Wali's POV

With my hands firmly holding the bouquet of pink carnations and white peonies as their fragrance was filing up the hall way I was struggling with the keys, after a day of endless meetings and conferences and late night scheduling I decided to leave Boston earlier than planned to surprise Khadija and now at 7:30 in the morning I finally entered the place which holds my heart more than it ever did, my home. I smiled as I stood at the foyer, all my exhaustion leaving the body as I looked at the bright sunlight making their way in to the living room through long glass walls, spreading their warmth all around the place.

Keeping my laptop bag and hand carry by the entrance I made my way further inside, the entire apartment was drown in the odd silence I have lost acquaintance with, in past one year this place have absorbed many emotions and today every wall of our home was alarming me about the one I am not ready for, ignoring the tying knot in my stomach I searched for my lady but frowned when I realized that she must be at Abdullah bhai's place.

"So much for the surprise!" I shook my head as I turned with a sheepish smile towards the entrance again, ready to leave for bringing her back. Taking the cell phone out of my pocket I turned it on to call Yahya when I heard the doors above getting unlocked. Frowning I locked the phone again and placing it on the kitchen counter I made my way towards the stairs.

I was on the fourth step when she came in front of me and my lips moved forming a grin, but it just took a single look on her face and something crashed deep down inside me, she was rooted to her place, her face lost its color and it was terribly pale, her chapped lips were more like bruised as if she had bitten them mercilessly, and those eyes which would always make me weak but were the source of my strength were terrifyingly hollow, the spark in them was burned out, instead they were lost, lost in a land which was far from my reach.

"Asalam O Alikum," I heard myself whisper in a grave voice as I climbed the stairs towards her but stopped in my place when I saw her shifting her place and looking away, my hands were turning colder by minute.

"You are here early?" the question was a scaring interrogation made in a deadly cold tone but the tears shimmering in her eyes were a jab to my heart.

"I," I licked my dry lips as I tried to read her face, "I wanted to surprise you," it felt more like a question than the statement.

"You should have called," the two of us were making meaningless conversations but a part of me was telling that the meaningful one would only break me more.

Gathering all the courage in me I took steps to be right in front of her, taking her left hand which were freezing in my right one I gave them a light squeeze and as if something crashed inside her which even I heard she broke down, the tears pooled in her eyes started soaking her pale cheeks and she bit on her lips making them more purple as she stopped a sob.

"Khadija," my voice came out as a cry, as I moved my hands and cupped her cheeks, "Love what's wrong? Khadija talk to me?" and she completely broke all over again right in my arms. "Khadija, khuda kai liyai (For God's sake) you are scaring me!" I half whispered, half yelled as I tried to make her look at me.

"I am sorry, Wali! I am so sorry," was the words which came out of her mouth as she choked on her sob and keep repeating her words, "I am sorry," the fallen carnations were long forgotten as I tried to bring her back to me.

"Khadija, tell me what's wrong? I promise—"

As if my words ignited a fire she was already burning in, she pushed my arms away, "No Wali! Nothing you could ever do can make this right! None of your promises can turn my fate Wali," she looked at me and all of a sudden those chocolaty brown eyes scared me, "It's not your fault! It's me! It's solely me, I am the one to be blamed, I am the one who is hollow from inside!" she said as she hit herself and stoned to my place with my numb feet I just looked at her.

"I am so sorry Wali! I am so sorry! I always told you and you stopped me, always! I told you it's me who is the curse to us, I am the one who would fail us, and look I did it, Wali! I failed us! Why Wali? Why I have to be the one who has to go through all the pain? Why can't I have happiness in my fate without dying a thousand deaths?" she cried as she grasped my shirt in both her fists and looking at her I felt my face getting soaked with the tears which were no less than blood.

"Shh it is going to be okay!" I said the words which were mocking to my own ears too and then she humorlessly laughed as she pushed me away again.

"Okay? Nothing is ever going to be okay Wali! Don't you understand I am not able to make you a father, they said it's temporary and it would be fine! But would it be? Our dreams, our planning, our wishes are all gone, destroyed! They are drowning and we can't do a thing to save them! Don't you ever say it's okay!" she said as she unknowingly crushed all the flowers under her feet and went downstairs, my weak knees finally gave up as I fell on the stairs.

The fresh carnations I willingly bought this morning, the same carnations which are the resemblance of a mother's love were brutally crushed by both of us and we couldn't do a thing to save them.

I heard the front door getting closed with a thunderous noise as I ran my hand through my hair, gripping them in a tight fist and muffling the scream of my agony.

Pushing the door to the café I entered the well known place which was quite warm unlike the crazy snowstorm outside, I ruffled my hair as I nodded at the familiar faces and made my way towards the last table where I was supposed to be half an hour ago. I pressed my lips in line as I noticed Jeanine and her disapproving green eyes.

"You were supposed to be here an hour ago!" she hissed as I took my place across her, without replying I turned towards the waitress and ordered a cup of coffee for myself, as the waitress went away I again turned to her who was now looking at me with watery eyes. "Can you ever be serious?" she whispered as she wrapped her arms around herself.

"I am serious right now!" I shrugged as I looked around looking for any other familiar faces.

"I am pregnant, Wali and before you say anything else it's yours." The deadly silence fell between us and I looked at her face for any slip up, I was sure that this was again one of her stunts but when for good few minutes she quietly stayed there, occasionally biting her lips and when a lone tear crossed its path across her cheek, I slumped back on my seat.

"Say something," she pleaded as the waitress left after placing our orders.

"What do you want me to say?" I looked at her, loathing her existence. "How could you be so careless?" I found myself saying and saw color leaving her face.

"You are blaming me?"

"I was always careful! Anyways it's not the time for this crap! We have to get this problem solved as soon as possible!"

"What are we going to do?" she hesitantly asked.

"Have you told anyone?" when she shook her head, I sighed with relief, "I'll arrange for a clinic away from the town."

"What do you mean?"

"What do you think I mean?" I annoyingly said as I pushed my cup away.

"Wali I am not going to kill this baby!" she horridly whispered and I frowned.

"And if you won't then let me tell you I am out of this and well it won't be hard for me to make people believe that you cheated on me. It's your choice! And anyway kill it now then kill it later!"

"How could you?"

"Jeanine, think wisely!" throwing couple of dollars bill, I got up.

Few days later a life was taken away before it could even start and with a stone heart he walked away.

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A.O.A 

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Before I ask about the chapter let me tell you that I would be going MIA all over again sadly cause I have my exams just round the corner, literally! And well I am going crazy! Need prayers.

Now I thought that after the heartbreaking news in the last chapter we needed to have Wali's POV too, so how was it? YAY! Blekh! or Nay!?

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