Forgiveness - True Self Revealed
Reina's P.O.V
'Hate... I have to make people hate me.' I repeated, a smile making its way to my lips. 'Maybe Gaara right, making people hate me is the best thing I can do now.' I stare at my hand, my fingers seemed to be shaking non-stop. It looked like I was anxious, nervous.... Was I?
"Reina!"
I jumped and stared up at Atsushi, clasping my hand together, "Y-Yeah?" I asked, shaking me head softly, pushing all the unnecessary thoughts away.
He frowned, "Are you even listening to me?" He asked sternly, walking over to me, leaning close to my face.
I sheepishly shook my head, gazing downwards at the floor. "No." I answered simply and truthfully.
Make everyone hate you.
"Well then, pay attention, will you? I'm telling you about the next part of the exams which you happened to miss the whole announcement." He said, glaring at me.
My eyes widened. I totally forgot about the next part of the exams. "Tataki, tell me. Tell me about the next part of the exams." I said, grabbing his hand.
The next and final part of the exams, that'll be the best time to make everyone hate me. I need to know when and where they are going to he taken. I'm going to trust Gaara's words.
Atsushi blushed, "U-Uh, yeah, s-sure." He said, clearing his throat and glancing back at me with a darker blush. "Well, the final round of the Chūnin Exams will be taken in this arena kind of thing, and it's going to be in a while. I think a month or so, I'm not so sure, your friends didn't tell my everything."
I nodded, taking everything in. So the final round was going to be held in an arena? Wouldn't that mean that the citizens would be able to go and watch?
"Alright, thanks, Tataki." I said, looking away with a straight face. Hate is power. "You can go now."
Atsushi jumped back in shock at my tone, "O-Okay..." He stuttered, standing up and walking over to the door. He stopped and clenched his hand around the doorknob. "Reina..."
"What?" I asked, looking over at Atsushi from the corner of my eye.
"Stay safe...for me, please." He said, opening the door and stepping out. "I can't lose you already. I-I'm sorry."
I blinked in confusion at what he meant. I can't lose you already? What did he mean by that? Did Atsushi consider me something? I sighed and shook my head. I'm thinking into this too much, I should be resting so I could heal properly. I looked up at the ceiling, 'Whatever you apologized for, I forgive you for it.'
Just as I thought I was going to get some peace and quiet, some time to rest, there was knocking at my door.
I sighed in annoyance and rolled my eyes, "Who is it now?!" I asked, sitting up.
The door opened, my eyes widened. "N-Naruto." I said.
He frowned, "I-I'm sorry, I didn't know you weren't in the mood for company." He said, scratching his cheek as he looked away from me. "I'll get going if you want me to, Reina-chan."
Right as Naruto took a step back, I held out my hand and shouted words I shouldn't have. "No, please stay!"
Naruto's eyes widened. I bit my lip and looked away in embarrassment. "Okay, I'll stay here with you, dattebayo!" He shouted, running over to the side of the bed.
My heart then began to throb is immense pain, I groaned and held my head. 'Stop it, Reina! MAKE HIM HATE YOU, HEHE!' Some voice ordered. It sounded very snake-like and almost mischievous. 'You will fall to your knees, you will be ours!' My eyes glanced around the room non-stop, my head was hurting more and more each second. What was this? Who was talking to me?
"Reina, Reina? Are you okay?" Naruto asked, bringing his hand uo to my forehead. "You're...warm. Iruka-sensei told me to get some water if someones forehead was too warm, be right back!"
Naruto grinned and ran out the room, going to get a towel and some medicine perhaps. My heart was beating rather abnormally, but not because of Naruto, but over fear. Someone, something was trying to get inside my head, I don't know what it is, but I can already tell this voice is bad news. I clicked my tongue and threw myself back onto my bed, my body hitting the soft cushioning. 'Why...Why is it that everything that has happened to me so far is full of pain? The C-rank mission we first received, these damned exams, the forest, the preliminaries, and now...Gaara?' I thought to myself, frowning at the thought. 'If what Gaara said was true, I might as well go along with it. However, just by choosing what he said, it could lead to my downfall.
Hate is what makes us stronger. You need it to achieve.
'Hate... The thing that brought me all this way. If I was never in such a hated clan I would never receive such looks nowadays, if I was never in a hated clan like my own... I wouldn't be here today. Hate is what made me today, and hate is what I'm going to need to continue down my path.' I mused, reaching up in the air, clenching my fist tightly. 'Hate is always in the air, we just need to grab a hold of it use it wisely. Kinda how Sasuke, Naruto and Gaara are currently taking advantage of it. All three of them are hated in one way or another, but they seem to be so strong given the words they are called, or people they are seen as. But with Sasuke it's different, he hates someone and he's getting so much stronger just by thinking of that person. I need to learn and do what they are doing, I need to get stronger to show everyone I'm not the monster they see me as. They'll see I'm better then that, that I'm a really nice person once you get to know me. I'm Reina, Reina Hizo, the sole survivor of the murderous and power hungry clan that everyone hated for so many reasons. Now is my chance, my chance to change all of those lies that surround my name.'
"I never thought I would go down this path...but fate led to this." I muttered, bringing my fist back down to my side. "It's only a matter of time."
My room door opened, I snapped my gaze towards the door and waited for Naruto to step in with his usual cheery voice. But not a sound was heard.
"Naruto, are you back already?" I asked, sitting up with my elbows holding my weight. "You know you didn't have to go through the trouble to help me, right?"
Again, there was not a single sound. It was starting to worry me...
"Naruto...?" I asked.
"Hm, so it seems he managed to get here before I could. It seems like he meant his words, how honorable." Dad said, entering the room with a closed eye smile.
A smile made it's way to my lips at his presence. I had so much to tell him about the forest of death and struggles we went through as a team. I opened my mouth and began to speak, "Dad, it's nice to see you again. You don't what the team and I went through in the damn forest, it was exhausting!" I beamed, overly excited to see the man I called my Dad, the one who loved and cared for me over the past years. "Did you see my fight, the one I kinda lost...? Do you think--?"
"Why did you lose...?" He asked, stepping into the room and shutting the door behind him.
I was at a loss for words, "W-What?" I asked, gulping in fear.
What was up with Dad all of a sudden? I haven't seen him act like this before...ever.
"Why did you let him beat you?" Dad shouted, slamming his fist against the door, the door cracking at the excessive amount of force he used. I flinched in shock, my eyes widening, filling with an emotion I have never felt around him; fear.
"D-Dad, it wasn't much of a choice! He was stronger than me!" I retorted back angrily. "What do you expect of me?!"
He glared at me with his one eye, "I expect much more from you! I trained you for years, putting you through tough training so you could get stronger and make me proud of the skills you hone, but it seems you didn't learn as much as I thought you did." He spat, making his way over to me. He leaned in close to my face, his narrowed eye staring into my soul. "I'm disappointed in you."
At that moment it felt like he jabbed his hand into my chest and pulled my heart out while I was alive and still breathing. For once, I felt like I was betrayed... I stared at him with teary eyes.
"Why... Stop saying such things! You don't mean them, you can't...!" I said, whimpering every word out.
He gave me a closed eye smile, "Oh, but I do mean them." He stated simply, in a sickening sweet voice. "All of them."
I had it, I let my tears fall from my eyes. "And I thought you actually loved me..." I said, my voice cracking. "A true parent wouldn't say that to their kid."
Dad sighed, "That's another thing... I'm not your real father, or parent for that matter. You should know this very well, after all... Your real parents are dead." He said.
I winced. "Stop it...!" I cried out.
"Stop what?" He asked innocently with a tilt of his head.
"Just stop talking!" I shouted, raising my hand and slapping him without a second thought of what I was doing.
He looked unfazed, but very angry at my actions. Next thing I know, I'm being held up by my neck, my body slammed against the wall. I coughed at impact and clawed at his hands, trying to break free from his strong grip.
"D-Dad!" I sputtered out, seeing that I now lacked air. "You're h-hurting m-me!"
His grip only grew stronger, "Do you really feel that need to know why I'm so disappointed in you? Hmmm? Well, I'll make it simple for you, seeing that you can barely understand simple instructions." He said, brushing his fingers across my cheek. "All those years I trained you, I expected you to be stronger than the average genin, and it first it seemed like I acomplished my goal for you, but as time passed on you decided to show me what you really learned from my time training you. You showed me hardly any improvement."
"I took the idea that you were just letting your teammates have the light for once, but now that it came to the Chunin Exams, exams I knew would force your true strength out... I've noticed you weren't letting Naruto and Sasuke exceed you purposely." He said, chuckling dryly. "You're actually weak."
His words stung very badly, it was even worse than him tearing at my heart.
Tears slipped out of my eyes, eyes that held anger and betrayal. Dammit, I shouldn't have trusted him. He wasn't my dad anymore. It was only a matter of time till he revealed his true self, the side of him that only cares for power of others feelings; my feelings.
I glare at him with all my heart, putting as much hatred into the glare as I could. "I'm going to kill you." I growled, water from my tears now floating in the air. "I'll kill you!"
Kakashi, not my dad, laughed and dropped me to the ground. "There we go. Show yourself, show me what you really can do. Prove that you're not as weak as I know you are." He said, acting like a complete jerk. This wasn't the Kakashi I grew up with and called my dad, this was someone else.
I smirked devilishly, "It seems like you showed your true self, Kakashi." I said, dying on the inside at my words. I thought you loved me.
"It seems so." He mused, "Now, why don't you do the same?" I thought I loved you.
I smiled painfully, "You can't tell me what to do, bastard." I said, boiling in pure anger. I can't hurt you, I'll only hurt myself.
"My, my, you're becoming a rebel alreadly." He chuckled, "How amusing." What have you done to me? I don't like this side of me!
"It seems so." I said, raising my hand with a kunai in my grip. "Now...die." I'm sorry, but I have to do this.
I swiped at his face, smiling in pure pain at the emotion he held in his one eye. Pure enjoyment.
You seem to be enjoying this, Kakashi. Was it so fun playing withmy heart, my feelings? I hope it was fun while it lasted, you really don't know what you started. You only made this worse.
Make everyone hate you. Make them fear you, Reina. Once you have that, you'll have control over anyone.
My path really has been choosen now. You'll really end up hating me, Kakashi.
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