I need to stop leaving the outline and my notes in here.

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[Xemon POV]

So, Hels woke up around 10 minutes ago and he left immediately afterwards.  Why do I want him to come back? I kind of liked it, I guess? 

Why?

Nevermind that, I'm going to grab a snack. I didn't really get to eat because of Etho's death and then Hels. So I'm grabbing a granola bar, it's not the best thing to grab, but I don't want an actual meal right now but I also don't want to starve myself. 

Okay so the group is doing card games again, but I just want to know why Grian is almost poking Scar in the eye... Did Grian just draw 16 cards... Oh my Aether, they're doing jump-in, and Scar had 3 plus fours. Grian's pissed at Scar, and the others are holding in their laughter.

I'm going to see if I can join and if I can force Xisuma or Hels to join because then I can be a dick to my brother or my Best Friend. 

So I managed to get Hels into the game, and I've been skipping his turn every chance I get. This is going to bite me in the ass later, but it's fun.

I managed to win, probably because I ended up skipping Hels' turns and the others caught on and they didn't notice I got to one card. But now most of us were tired, and the sleep pile was starting to happen again. 

I was, yet again, at the bottom of the pile, and Hels was passed out next to me.

I'm conflicted. Do I move closer to him? I mean, I did figure out what was happening earlier. [I, reluctantly, asked Xisuma.] 

And I was gay panicking. 

And Xisuma explained that I might have a crush on Hels. 

Fuck that. I do not have a crush on Hels, and I probably never will.

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Hels has, in his sleep[?], curled around me. I think it's called, spooning? This bitch is making it hard to reject my feelings for him. Motherfucker.

Screw this, if he's going to fucking cuddle me, then I'm doing it back. 

I did not expect for this to feel nice--- Hell, it almost feels normal. Fuck.  

Why am I in love with my best friend? 

I guess I can settle with shoving my face into his chest, and falling asleep. 

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*Laughs in filler and projecting onto Xemon*

I swear though why am I in love w/ my best friend. 

But yes, filler chapter.