I have eyebags, time to SLEEEEP.

I have slept, my eyebags are worse now????

this chapter is literally so fucking sad what did I write at like 1 am. I'm keeping it.

sO THIS WAS A VEnT afTER A BIT cuS tHIs iS hoW i FeLt wIth My fiRSt bF---

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[Xemon POV]

So, avoiding a breakdown didn't work. I barely got out of the fucking basement and up the steps without collapsing. 

And because I'm soOooooo lucky, Xisuma was near the steps and he came down to help me. This is why I am now sobbing in my brother's arms, as he tries to comfort me.

...

He's left to go check on the others. Which means I'm alone. 

Everyone leaves in the end, huh?

Hels probably got tired of dealing with me so that's why he left...

And Xisuma didn't want to hear my crying so he made an excuse to leave. 

That has to be what happened. Hels is probably okay, he's just bored of me. 

I'm just unloveable. 

I'm just hard to love. 

No one's truly loved me. 

Besides Dad and Pa... And even they left in the end...

And that's just how lucky I am.

I get close to someone and they leave. They always leave. 

Funny, isn't it? 

How I grow dependent on someone and then they just leave, disappear in the night!

I wish I had my helmet. Because then I could hide away my emotions like I did before.

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I am so sorry for this chapter---