At the sight of the hospital my heart started beating faster. I could actually hear the beat of my heart.

"Ashley, this is it,just go through that door and go talk to him,apologise, "I kept chanting to myself.

I Put all my stupid fears aside and went in looking for you.

My heart was was yearning to see her love after so long despite of our feelings not being mutual.

Searched for you room after room but your angelic face was nowhere to be seen.

I became worried for a second thinking it was all a prank and decided to go home till I saw it.

It made my heart pound faster than before

Sweat was trickling down my face.

I was stuck to the ground, my legs too heavy to move them.

"ICU patients left wing" was what was written on yhe the board.

It was the only place I had not gone in the whole hospital.

I ran to the ICU area and looked for him in each room.

I was at my last room when I saw him in there lying on the bed

His sight broke me

His face full of pain

The boy I knew was not the one who was in there

The one I knew and fell in love with was always lively and smiling when i was around.

"Hey,"

"You came!I never thought"

"I'll come right, but here I am."

"Come closer, in my condition I don't have enough energy to stand."

I started talking to myself again wondering what he meant by that but I quickly put it behind my mind and moved closer to him.

"Bear"

"Yeah"

"I .........I hhhhave cccancer and the doctors said I only got a few days to live . I may even not wake up tomorrow."

"Hahaahaaahahha" I started laughing to myself not believing my ears thinking it was one of his silly jokes, " that's funny but stop it you know I hate it when you such things."I quickly told him.

"Bear,this time am serious no jokes,"he said while tears were getting out of his eyes

"When I found this out I knew I had to tell you the feelings i had for you.I did not want to die without confessing my feelings to you that's why I called you that day . It really broke my heart when you did not come,"

He stopped for awhile and looked at me and wiped off my tears.

"I thought something had happened to you so I came to your house not once but you never wanted to see me.I knew then you did not feel the same for me . It killed me when days passed without us speaking.

It hurt even more when I endured the pain

all alone.

No one to cry to

No shoulder to cry on

No one to tell me "all will be well" so I decided to write to you that letter.

I wanted to see you before I died

Just a glance would make me die with less pain than before . So thank you for coming."

Tears started coming out of my eyes.

I could actually hear my heart mourning.

"I am so sorry.

If only i was not in hurry to judge you."I told him.

"I came that day but I saw you hugging some girl and I assumed she was the news you wanted to tell me

I got so jealous that I ran out of there to my home and cried myself to sleep.

So foolish I did not answer your calls nor your knocks.

Am so sorry

Forgive me. "

"It's ok, you are here that's enough

All I wanted was to see you

And now that I have I can go peacefully. "

"No!No! Please don't go.dont leave me here alone please

I love you so much."I cried to him

"Bear

Bear it's not a choice

If it was,do you think I would leave you after telling me you love me when

I have been waiting for so long bear, to hear that from you

Please don't cry," he wiped off my tears. "Don't ever blame yourself ok."

From nowhere the machine started making noises indicating his heart's beating was slowing down till it showed a straight line Indicating his heart had stopped beating.

"Noooooo,Noooooo," I started shouting. A nurse came and switched the machine off

It was like as if she was removing one part of my heart and crushing it.

I knew then it was time to say goodbye so I kissed him on the cheek and forehead then ran home crying all the way knowing I had just lost the one thing that was IT for me.

A/N:

I CRIED WHEN READING THIS CHAPTER.LOSING THE ONE YOU LOVE JUST AFTER KNOWING THAT PERSON LOVES YOU TOO.I PRAY NO ONE EXPERIENCES THIS PAIN.

THANKS TO ALL THOSE WHO READ MY STORY AND THOSE WHO ARE GOING TO READ IT.

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