Lost & Found” (Revised), Ch.  11 (PG-13, S):  A Turning Point for Jocelyn and Matthew, November 12, 2014 Gratiana Lovelace

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[I will illustrate my story using my dream cast of --Richard Armitage for Matthew Drake, Kate Beckinsale for Jocelyn Burrows, Brenda Blethyn for Aunt Madge, Michael Crawford for Michael Ferguson, Gina McKee for Marcia Glass, James Frain for Vicar Nelson Marshall, and others.]

Author’s Mature Content Note:  “Lost & Found” is love story with mature themes (D for drama and S for sensuality) of love and relationships.  Most chapters will be PG or PG-13. However, if you are unable or unwilling to attend a movie with the ratings I provide, then please do not read that chapter.  This is my disclaimer.

Recap from the previous installment:   After Jocie’s trek around London dropping off more resumes Tuesday morning, she meets up with Matthew for a bite of lunch and some site seeing.  But her new shoes hurt her feet, so they ended up back at her hotel so she could soak them--while Matthew reads out the Reader’s Digest funny bits to her in the bathroom.  With her thinking bemusedly that despite their growing intimacies, her soaking her feet in Matthew’s presence is decidedly not romantic.  Then after they spoke on the phone with Aunt Madge and decided to have dinner together, they promptly both feel asleep after they moved to sit on the couch together.

There is a comfort and familiarity that Matthew and Jocie find in each other--a calm center that they bring out in each other--and that they enjoy in cuddling with each other as they sleep on the couch in her hotel room.  There is also a growing sensually romantic attraction that Matthew and Jocie feel for each other--that neither can privately deny to themselves, and that neither will be able to deny to each other when they awaken from their slumber.

“Lost and Found”, Chapter 11 (PG-13, S):  A Turning Point for Jocelyn and Matthew

Just as on Friday night, the tall and lanky Matthew finds napping on the couch uncomfortable this Tuesday afternoon.  So, he picks up the sleeping Jocelyn and carries her to the bed and Jocelyn nuzzles her face into Matthew’s neck—which he rather likes.  Matthew kisses Jocelyn’s forehead and then he gently lays her on the bed.  Matthew lays down on the bed, to Jocelyn’s right.   And then he covers them both with the throw blanket and he falls back to sleep. Both are still fully dressed, but for their feet being bare--with Jocie wearing her comfy clothes of a stretchy pullover blouse over her clingy capri pants.

With the only other light in the room from the slightly ajar bathroom, Jocelyn Burrows hotel mini suite has grown darker with her east facing room window now in shadow and her drapes closed.  All is quiet and serene as Matthew [(2a) left]  and Jocelyn [(2b) right]   sleep contentedly next to each other on top of her bed spread and under the couch throw for warmth.  The only sounds in the room are the intermittent hum of the room’s air conditioner now and again and the deep breathing sounds of the rooms’ sleeping occupants.  Both Jocie and Matthew are lost in slumber, sweetly lying chastely in each others’ arms, their hands clasped together. 

Two hours pass from when they first laid down to nap, and it is now getting to be around 5:00pm.  Jocelyn wakes up briefly and she visits the bathroom.  Then she slides back onto the bed—on top of the covers, but underneath the blanket throw and she closes her eyes.  She doesn’t think about her change of sleeping location from the couch to the bed--nor that she is napping with Matthew, because she did that her first night meeting him.  Jocelyn feels completely at ease with Matthew--as he does with her.

Feeling the bed dip ever so slightly when Jocelyn returns to bed, Matthew stirs groggily awake.  Matthew smiles at Jocelyn lying next to him dozing, returning to sleep.  She looks so peaceful and serene--and she has become his calm center as his calming medicines have been reduced and he becomes more alert.  With it now being later afternoon, those medicines are completely flushed out of his body.  And despite the fog of sleepiness, Matthew feels that being together with Jocelyn is the only place he wants to be.   

As with Jocelyn, Matthew does not question their sleeping arrangements--he had carried her to the bed from the couch, so that their backs would not be stiff by napping awkwardly on the couch. And Matthew also feels a growing affection for Jocelyn that is undeniable as he gazes lovingly at her sleeping form. But first, he must attend to his other bodily needs and he heads to the bathroom. 

After he washes his hands, Matthew stops and holds them out in front of him, the water dripping off of his skin into the cool marble basin sitting like a bowl upon the granite counter top.  His hands have held so much that were dear to him--his wife on their wedding day and  his son when he was born are among Matthew’s most cherished memories. He curls his fingers downward as the the water falls away, before he towels the rest of his hands dry.  

Matthew has lost his two loves who were dearest to him--through the car accident two years ago that claimed his wife’s and son’s lives, and injured him physically, cognitively, and emotionally.  So even the simple act of touching another person has been something he has shied away from--perhaps his retreat from the world was an unconscious acknowledgement of his loss, or his subconscious viewed his isolation as a penance for him not being able to save his family that tragic night. 


Yet, with Jocelyn, her caring influence has slowly and gently guided him to connect with her in a profound way.  She makes him feel alive again when they laugh together, hold hands together, and when they kiss together--more than him merely existing as he had before he met her.  In Jocelyn, Matthew feels like he has someone for whom he matters to again--as she matters to him.

As Matthew slides back onto the bed, Jocelyn is not quite asleep again—she is just dozing.   Matthew turns onto his left side facing Jocelyn, and he clasps her right hand lying back against her pillow in his right hand as they lie facing each other, their faces only inches apart--their touching pillows creating a continuous cushion for them.  Feeling the bed dip considerably with Matthew joining her in bed again, Jocelyn sleepily opens her eyes and smiles caringly at Matthew. 

Matthew looks soulfully into Jocelyn’s eyes, trying to find a way to express what he wants to say to her.  So, he takes her hand that he is holding and lifts it to his lips and  kisses it.  Then he sincerely says in a hushed deep voice, tinged with longing. 

Matthew:  “Thank you, Jocelyn.”  Matthew laces his fingers with Jocelyn’s fingers as he lays her hand back down upon her pillow.

Jocelyn  smiles at Matthew and then she lifts his hand clasping hers to her lips and she kisses his hand and Jocelyn sleepily sighs.

Jocelyn:  “You’re welcome Matthew.  Thank you.”

Then seeing that the blanket throw shifted and is not completely covering Matthew, Jocelyn rearranges the blanket over his shoulders and her left hand rests there.  Then, Matthew moves his free left arm to slide under Jocelyn’s neck and she cuddles next to him as he puts his arms around her--the warmth from their bodies nestled into each other being ever so comfortable in the slightly chilly room.  Jocelyn is still half asleep, but enjoying this sweetly intimate little moment between she and Matthew.  Matthew’s arms enfold Jocelyn further in a sweet embrace—holding her back and her head lovingly. And then he leans his head down and kisses her fully and tenderly on her lips. 

At first, Matthew’s gentle kisses startle Jocelyn--though she does not pull away, she merely wonders if she is really feeling Matthew kiss her, or whether she is dreaming again of him kissing her.  Jocelyn has tried very much not to think of Matthew romantically.  But, of course Jocelyn thinking about not thinking about Matthew romantically, makes Jocelyn think about Matthew romantically even more.  And Matthew has romantic thoughts for Jocelyn that he can no longer suppress, but that he wants to express with her in a loving way.

As Matthew and Jocelyn continue to kiss each other, their bodies mold themselves, one to the other--an unbroken touch of loving connection with  lips, and arms, and bodies, and legs.  Then, their kissing becomes deeper and more passionate as their tongues tangle in eager trespass in deeper and longer kisses of amorous passions not shared in their previous kisses.  Their legs now begin to intertwine as their bodies mold themselves so closely with each other that not even a whisper could pass between them. They are both aroused and breathing deeply as their bodies give in to their loving passions. 

Then their embraces become caresses of each other through their clothing--as they each commit the other’s form to memory.  Matthew strokes Jocelyn’s back from her neck to the curve of her hips, even as his kisses move from her lips to her neck and to her loveliness now straining for his touch through her blouse as she arches her back.  Jocelyn is lost in the whirl of sensations and emotions as she responds completely to Matthew.  Her hands stroke the hard sinews of his muscular torso through his shirt.  The barrier of fabric being no hindrance to their increasing desires.

But Jocelyn realizes that she and Matthew’s making out will inevitably lead to them making love if she does not try to scale back their kisses and caresses.  So, Jocelyn pulls back from kissing Matthew and she breathlessly says to him.

Jocelyn:  “Matthew, Matthew ...”  She sighs caressing his face and sounding a bit uncertain.  “Maybe we should stop now, while we still can.”

Matthew:  “I don’t want to stop.  Jocelyn, I love you.   I want to make love with you.”

In these statements of emotion and feeling, Matthew has also managed to express them in a loving way—instead of his formerly bland demeanor that Jocie had encountered when she first met him.  Matthew has been without his calming medicine for four days--except for at bedtime to help him sleep--and his mind is alert and his emotions are focused on Jocelyn.  She has become his lifeline, as he told her--helping him to get better quicker by not treating him as a man still recovering his health, but treating him as a man. And Matthew wants to be the man to Jocelyn’s woman tonight.

Matthew leans in to Jocelyn and he kisses her lovingly, adoringly, lustfully, and passionately—like a man who has just found himself again.  Matthew is not behaving like the shy and disaffected man that Jocelyn originally met last Friday, five days ago.  Matthew is now the lover, seeking to love and to be loved.  And, despite a voice in her head telling her not to, Jocelyn wants Matthew as her lover tonight. 

Jocie has been without such tender affections and intimacies for a long time--months as she and her fiancé became estranged because Jocie would not bend her personality to his whims.  Part of Jocelyn’s reason in coming to England was to start fresh after she ended her engagement with her fiancé of several years last week.  She wants to move forward in her life, just as Matthew wants and needs to move forward in his life. 

Jocelyn chooses to live in the moment and she gives in to Matthew--to what they both want.  Slowly, Jocelyn unbuttons Matthew’s shirt and she pulls it open—kissing his chest as it is revealed to her.  Matthew eagerly returns the favor and he pulls the loose neckline of Jocelyn’s stretchy blouse over one shoulder and he kisses her there.  Then he grasps the bottom edges of her blouse and pushes the fabric up to reveal her lace and satin bra demurely and tantalizingly encasing her womanly loveliness.  Jocelyn sits up slightly and Matthew slides her blouse up over her arms.  Then Jocelyn lies back down and he deftly peels her capri pants from her hips and her legs and he tosses them onto a nearby chair--revealing her matching lace and satin panties that are pretty and sweet, like Jocelyn.  And Matthew adores every inch of her.

Jocelyn: “Oh Matthew!”  She cries out in awakening response to his slow and tender seduction.

Matthew and Jocelyn kiss each other tenderly and passionately for several minutes--delighting in feeling their skin touching, despite their remaining fabric coverings.  Then Jocelyn moves her hands down Matthew’s muscular chest and she unbuckles Matthew’s trouser belt, unbuttons his trousers, unzips them, and then she caresses his back as they embrace and kiss and entangle their bodies as close as they can with fabric still restraining their desires, but only just.

Matthew:  “Aahh!”  Matthew moans with the pleasurable sensations that Jocelyn is giving him--as he molds his body to hers—sensations and emotions that he has not felt for a very long time, for over two years.

Matthew breaks away briefly from Jocelyn and he pushes his trousers down his hips and off of his body and tosses them to a nearby chair.  Now Matthew and Jocelyn are each only in their underwear—her bra and panties, and his briefs.  And soon, they are completely and joyously naked with each other in their lovers’ embrace and they join themselves to each other as one heart, one love, one soul.    The pleasurable and lustful, and loving sensations they feel as they kiss and caress each other heightens with their bodies’ rhythmic swaying again, and again, and again, and again--until  their loving ministrations fill them with rapturous bliss as their bodies tremble in mutual joy from their lovemaking.   

Jocelyn:  “ Matthew, I love you so!”

Matthew: “I love you so, my Jocelyn!”

They each cannot help themselves in crying out as their bodies continue to tremble with their love.  Jocelyn and Matthew kiss and caress each other sweetly and tenderly with their bodies still intertwined for some time.  Each caressing the other’s face and tracing the features of their mutual happiness etched there.  Then, they fall asleep again as their now exhausted but sated bodies lay intertwined in their lovers embrace.

Matthew and Jocelyn have shared their love with each other this night.  And there is no going back--only moving forward.  But what is a turning point for Jocelyn’s and Matthew’s loving relationship, will prove to have unforeseen consequences that neither of them will want to face.

To be continued with Chapter 12

“Lost & Found” (Revised), Ch. 11 References for Wattpad, Nov. 12, 2014 Gratiana Lovelace

1)   “Lost & Found” title graphic representing Matthew is an artistic blurring of a portrait of the Spooks character Lucas North (as portrayed by British actor Richard Armitage) found at http://www.richardarmitagenet.com/images/gallery/Spooks/Spooks9/album/episode2/album/slides/2_199.html

2a) Matthew  sleeping image (flip, clr) is Richard Armitage as Lucas North in Spooks 8 epi 5 pix 30 found at  http://www.richardarmitagenet.com/images/gallery/Spooks/spooks8/album/Episode5/slides/ep5_030.JPG

2b) Jocelyn sleeping image (flip, crop, clr) is a portrait of British actress Kate Beckinsale in the 2006 film Click found at http://images2.fanpop.com/images/photos/5300000/Click-2006-kate-beckinsale-5347045-1024-576.jpg

“Lost & Found” (Revised), Ch. 11 Images for Wattpad, Nov. 12, 2014 Gratiana Lovelace

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