but had no energy to struggle. "You can barely stand" he deadpanned, "honestly, you just came back from the dead 2 days ago and you are already working yourself back into the grave".

"For your information, 3 months have passed since I woke up back in this dimension" you growled crossing your arms. He looked down on you, he tried to keep his expression blanc as usual but the regret combined with blame was visible. It was like a hole opened in your stomach, an unsettling feeling that was even worse than hunger.

He carried you up the stairs and gently put you on the bed before beginning to strip you. Not saying a word. As the pants were gone and he started on your shirt you growled. "Can't you snap at me? I rather have that than your silent treatment". He looked up at you, his eyes saying enough about his state right now. A sigh escaped your lips, while your arms reached out and pulled him into a close hug. "You can play stoic dickhead all you want. I know you worry" you muttered, "and I know you are frustrated that I didn't come see you the second I revived. Not that it was possible but I understand". "(y/n) I-" "And I know you don't want anything happening to me ever again" you pushed him slightly back to look in his eye. Gently pulling his headband and his mask from his face you smiled. "But you know me better than I do right now. And even I know I won't stay still".

Kakashi let out a sigh, his tense muscles relaxing as he dropped himself into your chest. A small smile appeared on your lips while your hands played with the silver strands of his hair. "I don't have the strength to fight you, so don't rape me" you mused. His head snapped up with a glare making you chuckle. "You know I would never do that" he growled.

"Yes I know, big bad puppy" you purred petting his head. He scowled at the belittling gesture. "Did you save any food for me?" you questioned. He sighed, getting up and nodded.

"Can't have you starving" he gave a wink and pulled his mask and headband back in place before leaving for the kitchen. Your eyes following the even strides of his legs.

After having diner devoured on the bed, you leaned back content while Kakashi cleaned up the dishes. As soon as he finished that he came back and sat at your side. "You mind sleeping in the same bed?" he questioned.

You snorted, "after what we did the other day? Do you really need to ask, again?" you mused winking playfully at him. He averted his eyes and sighed, seemingly struggling with something. Ignoring the protests of your muscles you leaned over and hugged his back. "What's bothering you?" you asked, your head leaning on his shoulder. He turned his head to the side to look at you. "It's still difficult to believe you are here" he muttered barely audible under his mask. You rolled your eyes and fell back on the propped up pillows. "Nice try, but what is really bothering you?" you huffed. "That is really bothering me" he stated dryly. "Kakashi" you scolded.

"You are not telling me everything-" you opened your mouth but he glared, shutting you up, "as much as this sounds like a busy body. I want to know what made you all beat up like that. And I want to know what you remember, since some things could come back in a different order than it happened..." he looked down, his eyes softening, "it could give you the wrong idea".

"Of you?" you questioned leaning slightly towards him. He nodded silently.

You took a deep breath. "I already know that Rin dying wasn't to blame on you". Kakashi's eyes widened as his muscles tensed.

"You-"

"Let me explain. Sorry I'm interrupting you a lot" you smiled sadly, brushing a strand of hair out of your face. "The first memory of her... rather you, was you broken in the corner of your room. Saying that you killed her. I can remember the anger I had felt disappearing" you spoke softly, "at that time I didn't know who you were talking about in my memory. But when I received a memory of Rin I went back to the graveyard" a breathy chuckle left your lips, "it was like Rin was making me remember a lot. About my old team, your old team..." you shook your head, "it's a bit hard to order the memories, even now".

Kakashi's muscles were still tense, his eyes had turned normal though. "Do you remember our promise?" he asked softly. You blinked, "no... I know I promised Rin to look after you though". His muscles slowly relaxed as he pulled his glove of, revealing the same tattoo as yours but on the opposite hand. "The same.... If you put it together..." you muttered pulling your glove off and fist bumping him, "you get a cross".

He nodded, "it was something you came up with. Two halves of something we need to remember" he said, his other hand gently placed under the fist bump. His fingers caressing yours ever so lightly. "A promise that we will remind each other of our lost ones and always come back to do so" his voice was silvery as if telling a story. A smile tugged at your lips. "Well, I kept that promise now" you grinned looking up at him. He smiled under his mask, "you did". 

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I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat

I shouldn't be crying

Tears were for the weaker days

I'm stronger now or so I say

But something's missing

Sooo, what do you peopz think of Kakashi?

*Kakashi casts a knowing look, his hands reaching up to your face inching closer*

Kakashi, don't go bribing our reader...... scrap that XD please leave a comment, little things like update or i like this part already make me a happy writer :3